Dive Four

It's been twenty one days since Kimberly turned out and disappeared. Labeling my calendar after everyday passes without any news from her, counting second, minutes, hours without missing a beat so I'd know its been 504hours, 30248minutes and 1814400seconds this counting has made me feel like its been a year and more , i miss her so much and am worried shit might've happened to her, you know one of those ransom kidnappings cause she's got rich folks! But no one called for ransom and the police haven't heard nor find anything. Its like Kim disappeared leaving no tress behind, like vapor.

She's pretty much a celebrity now cause there's posters of her everywhere and news on every channel that am sure if she's alive we'll find her , and I'd love to believe she's alive cause I ain't sure if I can do this anymore without her. Thing is this search and waiting is killing me, cause I don't eat anything descent nor sleep, am pretty much a character from one of the zombie apocalypse, every time I think I should call it quits but its only been twenty one days! I can't give up yet" is what am thinking but I don't know for how long I'll survive this.

Lucky for me someone's been keeping me alive, my ain't and some troublesome friend called Yvonne who's also Kim's best friend , I mean she's had a crush on me for a long time now and I pretended not to notice since I loved Kimberly but all this hard work is making me feel bad especially now that Kim's not here I feel like am taking advantage of her feelings cause I know she's helping my aunt to keep me alive cause she sincerely cares. Speaking of caring she's here again, cause I can hear her nocking, sometimes I always ignore her for almost an hour but she doesn't give up, I mean apart from being Kim's bestie she's also been my friend, the three of us grew up together so I know she can be persistent when she decides to do something so I mostly give in and let her in, but I add my complain

"what do you want this Time?"

I complained as I opened the door for her

"Get out," she replied as she quickly entered my house

"Sorry, this is my house dude!"

"Yeah I know, I can't let you drown in your sorrows anymore so am gonna take you somewhere"

she exclaimed as she's making her way to my bedroom

"Thanks for the offer but I ain't feeling it quite yet.."

I politely rejected her, cause I know she means well, also because I feel guilty about our late predicament

"No no no, its not an offer lad, its an order!"

she said and started messing my closet looking for something

"listen Yvonne...I .."

I paused recalling what happened a few nights ago I slept with Yvonne , of course with the sorrow of missing Kim and my stress of course I was lonely , but the two of us agreed to never talk about it, I mean it was an obvious mistake and honestly I don't like her romantically so forgetting about it is way better, but am human, of course I still feel guilty for using her feelings for granted

"Don't worry..I won't attack you and its definitely not a date, just two childhood friends hanging out..aye Taylor?"

She noticed am still worried about what had happened and decided to make the situation less awkward

"Just today, no more hanging after ...cause I seriously don't like it outside without Kim aye?"

I gumbled and went straight to wash up in the bathroom

"Deal!" she approved

I mean maybe this is not bad at all, I just have to go out , get some fresh air , clear my head and try living a life for a change, I mean I gotta stay alive to find Kim. So yeah that day I had a lot of fun with Yvonne and I can't say it felt bad , it was good and refreshing but somehow I couldn't stop thinking about Kim in everything I did, it kinda felt like I needed to repay Yvonne somehow for everything she's done for me.

"so I was thinking....is there anything you want me to do for you?"

I stopped and asked whatever came to mind

"What are you doing Taylor"

she asked suspicious of my proposal/question

"You know..you've done a lot for me so I'd love to repay you somehow so ask me anything.."

I replied awkwardly , I mean between friends this is totally not a normal conversation

"Will you do anything I ask?" she suggested

"Yeah...anything I can I will do it for you..so what is it?" I replied determined

"Then I want you to go out with me.."she said shamelessly

"Go out? as in date you?"

I replied shocked cause clearly she knows am still in love with Kim and its super obvious

"Look I know you still into Kim but..when you asked me if you could do anything for me..I just couldn't let this chance go to waste ...you know.."

she made get priorities clear to me

"Look I really appreciate your love but...I don't wanna use you...believe it or not I still love you as a friend" I tried talking her out of it but..

"Am okay with it though, I mean its my life and I chose to be used !"

see that's what I said about her being persistent. If I didn't know her I'd think she's a crazy chick but now that she's decided to date me she won't give in

"If we date I'll bring Kim up a lot! are you still okay with that?"

I asked her still trying to talk her out of it. I mean I personally don't feel good about this

"Am okay with it, I mean I don't expect you to get over her so soon, I'll just do my best to make you Fall in love with me while your at it..slowly.."

she actually said that with a straight face, and when did we agree that Kim's never coming back or better yet,why is she so positive that Kim's never gonna be back.?

"I might never fall in love with you.."

I added. Honestly I don't think I'll love anyone more than I loved Kim or as much as I loved her

"That's okay too...I mean we gotta try and see what happens right?" she replied positively

I'd give anything to be that positive! she's just too much but I must make something clear if we're doing this

"One month.." I suggested

"One month?" she asked clueless

"Yep..if I don't like you even a tinny bit in one month then its over between us...deal"

I made a compromise, honestly I was gonna reject her but let's do this for her, not that I'll ever fall completely

"Deal"

she agreed and kissed me, on the lips, I seriously wasn't ready for that

"That..?" I asked puzzled

"People do that when dating...am taking my chances"

she replied and kept walking. that's when I realized accepting her proposal was a bad idea! It's like she's on a hunt and won't let me be.

"I have a bad feeling about this"

I said and sighed and followed her.

So now a new story about me Taylor dating my childhood Friend and my missing girlfriend's best friend is on the sequence. I mean I totally don't feel good about it, its like a betrayal or something but maybe this will make Kim come back, cause one thing Kim hates the most is have her things get taken away from her. So if she's really alive she'd never stand this. But I know for a fact she'd never let me drown and die in sorrow so maybe its about time I start thinking of the worst possible scenario(dead) and move on? I just can't move on from her, she'll always be part of me . Forever. For now I'll just entertain Yvonne for as much as she wants, I mean I at least owe her that much.

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