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Please note this chapter contains Smut. This chapter is important for Lan Zhan to understand why he feels and what he feels for Wei Ying. It's important for his character development. This chapter places his emotions in perspective.

So sit back and enjoy and if you can't read this chapter, please jump to the next one.

Much love.

Meditating on the banks of the sacred pool, under the full moon, by the peonies tree, my zen is disturbed when there is a sudden splash of water and few drops are scattered on me. Opening my eyes to glare at the intruder, my breathing falters when I see his grin in front of me.

Wei Ying.

Body submerged into the water, only his face his floating above the surface.

"Lan Zhan" he calls my name seductively as he slowly, oh so slowly raises and breaks the surface tension. Under the moonlight, and a lantern nearby, his body glows under, as the rivulets of water stream down his body causing an illusion of mercury. His hair is untied and is plastered to his back. The water dampens his hair and some of them cling tight. Raising higher, he supports himself on his forearm and they bunch under pressure.

I gasp inwardly.

His dark lotus eyes watch me with such intimate pleasure and hunger, as his stark eyelashes makes his blinks look more heavy.

With just a breath of a gap, I attentively watch his mole as it stands out. Watching me look at his mole, he purrs "Lan Zhan, look up here" and my eyes seek his immediately.

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Smiling, his dimple deepens as he nudges his nose against mine. He slowly traces his skin against my cheek and I can feel the wetness causing me goosebumps. My eyes widens as he whispers sweet murmurs in my ear. Shell shocked I am frozen to my spot as he keeps teasing me. He places his forehead on my neck and the rivulets from his, slithers down my chin, dampening my collar. He repeats the same the other side and looking back I realise my whole face is wet.

He brings his fingers to my temple and traces the bridge of my nose, down to my chin and his fingers hover above my lips. My eyes don't leave his as they are drunk with lust.

Just a fraction of whisper and his finger brushes against my lower lip and he bites his succulent lips and that breaks my vow.

The heart that yearned for him, was strung so tight, the soul that longed for him, finally was set free and in that one moment, I gave up on everything.

It was just him.

Me.

Us.

My hands grab him and pull him closer to me. One threaded against his hair and the other against his waist and I crashed my lips against his, sucking him dry like a man parched without food and water. His moans were music to my ears and our hot breaths mingled to form a union. Dragging him outside the pool, I laid him onto the ground and continued to ravish his mouth, my tongue seeking its mate.

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I felt his finger caressing my cheeks softly and I realised they were wiping my tears which went unnoticed by me. Leaving his lips and taking the much needed air, I look into his eyes which were filled with warmth and understanding. They held same emotions as that of mine.

Mine.

Kneeling next to him, my one arm went under his knee and the other lifted his shoulders and I picked him up close to my chest. His arms banded against my neck and with the wind blowing past us, my loose robes fluttered against the breeze as his wet self clinged to my upper half making it translucent for him to admire

and play with. Walking back to Jingshi, he places his head on my heart, listening to its beat and memorizing them.

Listen to them carefully Wei, each of them has only your name.

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Placing soft kisses on my neck he softly licks the veins on my neck and I growl.

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"Lan Zhan" he purrs and I enter my bedroom. The soft breeze follows us parting the curtains and I gently place him on the bed.

"Your covers will become wet" he retorts and I silence him with a soft kiss. Being reassured, I close the doors and light one lantern as it cocoons us within its embrace.

Walking close to him, I discard my robe on the ground, untie my hair and finally my Gusu Band. Climbing onto the bed, and covering us with the silk blanket, I take his face gently in my hand and I kiss him again.

This time it is a slow and dirty dance filled with passion and none of the hurry from before as I bite his lower lip.

We open our eyes, his dark and mine light, I place the Band on his forehead and his eyes widen.

A drop of my tear falls on his cheeks and he lovingly wipes them.

"Lan Zhan" he whispers and embraces me with passion "I'll forever treasure this".

Wei the name is stuck and I am unable to say his name.

Wei.

I open my eyes, feeling the rouge tears fall freely as I bring my hand to my face to find the band clutched there tightly. I realise what it is to truly dream of a beautiful future.

But is it truly a beautiful future for me? Can I have what I dreamt? Covering myself with the blanket, I cry for him. For me. For us.

For that dream.

But oh what a sinful dream!

Wow, just wow. Can I say to write this chapter has been an absolute pleasure. For Lan Zhan to finally come to terms with his heart!!! Woo Hoo!!!

This is for all of you who have been patiently waiting with heavy heart for what's to come, here is an insight to his heart (. =