43 Don't be batman

Before I was in a rush to leave the world that I called home. I felt like I had outgrown it. That the people here left nothing but a bad taste in my mouth. I wanted something different, an adventure instead of being in this castle once more.

Sure I had things that I liked about this place. Narcissa was my friend so I at least wanted to say goodbye before I left. That was the least I could do for her. I could always travel back to this world to visit her when I wanted to. So her presence was not really a good reason to trap my self here.

My knowledge about potions was heavily reliant on the ingredients of this dimension. I was not even sure if my skills in potions could carry over to other worlds. So that was a reason not to abandon this place. I would be losing out on the capabilities of gathering those ingredients.

I did not think that my skills would be completely useless in the face of new ingredients. Still, that was an assumption and you know what they say about those. I would have to visit another world to clarify that little theory.

The things I could do with potions were far too valuable to lose to my own restless spirit. Sure I had upgraded my self plenty but there was always room for improvement.

I had not fully mastered the magic that my world had created. I could not touch the giants of skill that were Dumbledore and Voldemort. To give up on the knowledge of my people would have been an unwise choice.

The magic system that my world ran on was absurd. Utterly mundane in some ways but completely incomprehensible in others. I had to cast several spells to make a simple brick. On the other hand, my people were capable of making small little pocket dimensions in a suitcase. 

We could slap time in the face and make it our bitch but ask us to turn lead to gold and we got stumped. Sure someone did figure out how to do that but he was not sharing that with any one else. We could interact with the very soul but trying to make food out of nothing was impossible.

The world I was a part of ran on whimsy and that was what made it so dangerous. Shit like that was what made the toon force a power beyond scale. Reality became but supple clay in the hands of someone like Bugs Bunny. Where it did not matter what he did as long as it was funny.

I thought I had outgrown a place like that. It was a ridiculous notion as that would be nearly impossible. I had outgrown my enemies here but I had certainly not out grown this world.

The more I comprehended about the dimension the more I was baffled about Wizards and Witches. We quite literally had the world on our finger tips but some of us lived in literal shacks. The average Wizard was likely to be a poor unskilled loser.

Even the giants of our world were no where near the limit that was shown to me. They seemed to give up on pushing beyond the glass ceiling. Instead, they lorded over the ones who could not even bother looking up.

There were things that lay dead and forgotten and I wanted desperately to find all those things. It was only a matter of time and effort and they all would be mine.

The question is what should I do about those so called giants? Dumbledore was an old man who would meddle in all of my affairs because he thought it would be for the best. Ignoring the fact that I really did not even want to see him. If I was still that ignorant child that had nothing on his side the old geezer stood a very real chance at controlling me.

I was not that boy any more but the old man was still fucking irritating. I could murder him and just wash my hands of the whole thing. The problem with that is he was a known evil. I was fully confident in killing him whenever I wanted. If I killed him some one might actually gain enough strength to do the same to me.

I went from a relatively powerful student to a nigh unkillable monster. Sure, the Chat Group was a part of that but the whole reason I got involved with it was Fortuna. Which I made using the magical system of this world.

Meaning some one could definitely do something just as absurd given enough time. I did not want to deal with something like that. I was perfectly happy being the big fish in the small pond. The thing was there was no way of anticipating something like that.

Sure I knew how things might turn out, that did not mean that if I left everyone alone things would still be similar.

That was the thing with the butterfly effect. The world had already changed. I played an important role in how things were supposed to turn out and I had no plans on filling that role. So even if I left the old geezer alone things would change.

The only way I could avoid having someone turn out like me was to destroy the world. If I was the only one that could use this magic system then there was no danger of someone like me coming along.

That was psychotic which I did not really have a problem with. I just did not want to do something like that. Even if my fear would be justified. Fortuna should make it so such a person would never be born. So destroying the planet was definitely an extreme move. Again that was an assumption and that was not ideal.

Countless dark lords find themselves dying when they think themselves unkillable. Still, I would rather not blow up the planet on a what if. I would rather just leave this world entirely than destroy it.

It did not matter if someone like me was made if I chose to fuck off. Good luck affecting me when I was not even in the same dimension. God, I hope this hypothetical foe could not affect me in another dimension. 

Thinking shit like that is going to ruin me. I currently did not have sworn enemies who would put forth the effort to do such things to me. So if I did leave then no one would waste the effort to go after me.

Well, Potter and his squad could be considered my enemy. I really doubted they had the capability to hound me but who knows these things? Maybe they would leave a journal and their great great great grandson decided to take vengeance.

I'm being Batman right now. I was planning out the very worst scenario because I did not want to be in danger down the line. By the time something like that would happen I hope I would be well beyond what I was now. 

I was assuming that what I was now was the peak of what I could be. That was a sad assumption and one that did not need to be followed.

I was not going to blow up the world. Now I needed to stop thinking about this before I changed my mind again.

If I was not going to take care of Dumbledore I should not take out Voldemort either. It would be better for me if those two had to worry about each other. It would give me enough time to finish studying the magic here.

I did not think it was going to take an extravagant amount of time to do so. So those two fighting to the death was better for me.

The journey I took for dealing with Tom was ridiculous. It started at he must die at all costs to killing him because he is annoying and ending with him being better left alive to be annoying. I was not sure how it happened but it did. 

Lily really screwed with my priorities if they changed this much. She was also the reason I wanted to kill him in the first place so she was really at the center of all of it. 

I would say I was surprised but I was really not. All of me was defined by her at one point so my shifting motivations having traces of her as well was to be expected. 

I was no longer in a place where that notion would break me. 

I wanted to dominate Lily. To take her because I wanted to see her completely dyed in my colors. To see her eyes roll back as she begged me for more. To have her spluttering with my cock in her mouth. I wanted to possess her like a toy.

One that I had every intention of breaking. I guess I was more like those NTR protagonists than I thought.

The sheer disdain I had for the girl demanded it. I was also still massively attracted to her. She defined how I saw beauty for the longest time. The supple curves of her body and the freckles on her face sang to me like a siren.

Those were desires I had, I knew them and accepted them. I was not going to act on them. I was in a relationship. I was not going to spit on that bond because I wanted to break Lily.

That would be foolish and not something I was capable of accepting. To screw around with a toy when I wanted to build something real would be vile. I would be just like Lily betraying those close to me out of my own thoughts and feelings.

I was a selfish creature but I did not want to impose those selfish things on the one who wanted me. The one who gave up her own sick desires because she wanted to occupy my heart.

The amount of time I spent in her arms may have been relatively short but I was more than willing to stand by my promises. Despite my disdain and desire.

The amount of time I spent away from this world did bring something in to question. I had been gone for two years. In SAO those changes never were noticed as they did not affect my digital construct.

It was just a game after all. Yet, my body did grow and change. I should have been a skeletal frame as my body would be running off of poor nutrition and not moving for two years.

Yet I did not feel horrible and a cursory glance beneath my robe showcased the same impressive physique I had before. The potions I took should account for me not being a walking talking skeleton. That or the chat group kept our bodies in a place that took far better care of us than a public hospital.

I think Ashley would have sent me a message about needing help if it was the second one. Then again she was a demi-god maybe the vast amount of time she did not move her body did not affect her the same way it would regular people.

I should probably send her some potions to upgrade her self. I was going to give that girl every advantage she could get. The next time we saw each other we were probably going to seal the deal between us. This time with our bodies. The amount of force I was capable of using would break a regular person.

Ashley was going to need all the help she could get if she wanted to survive the fucking I would lay upon her. I had to take care of her brat energy after all.

Making several potions so I could fuck my girlfriend into a puddle was not something I expected to have to do.