1 Date 03/24/2020 Entry 1.

I was in pain couldn't sleep or find a comfortable position my tail wrapped around my body as if trying to fight off the pain

like nothing none of my sisters experienced heck most of them

didn't know about this if they did I'd likely get shunned even

more. I was already shunned for not wanting to mate with any

male I could get my hands and tail on I'm pretty sure they

figured outI was still a virgin because of being called white

flower while getting sea shells and rocks and even various

thorned plants, both sea and land but mostly easy to find sea

things tossed at me. Although the stuff could never hurt me the

only thing tough enough to harm us is dragon metal, made

from the scales or claws of dragons, the kind humans use to

hunt dragons or the dragons themselves who seem to enjoy

devouring us some even mated with some of our kind, as we

them. Really it wasn't an act of love but both beings enjoy sex

so having a really large male or a very fruitful breeder was the

only reason for ever going back to a sexual partner, otherwise

it was a long brutal time, with whoever we wanted to do it with

some even with multiple partners whatever got us pregnant

with our eggs and even at the same time fed us. The only times

we didn't kill the person we mated with was because he gave

us plenty of juice and/or because we had eaten enough for now,

other than dragons who used our ability for multiple children of

any size to crawl from extinction once they had enough

children so long down the line that the children was far from

the bloodline but still dragon so made perfect breeders that

they left us to our ocean and we there sky's with some of their

blood down here but that soon faded back to pure lamia blood.

Which is what I am, now commonly we pick human pray, there

the best breeding partners as well as easy targets most of them

see a nude female and jump right to us with little thought of

our tails wrapping around them they only think of what they

consider the good parts, and our species has a unique diaphragm able to take the fertile part of their sexual organs

and transfer it to our eggs so no matter what as many eggs we

can incubate with one man could be 500 at the smallest

amount. But me I haven't even caught a male or anything let

alone have any eggs, which is very hard on our system because

if we don't incubate as many as we can we have to eject the

unborn eggs out or we'd get overloaded with eggs, now it's

quite possible to have an egg hatch outside of your body, as

long as they're still living and not rotten or eaten. So I've been

given slack because of this because our eggs seem to attract

fish and other sea life who lay eggs and make the ones they can

fertile but it doesn't mean that the others like me because of

my choice, and the fact is I want a stable mate and that's just

not the lamia way. Not that it doesn't happen time to time,

commonly it's with a fertile mate so is fine but rarely is it of

love. Lamias love no one but themselves and lamias as a whole.

I've heard rumors of someone who can change a person into

what they want to be for a time for a price and I plan on finding

all about it