Unang Pahina: I'm Lost

I'm having my coffee at Tokyo Terrace Cafes and Bars to chill, reminiscing our moments together back then  can't able to stop smiling when I remember how we used before, its like there is no one can separate us but now im all alone and now thinking I was crazy tracking the past just to fulfill the emptiness in my soul and in my heart.

I was watching a couple of people walking in front of the cafè, and I laugh as I realized the fact that you are not gonna come back. Am I stupid for thinking that we can be together again? that we can do the things we where doing the old times? hmmm.. maybe I am that stupid, how can I be with you if you're now in heaven. I sip a thin air as I leave an empty mug on the table. it wasn't a nice day but I have no choice but to continue breathing even I am badly wanted to be with you there Love you know how I really much love you and I can do anything just to be with you but yeah just like the old time you always saved my life you are always there for me, comfort me and now this video you left after you died was making wanted to kill my self

habang nakatingin sa mga dumadaang tao na masaya sa harap ko hindi ko maiwasang mainggit sa kanila like sana ganon din ako sana kasama din kita dito sana ganon din tayong kasaya sana kasama kita. Nalulungkot nanaman ako kaya bago pa man maging bangkay yung kape ko sa katitingin sa mga dumadaan wala sa sariling naubos kong agad ang kape, saka umalis at naglakad lakad sa kung saan ako dalhin ng mga paa ko..

and yes Love hahahaha kilala na ng mga paa ko kung nasaan ka haha akalain mo yon...(*deep breath*) dinala nya nanaman ako sayo haha (*Sigh*) at ngayon pinapaiyak mo nanaman ako.. 

Love.... i miss you so much i still don't get it! bakit ikaw pa bakit! bakit?! ayan nanaman ang naguunahang mga luhang kumakawala sa'king mga mata... Damn!i miss this man that much!

i tried to calm my self but it wont be just like that... sa tuwing maalala ko ang lahat bumabalik yung sakit yung pait na kahit ibaon mo sa limot ay pilit na aahon upang ipaalalang muli yung masasakit na sandali ng buhay ko at yun ay ng iwan mo ako Love, Jay i really really miss you so much Love sana nandito ka lang sa tabi ko ikaw na ang unat huli ko pangako...

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