1 The Beginning

When I was a little girl maybe 5 or 6 I lived in a small apartment, with my parents and my little brother and sister.

We all slept in the same room and I remember it being late at night, I was sleeping when I was awoken to shouts.

They were so loud that the whole street could hear them I can remember just lying there, on the bed next to my siblings.

And hearing these awful shouts and screams from the living room, I remember hearing things breaking I remember hearing my mum crying, but most of all I remember laying there curled into a ball.

Crying and covering my ears to block out my parents fighting just begging them in my head, to stop please just stop I remember looking at my siblings sleeping next to me and, thinking how were they sleeping through this awfulness but other than that, I just kept my hands over my ears and cried myself to sleep.

When I woke up the next morning I noticed immediately that the air was tense and cold.

But my parents were acting like nothing had happened so I just went along with it, even though the mood was awful that same day we all went out, to get milkshakes my parents were laughing and everything seemed fine enough, my siblings were with us being pushed in the pram.

When we were crossing the lights to go to the park I remember looking up at my parents and asking, "Mum, Dad are you two all better now" they looked at me with weird looks and my mum was like, "What are you talking about" so I told them I heard them fighting.

So I was wondering if they were good since they were just laughing and smiling, together and the looks on their faces when I asked them, that were tense and they were looking at me like I had just asked the most awful, and stupid question they had heard in their lives.

And right away the both of them told to shut up and be quiet, that I didn't know what I was talking about, and the good mood instantly evaporated and became even more colder, and tense than the one from that morning.

Throughout that whole walk i just put my head down and, kept my mouth shut as we walked to the park in cold silence that, was a moment I will never forget.