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I had expectations of what I would have gotten in the Gacha. The bloodline of the very gods themselves. A sword that could slice through dimensional walls. An empty solemn wish on a star that brought an unreal miracle. The hopes and dreams of an entire realm crystalized into an unreal dream.

The Alpha Stigma was not one of those things I expected to see. I knew enough about this cursed eye that I was worried.

[Alpha Stigma (S-rank)]

The cursed eye of destruction can be both a blessing and a curse. This eye allows its user to analyze and comprehend all forms of magic in front of them. Any forms of magic that can be comprehended from a mortal perspective are nothing but parler tricks to this eye. Users of this eye can experience severe mental effects when under duress.]

This eye was tailor made for the world I inhabited. For the most part the eye could be regulated to a magic version of the Sharigan. Some would even say that the Sharigan came out on top in that comparison for the extra abilities it had.

They would be terribly wrong. Sure the Alpha Stigma could copy any magic in its sight but that was not what made it impressive. The eye allows the user to understand and comprehend these phenomena. This was not a point and click type deal. With one look the user could comprehend all the principles that made a magic function.

Given enough exposure to various magical phenomena the user would grow immensely. They could use the knowledge that they had gained and create something far beyond what they could copy. That was what made this eye so god damn monstrous.

That and Magic tended to be able to reach far beyond anything Chakra was shown to do. One look at Fortuna could tell you that magic was truly magical. It was not just confined to things he had done as well.

The Death Cloak was something that could even hide from the concept of death or so the stories told. That may not be true but as far as any magical detection was concerned it was impossible to find the user underneath the Cloak. Big woop right? The thing might have been made by a conceptual deity so of course it was amazing. 

Well, how about something that his fellow magicians have made? The time turner. That thing was used to bend the whims of time itself and no one could even muster the will to be impressed by it. Sure it was heavily regulated by the government but no one took the implications of what it meant to heart.

If we as a people were capable of bending time to our whims then what could possibly stop us? So many examples of truly ludicrous effects and it was all carved from the hands of wizards like me.

Magic was something whimsical, something beyond sense, something that could only be defined by the absurd.

There were rules and regulations that I had to follow as a Wizard but those things did not apply to Magic. Magic was something that could not be contained by the rational. It was only my fragile mind that confined the wonders of such a thing. To see Magic and comprehend it truly was something beyond the realms of men.

So to say that the Alpha Stigma was tailored made for the world I called home would be an understatement. I should be overjoyed for receiving something so god damn powerful. The part of me that wanted to dominate everything the world had was screaming in ecstasy.

The problem I had with this cursed eye was what it could do to me. If the user of this eye experienced trauma or immense negative emotions they would go on a rampage. Their personality is replaced with a cold callus version of themselves with a god complex. With the power this eye provided they might as well be a god. Or at least that must have been the thoughts going through their minds.

That was an issue for me. I could recognize my own weakness and accept that I was badly suited for this eye. I was prone to experiencing emotions far more intensely in comparison to others. I was also a moody little shit that could very well fall in to a manic episode.

One wrong move and I would find my self rampaging all across this world. I would slaughter for no other purpose than these ants not deserving to be in my presence. It would be senseless and a complete waste of life.

So I was feeling some rather mixed feelings about this prize. I would just have to trust that the growth that I had experienced would be better for me in the long haul. That I was not going to be shattered again.

I could only hope that if the world started to crumble around me I could face it with eyes wide open. Other wise I would lose far more than I ever wanted to. 

I could at least take comfort in the overwhelming advantage this thing gave me. Its overwhelming nature was the only reason I was willing to accept this. The power it offered was far too tempting to simply give up.

Just a simple glance at the room around me was already teaching me so much. How the material was forged. It was not conjured but instead carved out of the ground with various spells. The traces of the cutting curses and hint of levitation charms were plain to see. The way the wards scanned and interacted with every single person in the castle was an open book to me.

If I wanted to I could take down this ward with a single word. I could have the protections that lasted a literal millennium shattered. I could then rebuild them perfectly and no one would notice the difference.

I might just develop a god complex without the need to succumb to the eye's desire. To be honest with my self I was already on a road that would lead towards that complex.

I could not imagine the leaps in power I would be able to experience just by living in this world. I might not be as done with this world as I thought I was. The sheer amount of nonsense I wanted to study would take me a fair amount of time to get through.

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: So Prince got another over powered ability. I am feeling really really jealous right now.]

[Feminine Penis: I kind of want to know what it does. The name of the ability is not really that reassuring.]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: Says you, I think it sounds metal as fuck.]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: I can't imagine what an S-rank item could do my Devil Fruit was A-rank. I could probably take out all the bosses you guys fought with it. So to be a rank above that is crazy.]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: Y'all are just poor.]

[User Likely To Fuck Her Brother has rolled the multiversal Gacha and has received Nine Lives (A++Rank) ]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: Fuck, I thought for sure I would be able to get another S-rank. Stupid ticket ripped me off!]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: I want to laugh but that is pretty close to S-rank]

[Feminine Penis: Super jealous, I still only have a B-rank ability.]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: Where is this Gacha? This is discrimination against new members!]

Rias took the time to explain the ins and outs of the Chat Group. I should have taken a more active role on that front as the Admin but I did not want to. It was funnier to watch Argo flop around not knowing things. It also allowed her to connect to the other members of the group better.

