1 Calm

Without further a do.  I quickly approach her and grab her left head set and plug it on my ears.  I am very confident at first and smiling ear to ear.

I sat right next to her and listen to what she was listening to. I was shock at first from what I have heard. Not like most of us who vibe into Korean music, rock, or even love songs. Her music was way beyond those, I think she composes it herself.

Her music was all instrumental and more on guitar piece. Her music was way too much sad that I couldn't react when she grab her headset out of my ear.

Her music is pure guitar, and sadness with full of pain. The strum of its guitar seems like it was recorded. As I had a glimpse of her phone I confirmed that it was really a recorded audio. Did she composed this one?

Her brown eyes are not as same as her eyes on the night she shared a table with my family. Her eyes darken as her gaze met mine. Then, after she recognized me her eyes suddenly gotten sad in a snap.

As if she's some kinda bipolar or something? She's way more different from the night before.

Her brown eyes screamed sadness and pain throughout my bones and soul. What I am swing right now was the real person who shared the same roof with me. This was the real person the other one was hiding. One person who usually never been seen yet full of sadness in her heart when found. 

Her composition said it all. Her music show how broken she is. "Just don't listen to this," she calmly said then plugged her air phones again.

"Your natural bro," Cedric said then pat my shoulders as if I hit a jackpot. I am spacing out and I'm out of my league and I couldn't even take my head out of what I have heard.

How come she's so fine, cheerful and bubble in front of the public while she's so blue inside and in such pain.

"What's your secret you seemed natural hitting on girls," was spacing out because of her. I couldn't even answer nor waned this guy beside me to shut the hell up because of her. All I could think of was her having trouble on something and I couldn't even help her to what she was suffering with. 

"Hey Raphael can you share it with me? I kinda like her, a no! I think I love that girl," For the love of Christ.

"Shut it out Cedric. You only saw her once for sure the next day she's no perfect taste of yours anymore," I acted as if I'm not really furious about it. 

I was preoccupied the whole day and neither one of my subject really got into my mind. Even the day comes to an end, I couldn't even recall the lessons we have throughout the day. After the class, all I knew was the class had ended and I am still out of my mind minding her all day.   

On top of that, she was also all alone sitting on the side all day not a single soul approach her and make friend of her.

"Hi! Can we be friends?" I am also shock when Cedric approached her all of a sudden lately at the morning after the class and she gladly accepted it. She also make friend of him and they started talking randomly.

After a long day I got to think about how about I should take her there? Without thinking I get her attention and motioned her to walk with me.

We awkwardly walk together or maybe I'm just the only one thinking that way. I'm not comfortable from what happened awhile ago and we both really are awkwardly walking side by side to each other. I'm silently walking beside then I noticed what place this is.

I immediately held her hands without thinking and rushly run to the place I usually go to and breath when I felt like my world seems too heavy. 

I felt her resisting but, I am stronger than her physically. 

When we arrived in the place I was talking about, we we're both gasping for air while holding our both knees. I also glanced at my wrist watch and relase a very heavy sigh.

We're on time for the scenery I always watch.

"What the—"I cut her off then pointed my finger into something. I'm still catching my breath and pointed something in front of us. 

I saw her eyes widen, her lips also curved into a slight smile, and I could felt that she love the view she just witnessed.

The clouds are pink and purple, the breeze is cold yet calming. The ocean is silent yet got a lot of waves scorching from the shore.

The soft touch of the wind makes my heart felt with warmth and calmness. This, this place would end our awkwardness.

I saw her put away her headset then closed her eyes, spread her arms, and she keep on that position for about a minute.

I automatically smiled of how she expressed herself to the world. How open book she is in front of our eyes without noticing it. How broken she is with those teary eyes, how fragile she had become to be this new book cover she created yet she got an old story to be told.

"Thank you!" SheShe said then a tears fall down to her checks. And again breath like she never been inhaled an air for a long time. Her shoulder that been down for too long gotten high up like it was lifted from being forcedly pulled down.

Her smile gotten brighter like she never been smiling for so long. This girl is hopeless.

She never got to experience what happiness felt like. She's broken yet, she's still fighting. She's different and I like that.