1 Prolog.

Humans can represent many things, some evil, some good, some corrupted and some pure. Nobody really knows where we came from, some says we are creations of god while other says we evolved over time, some even believe that aliens created us as test subjects to see how our civilization develops. The history of humans is both interesting and bizarre at the same time, they would develop their own civilization to safe people from many things such as diseases, food shortage or hostile countries, but they would do something stupid like wages wars for petty reasons or destroy them self in some stupid ways.

Why humanity is both ugly and beautiful, stupid and smart, corrupted and pure at same time, honestly, I both understand them and don't at the same time, probably anybody can give similar answer if not the same.

Who am I? A average human, not someone talented individual or somebody with tragic backstory. I ain't a hero or villain, just a person.

Honestly, I'm living life like average human as well, I work like average person and everything. I try playing games to escape from reality or read some 18# stuff to get some pleasure, but in the end both of this solutions are just temporarily measures since we all will be forced to return to this grim reality one way or another.

In this entire corrupted world there is one thing I always find fascinating and interesting, it's nature. Beauty, savagery and many other things can be found it. Sea, forests, mounts and sky can both be beautiful and terrifying at same time, same goes for animals that lives across the world be it either a parasitic rat or beautiful bird. In the past you could enjoy observing them with ease, but now it's near impossible. The air we breathe, the earth we walk on, the water we drink and everything else that surrounds us dying slowly, the only form of wild natures you can only find in some old illustration magazines or in some sort of zoos.

The corruption that civilization made is slowly destroying everything, many people are dying, many people loses their will to live and everybody is literally sick, it's sad really. I myself had lost an form of attachment to this rotten world and even have disease that will kill me in the future if I stop taking expensive medicine. Honestly speaking I don't know what I'm doing right now. I hate this world and people living in it, so why I'm keeping living? I could end my self at any point, instead I work non stop just to buy expensive medicine and eat cheap food all the time, it's not like I'm not bothered by it, I even hate it. I think I just lost any will I had, I work like an old gear non stop that can just be replaced at any moment.

I don't need to be some sort of seer or doctor to tell I will die by either overworking myself or because of my disease. I heard from the news that some countries begin waging wars in desperate attempt to acquire any resources to save them self, so there is now possibility of some random guy coming to my house and then killing me.

This world don't have a god and even if it did, he forsaken us the moment we were born.

Another day, another night, the circle continue and yet I still lives. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks and months passes and I still lives, I'm tired and I still don't know why I'm doing this, I'm probably an idiot then.

I just finished my work shift and went to the shop to buy some groceries, the usual routine and now I'm returning home, nothing unusual or anything.

"?" – the person was crossing the cross roads until it noticed a light flashing at him from the right.

A truck huh? He didn't even horned or shouted to get out the way, by the look of things he doesn't care any more if he drive or hit anybody. I doubt he have enough time to slow down and I don't have enough time to dodge either way.

So that's how I die huh? Hit by the truck like in some isekai novels protagonist, well there was always possibility of me dying in the accident, but the truck, really??? People will probably say I killed myself on purpose so I would get isekaied into some world with big tidies waifus harem or some shit. God f*king dammed.

….Em? Isn't that part where I'm supposed to die or something? Why everything is white and why I don't feel my body?

"Well that's because you died" – said somebody.

"Before you go into the panic let me tell you something. You died and only your soul remains, that's why you don't have a body and everything you literally though you instead said out loud." – said a woman looking like she is in her 30ths.

"Oh, wait so how I am able to speak right now if don't have a mouth?"

"Telepathy, magic, divine power call it whatever you want, I can tell you but it would take some time and honestly you are not first person who asked about that today and honestly I'm quiet tired about repeating this over and over."

"There were people here before me? Considering I'm death, are you some sort of god of death, reincarnation or something in between?"

"Pretty much yes. I'm a godly being that works under the true god of reincarnation and re-birth."

"So am I going to the hell, heaven or something or am I going to get isekaied into a different world and get either reincarnated or summoned to them?"

"Isekai option. By the way when I read though your files, I read you died by accident caused by truck, really?"

"Yes really….was there any people that committed suicide using the truck to get isekaied into a different world?"

"Oh yes, there was some idiots that thinked if they kill them using trucks, they will become main character of some story. I would reincarnate them into the different world if they didn't committed suicide like retards."

"…I'm sorry…"

"You had urge to suddenly apologize after hearing this, you are not the first one if you wonder."

We talked for some time about what's going to happened to me and other things.

"You will lose all the memories related to your past life and only something parts will stay in that will be useful for you, you will forget your identity completely, you will only be able to recall you were once a human. Are you sure about that?

"Yes. It is for the best for me to lose my memories since they will be holding me back. I know you already warned me that I would seek out who or what I am, trying to regain memory, but it's okay. I lost my reason to live because of time I spend in my world and want to forget them all together, if I keep those memories, I will probably end up losing my will to live once again. I want gain reason to live, I don't care what I will reincarnate into be it either a mindless monster or some sort of rock I will live."

"…Very well, you chosen your path and I can't stop you by the look of things. Just so you know, you won't remember me or the consversation we had the moment you reincarnated."

"I wish that your wish comes true in your next life o young soul."

"…Thank you…"

A light started to come out from the floor and begin coil around my soul, taking me somewhere. I could feel my soul changing with each second. I can feel my consciousness fading as well, I will probably lose consciousness soon.

…I wonder…If I really deserve another chance to live….