Gut Feeling.

The gut feeling got worse when I saw him the next day, I put it off and went with him to the rooftop for the next two hours.

      "Hey Vio, can I ask you something?"

      "Of course, you can ask me anything."

I rested my head on his shoulder as I looked out onto the neighborhood with a sense of worry, why was I so on edge?

      "Would you ever hurt me?"

      "Is that really a question? Of course not!"

      "I've just been feeling a little upset is all."

      "Nono don't worry, I understand. I want you to know I love you."

      "You're really doing too much just to keep me huh?"

Vio chuckled and brought hand up to my head, he rubbed it to calm my worries down. I felt the horrible gut feeling pass as he comforted me. It was still early in the morning, the sun shining high and mighty. Beautiful, I thought. The rays kissed my skin as I sat there with Vio, peace and love.

       "Vio, you're too nice, seriously how am I gonna deal being in an actual relationship with you?"

       "No idea darling but I hope you get used to me being your boyfriend."

That gut feeling came back, any talk of him being my boyfriend soon made me sick to my stomach and I don't know why. Should I really date him? I loved him dearly but was this a good idea?

       "Vio, 2nd period ended, lets go."

       "Lead the way."

I ran to the door hurrying to my next class as Vio was right behind, I couldn't wait to see him after class.

As soon as third period ended, I ran to go meet him at our spot but when I got there, I was heavily disappointed, not sad. Just disappointed. When was he going to tell me that he was already seeing someone? When was he gonna tell me that he never liked me?

       "So Vio, were you gonna tell me you're already seeing someone that you deem, what did you tell me? Special?"

       "Wait no! Lilia, it isn't like that I promise, she's nobody!"

       "That's what Zach said too Vio, was I nothing to you? Was I a toy? Was I just a little past time? Was I just someone you wanted to fuck and then leave?"

       "No! Never! I love you, you're everything to me!"

       "Did this start after I said I wasn't ready for sex with you yet? Cause if it did, I'm fine with knowing that."

I was tired, men treating me like trash after I put everything on the line for them. I said so many things for him to love me and I meant every word but clearly, he had better priorities. I backed away as I walked off, I could hear him kicking things behind me. I didn't feel bad. I wasn't going to waste my time on a man I met a week ago.

I skipped my fourth period to go to the rooftop, not like Mrs. Williams would care anyways. I guess Vio skipped as well. I saw him up here with me.

       "So, what made you decide to do what you did?"

       "If you're angry at me, I could give you an explanation."

       "Don't. What I saw was enough."

       "If you're talking about why I showed her jewelry, I wanted to see if it'd be something you liked."

       "Vio, I already said I don't need your explanation."

I seriously didn't need him to explain anything, I know what I saw. Maybe I'd hear him out, at least a little. If I loved him, I'd listen right?

       "Fine, explain. Quick."

       "The girl was my friend, Annie and she's not into me so don't get angry. She was helping me trying to figure out what you like, I wanted to give you gifts and make sure I was kissing you right."

       "Vio, you know you don't have to give me anything for me to love you."

       "Yeah, I know that now. I messed up, I'm sorry if I hurt you, that was never my intent."

       "Give me time Vio, what you did really upset me. Wait for me."

       "I told you. I'll wait a supernova."

I smiled, I let him come near me if he wanted to. Just so he'd know that I still wanted him. He came and sat down next to me, still keeping a little bit of distance. I felt myself falling asleep and next period wasn't for another hour so, what better time to spend fourth period than sleeping?

       "Can I use your shoulder Vio?"

       "Sure, I'll wake you up when 5th period is next."

       "Thank you.."

I leaned onto his shoulder and relaxed, I was about to doze off when I heard Vio speak.

       "I love you, so much."

He kissed my forehead as he combed his fingers through my hair, I was calm and content with him. I loved him more than anything.

I felt my shoulder being touched and woke up, it was Vio. I guess fifth period was about to start and he didn't want me to be late.

       "Is it time already?"

       "Yes darling, wake up."

       "Fine, let's go."

We rushed to class as we ran throughout the halls, every now and then we'd push each other into an empty hall and dance for a bit then we'd be off again. He was the high school dream boy. The pretty and athletic high school dream. He was everything a girl would want.

Class was about to end and I was begging for it to end already so I can go see Vio. When you love someone, you really sacrifice everything for them.

       "Hey Vio! Come here real quick."

       "Alright alright! One second."

       "Hurry it up."

I dragged him into an empty hallway, putting him at one wall while I stood before him at the other. I crossed my arms as I waited to think about what I was gonna say. I had to think hard about this, don't mess this up.

       "Tell me Vio, do you actually want me for me?"

       "Of course! You're all I've wanted for the past week."

       "No no! You don't understand, I'm asking if you really...want me?"

       "If really wanting you is me giving you these cookies I made for you, then yeah I do."

He wasn't kidding, he took cookies out of his backpack and handed them to me. I looked at him in shock as I started laughing, what was making him do this? He really did seem like he wanted me, I guess he really cared about me.

       "Hey Vio, thank you for the cookies. How can I repay you?"

      "Don't. I spent my time making them for you so don't repay me."

      "Thank you Vio, I appreciate it."

I walked him to his next class since the bell was going to ring soon and we weren't even by our classes. I waved him goodbye as I ran off to my class, I heard his laughter from behind me slowly fade out as I got closer to my class.

You know, I have that gut feeling again.