LETTING GO

My mind feels heavy again,

Enclosed within the walls of my head.

Surrounded by demons,

And none that like me for who I am.

I smile. I hide everything behind,

Trying to be alright,

When I know I am never going to be.

I am so tired of this mess in me,

It is so hard to make things whole again.

I tried to take inspiration from your words of motivation,

But I don't like myself at all.

I don't understand why I am so hurt on the inside,

But I know I deserved it.

These thoughts in me,

Are brutalizing my mind.

I am so ashamed,

Of who I am.

I overthink,

Everything little thing.

I become sick,

Just thinking of the worst-case scenario,

That hasn't happened to me.

It hurts knowing that I have to leave my loved ones behind,

I wanted you to know,

That I tried.

If I ever had to Let go,

Just know that I will be by your side,

Watching from the clouds above.

Cause I am too tired,

To go on anymore.