: Off- balance

I don't know what is happening to me. The way I screamed in front of Emma was so scary. What did she think about me? I just am ashamed of myself. I was hearing the sounds I used to hear when those students teased me. It was all because of my mom and dad. You guys just left me without any options. All those classmates thought that you were there so I was talented. They even blamed you for providing bribe to the teacher to make me secure good marks. And I know that all those things are false. I never knew how to face those things. You never taught me this.

*Sniff

I won't let my past hurt my present anymore. I need to control everything. I will be okay; everything and everyone will be fine. I will take care of Emma and myself from now on. The one I loved was Jack, but he betrayed me and cheated on me with my best friend. From that day, I lost hope and trust in love. True love never existed and will never exist. Because of all these incidents, I am scared to fall in love with the bad person. And Andrew; he is bad guy in the opinion of other classmates, so I must keep myself away from him. I would never be into the bully again. I hate to fall in love with bad person. It sucks when we fall for someone who we are not meant to be with.

I won't waste time anymore. It's time to go to the campus.

Today, it was not something usual. I didn't know how to face Emma again. I would better leave a note and apologize to her for that behavior. But, before I could even find the pen, she woke up, still yawning.

Emma- Good morning. Sissy. Are you going to the campus?

"Yeah. I have kept your foods in the fridge.

Emma- I will remember to eat. You also don't skip foods. You are like a stick.

"Okay. And yesterday, I was acting a bit weird. I think I should apologize for scaring you."

Emma- That's not the problem. How are you feeling today? How is your hand? You did take the pieces of the glass out but you should go to the hospital. Your wound may be hurting.

I hugged Emma. My eyes were full of tears; it dropped on the floor.

I never knew that she has become so mature. She is still eight but she understands me in every way. She never makes me feel ashamed. But I am still hurting her, I haven't even told her about our parents. I don't even know if she would still understand the reason I hid it from her. I hope she would just say, "It doesn't matter. You did it not to hurt me.".

But unfortunately, It will make her loose the trust from me. And, it won't do any good to anyone of us.

After hugging Emma for so long. I left for the campus.

After our parents left, we have been suffering a lot. I even feel to do suicide but after looking into the eyes of Emma, I just can't even think about it. She is so strong. I get motivation to survive just because of her. And Andrew, I see future into his eyes. I think of doing what I love just because of him. Even though, I have no relative, it's just Emma, my sister. I feel so safe and comfortable around Andrew. I don't mind even if he is a bad boy, I can't hold myself from falling for him deeply. But I don't want his life to be in mess just like mine. So, I would better draw line between us. We mustn't be close. I will end up hurting him. He is much better than me. I am so scared of falling for him.

"Ava."

Andrew called me.

I smiled.

"Hey. "

"What happened to your hands? Let me take a look, will you?"

He grabbed my hands and pulled it closer to him. I released my hand as fast as I could.

"You don't need to worry about me. It's nothing, just a little cut."

"It's not a little cut. It's very deep. It might be infected. When did you cut yourself?"

"Yesterday, night."

"Let me take you to the hospital."

"Don't care about me. I told you it's just a small cut. It will heal on its own. Just care about your business."

"You must go to the hospital."

"No.. I said I won't – I won't go. Why are you caring so much about me? Who am I for you to care so much?"

"We don't have enough time to have a talk. You really won't go to the hospital with me?"

"I won't. " I replied angrily. I started to walk away but he lift me up in his arms and kept me inside the car.

Andrew- Put on the seatbelt.

"I said I won't go." I tried to run away from the seat but he was covering the door of the car with his muscular body. So, I didn't become able to run away from there.

Andrew came near me. He was trying to put on the seatbelt for me. I landed my hand on another seat. I was staring into his eyes, observing all his face as if I was going to give exam "Andrew Martin's facial structure test". Our lips were close like we were going to kiss. I have never kissed anyone in my life. By looking at his face I just can't hold my desire to kiss him deeply. But I know that I shouldn't cross the line. I am having lingering feeling all over my body.

Andrew whispered in my ear, "You are very special to me. So, don't try to run away from me again. I can't survive without looking at you every single day. I don't want to lose you. Even as a friend or someone special…"

"What do you mean by someone special?" I replied with a lot of curiosity.