Chapter 6

People think life's easy for us but no one really ever asked us. Life's not easy for anyone. Bri's whole life has been hard, so hard she tried suicide. I know cause I was there. It was shortly after the accident. Bri had been dreaming about her brother for months. Ashley and I had both moved out for some reason or another. I was now living with me boyfriend and Ashley was living on her own. I had noticed Bri had been acting a bit different but then again that was what Bri had always done. When she was in her worst nightmare she kept it a secret. She didn't like sharing her pains with other and for a time I thought that would never change. The night Bri tried to kill herself, I had this awful feeling like the whole world would end. I know this sounds crazy but that's just what it felt like. It was around ten at night. Bri had just got off from work. People at work often criticized Bri for being a mute. I can only imagine how it felt to be hurt both emotionally and physically for something you couldn't control. Perhaps this is why she chose to die that day. I was so happy that night that I went to Bri's house. She probably would have died if it hadn't been for that awful feeling I had at that time. I found Bri curled in a ball in the corner of her room. Next to her was a bottle I can only imagine would have been pills. Because I can't see I didn't know what she had took. I only found her because I knew the house like the back of my hand. I called nine-one-one and they arrived in a few minutes. Bri woke up in the hospital asking who had saved her. They told her it was me and she asked me why. I told her I couldn't lose both my heart and my eyes. Since she was both of those she was not allowed to die. To this day I think those words her stuck to her in some way or form because she has never tried to commit suicide again. I don't know what I would have done if I had been to late. After she tried to commit suicide, Ashley and I moved back in and only until recently did we move back out. I love Bri as if she were part of me. She means more to me then anything in this world. I would rather be blind my whole life then to ever lose her. When I found out I was gay instead of acting like my other "friends" did, Bri said so what. Who cares if you like guys. If you truly love that person Rudy I'll support you no matter what. After all loving someone Rudy is so amazing. If you love someone your willing to do anything for that person and you no longer have one heart but two because you hold that person heart next to yours. It doesn't matter to me if your gay because to me you'll always be my voice but more importantly you are me friend. Alot of people will be against you but I'll stand right in front of you and be your shield. I'll protect you from all the people against you. Let me be the friend you were when we first met. And just like that I realized I had made a not only friend for life but also someone who would always stand by me in both good and bad times.