1 chapter 1 Getting to know you

people always say that it's easy to fall in love. well it's not it's really not. I should know because for the last 12 years I was in love with someone who didn't want me in return. all he wanted was to get me pregnant and have me give up the child to his aunt. it may look easy because all you have to do is say hi my name is so and so what's your name and go on from there. it's not that easy I feel like people don't understand that. they need to respect you for the foremost and you need to love yourself in return as well. trust me loving yourself is not easy but once you get that down you can change the world. and in this book I hope I can teach you how to love yourself and maybe just maybe help you find love in return. I know that it's hard I have special needs AKA depression anxiety ADHD developmentally delayed and much more. so take the journey with me and to find you what people really do think of what it's like to be different. I'm in a group home AKA nursing home and it's harder than it looks to be here day in and day out. wondering could I have done anything different. and yes I do think I could have done things differently but that's in the past. the past is the past for a reason and trust me you don't want to go back into the past when you don't have to. I have read a lot of Harry Potter books Twilight hunger games divergent in other fantasy books like that and it makes love seems simple but it's not. take Twilight for example the main character named Bella falls in love with the first guy she sees. and it turns out that he's a vampire. his whole entire family is vampires. in the next book that vampire breaks up with her and she goes into a depression because of it. then she needs a werewolf but she doesn't know it so when he tries to break things off with her she begs and pleads for him to stay but that's not how love works. so later on in the book she has to save her ex-boyfriend just so he doesn't kill himself what the hell honestly. he comes back into her life asking her to marry him. no no that's not how love works. love doesn't you don't break up and get back together just like that okay. I can't say that for the last 12 years I've been doing the same thing as Bella begging and pleading and begging and pleading for my ex to take me back. all he wants all any guy wants is to get into your pants and get you pregnant if not to get you pregnant then to screw your brains out and throw you away like your garbage when you're not especially if you're a female. love should be about compromising with one another take and receive take and receive. because when you know that you're a good fit is when you don't fight like cats and dogs more like just cats that's how you know you're a good fit.