love?
why is love so difficult
why do i long for it so
why am i afraid of it
i wish to experience love
but i'm afraid to face it
nor can i look it at
i've told myself i wasn't afraid of love for so long
but now that it's right in front of me i can't seem to handle it
i want you so badly
but i can't have you
when i look at you my body feels warm
i feel safe in your arms
your presence comforts me unlike any other
mayhaps i'm in love with the idea of you more than you
i used to be so sure but i might just be immature
oh how i want you so
but i can't have you
I wrote this poem because I was thinking a lot about love, specifically how I feel about it. For a long time I thought that love would be something easy and effortless until I actually had to experience it. I've been in a few relationships, but none of them ever really work and that's because I'm afraid of love. I told myself for a long time that I felt the opposite, but when I really came to terms with it I knew the truth.