Grace, a tempting yet cruel mistress
To comprehend my story you must first understand everything was once based on something that came before, whilst in heaven I was an angel of fertility, how ironic because no 'good' fruit was borne from my life except an image of evil. Children often teach parent hence why every generation is different from the last. I made such a point for you to remember that, even God is a parent and a child will prove you can never truly be prepared. To begin my story we'll have to start with my brother, Lucifer and I, back to a time when he graced the skies with his beautiful songs.
"Lilith, hurry or we will be late" a seven year old angel boy shouted to the slightly younger female who was distracted looking at the clouds, "Lilith we need to leave now" the younger boy grabbed her hand, pulling away from a sinful image, sadness.
Lilith stopped short of the front door refusing to leave, a small tug assured her everything will be fine. Within the light a sudle darkness took root and she felt it straining against her will, calling to her everyday. She embrace the boy's hand as he pulled her along to the gathering. Saint Michael sat upon a chair with pearl sword hung loosely on steady hips, murky hair rolled off his broad shoulders.
"Lilith, Lucifer! hey" a young angel called to the duo, waving excitedly causing his brown curls to jump with each movement.
"Hi Adam, do you why we were asked to gather here?" Lucifer asked with a curious gaze.
"I heard the elders say father is going to create a new universe?" Adam spoke in a puzzled tone.
"A new universe?" Lucifer asked intrigued by the statement when Michael's voice bellowed through the air, he looked to his sister who's chocolate eyes looked lost.
"We've been gathered here to rejoice at the wonderful news, Father plans to create a new home for some of our brothers and sisters, there every being will be allowed to live on their own", Michael smiled while many whispered fearful, "Fear not my brothers and sister for our father will never leave or forsake us" his words had sooth all but one soul.
True to the words spoken God created the universe seemingly allowing two dots to collide, at must the darkness emerged circular formations later named planets; each with different landscapes, weather and creatures as though creating each with unique identity. Lilith looked on month after month, century after century as God decided which life-form will inherit earth. Throught-out time Lilith struggled with the darkness growing roots outside the gates and slowly she began to lose hope along with her friends; Lucifer had become an archangel of music earning him fame amongst the heavens so, he left her behind in a memory, sweet lyrics of an old song, after Adam left for earth becoming the first bloodline on earth.
"Father? what am I?" Lilith asked bowed at God's feet.
"Father, forgive me for you had made me in your glorious image yet sadness lingers in my heart and I don't know why" ,her eyes never rise yet found beauty in the swaying of short blades below her feet.
"The sadness within your heart are for those whom are mere inches away yet feels century apart. It is your goal to be alongside your friends so I'm sure you will" ,it was her insurance but Lilith didn't know insurances expire.
Lilith like many took her father's words as gratification to follow whatever destiny was created, with her current desire, without any concern for what consequences laid on the other side of her current fate. She sat at her window- sill now frozen with cold touch of darkness, it's claws was sinking deep. One late afternoon whilst every angel were gathering, Lilith stood at 5hedge of heaven allowing herself to fall. No one threw her from grace, she allowed herself to fall as a star would fall from the night sky.
"You are my child created in my image and likeness tell me what bothers your heart and troubles your soul" his voice was a soothing and enchanting honey.
"I feel a darkness lurking near and it has spun roots yet it constantly calls to me, why father? What wrong have I done?" she asked weeping.
"Have you considered it calls not for any wrong done but simply it saw your light shining uniquely amongst bigger, brighter stars?" his words had given her a spear of hope but, at last, she had knowledge of swords, "Do you still trust in me, child?".
"Yes father, why ask such a question?" Lilith immediately answered.
"Though a foolish question you thought it be, a powerful question all the same" often father will speak in riddles leaving his children to find their own meaning to his words, "Child I ask of your trust, for, your eyes look lost and soul cries to me wary".
The angels, Lilith saw through, their forever happy exterior always feeling superior and in honesty, she had enough. Lilith felt stifled by their gaze as though they were trying to allow darkness to consume her but she wouldn't give them the satisfaction and embraced her destiny.
Lilith descended on to earth almost a ball of pure light leaving a crater in her wake, Adam had witness the falling light and hurried to its location unaware eyes bore sight to the birth of Lilith; the first female to walk earth. Wool curls cascade down her back hiding her bosom, she gently brushed dirt from their tight coils. Adam could not believe his eyes, a long- lost friend who was almost forgotten from memory.
He helped Lilith to her feet with a small smile, soft skin sent chills through his being, "Lilith, are you okay? why are you here? What happened?" Adam checked her body for any injury.
"I'm fine, no need to worry, I decided to take a leap" her laughter seem to excite his blood and rush veins.
"Where's Lucifer?" this question sadden her as sad eyes gaze at the sky.
"I am not my brother's keeper nor am I part of his being, I know not of his whereabouts nor him of mine. This journey is mine to take and I've chosen the path in which I walk" she stated, spreading sore discoloured wings.
"Are you content with your fate?" Adam spoke fearful of the sight for in that moment she look like damaged beauty.
"Why ask such a thing? I was not content with my fate, this is why I forsake my name right and descend" her eyes held a flame he had not seen before.