I was already acquainted with her so it was better this way. Sure we did not have the closest relationship but as comrades who fought against Kayaba we bonded. Sure she was not on the front lines but Argo was certainly a useful asset to the Clearers.

I had no idea what the hell Ashley got. The possibilities were literally endless as the mission reward ticket was for the multiverse. The title of the thing was fairly bland as well. I can't imagine that it was literal and gave her nine lives. 

Ashley already gave smug cat vibes adding to the motif was a sin.

[User Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin has signed in and received 88 points.]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: Nooooo, I wanted to roll the Gacha!]

[Feminine Penis: That is still really good Argo-san.]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: Yeah you beat Izumi and Hunter-san!]

[Feminine Penis: Hurtful.]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: Sorry Izumi-chan but it is true.]

[Feminine Penis: Still, hurtful.]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: What did they roll?]

[Feminine Penis: ….]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: ….]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: They rolled a one. Lol]

[Feminine Penis: Gah! Whhhhhhy did you tell her!]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: It's okay Izumi-chan things will get better!]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: …]

[Feminine Penis: It's not even my fault Prince-san took my luck T-T.]

I kind of forgot about that happening. I did cause him to lose out on some points. Then Ashley blackmailed him for the limited amount of points he did have. I kind of forgot about it in the sacrilege of destroying all his merchandise.

I mean he did not have a lot of points in the first place as he only rolled a forty on the first day. Still, I did aid in his blackmail.

[User Red-Head Obsessed Prince has sent User Femine Penis 100 points.]

[Red-Head Obsessed Prince: Sorry Izumi-san I forgot about the points. Hopefully, that makes up for it.]

[Feminine Penis: It's okay I got all my stuff back. Please never do that again. Thanks for the points. I can finally change my Username.]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: Going to ignore the context here. Hey, you wanna lend me some points Mr. Moneybags?]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: I would also really appreciate some points. You threatened me a lot Prince-san. My forgiveness will only cost two points.]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: Don't you dare do it!!]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: COME ON! I GAVE UP A COOL TRIP TO ANOTHER WORLD! I JUST WANT TO CHANGE MY USERNAME!]

[Red-Head Obsessed Prince: I am trying to make amends Ashley.]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: YESSSSSSSSSSSS!]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: But it's so funny!]

[Red-Head Obsessed Prince: Ashley, please?]

I did not have to do this as Rias was fairly chill all things considered. I could probably get back on her good side fairly easily. This was just a really easy way to do it.

Ashley would not even be that mad about this. She just wanted to continue trolling Rias. That girl really emitted brat energy all over the place. Judging from how this went before Ashley would continue to have her fun and I could make amends.

I might as well make sure Ashley was not going to be pouting for the rest of the day. I could not wipe that pout off of her face anymore. So with a flick of my wand I conjured a giant Cerberus plushy. 

The thing looked adorable and would have no problem attracting people to scam games in a carnival. I then banished the thing.

I may have already known the principles behind conjuring things but the Alpha Stigma really taught me I knew nothing. I once more conjured the plushie but now it looked far more vivid. The details were immaculate and the thing would last for literal ages as opposed to the two weeks it had before.

I then sent the thing to Ashley. The chat continued with Rias begging but that was to be expected.

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: Fine, but I am still calling her Magic Tits.]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!]

[User Red-Head Obsessed Prince has sent Breast Reduction Is Off The Table 2 points.]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: Well good for you and all that. I still really want those points can you lend me some?]

[User Likely To Fuck Her Brother has sent User Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin 100 points.]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: There I owed you something anyways Argo.]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: So my advice actually worked? I thought Prince was the one who sealed the deal between you two. You were certainly dragging your feet.]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: Shut it! Before I travel back to your world to stab you!]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: Love you to bitch!]

[Red-Head Obsessed Prince: I am learning a lot of new things today.]

[Breast Reduction Is Off The Table: Izumi-chan let's change our Usernames at the same time.]

[Feminine Penis: Alright! We got this!]

[User Breast Reduction Is Off The Table has used Username Randomizer. Their Username has changed from Breast Reduction Is Off The Table to The Best Oppai In The Underworld. ]

[User Feminine Penis has used Username Randomizer. Their Username has changed from Feminine Penis to Grade A Bottom.]

[The Best Oppai In The Underworld: GIVE ME A BREAK!]

[Grade A Bottom: WHO IS AFTER MY BUTT!?]

[Khajit Has Information If You Have Coin: I am really missing a lot of context here.]

[Likely To Fuck Her Brother: Don't worry about them. They really don't learn their lessons.]

[User Likely To Fuck Her Brother has used Username Ranomnizer. Their Username has changed from Likely To Fuck Her Brother to NTR Victim.]

[Red-Head Obsessed Prince: GAH!]

[The Best Oppai In The Underworld: Ha! I knew it! There is no use trying to lie your way out of this Prince-san!]

[Grade A Bottom: He must be stopped!]

[Red-Head Obsessed Prince: Why did you switch your Username Ashley?]

[NTR Victim: I know what I am about and it no longer fits. So I decided to change things up.]

I could only look at the group in silence. I doubted her even if I did not want to. I felt these ugly things in my chest despite my hopes. Despite the quiet moments we spent together just being by each other's side.

She never felt those doubts about how she felt. She knew what she wanted. She knew who she was regardless of what others thought. She could face the entire world with the vilest things dyeing her name and she would smile.

As long as she knew who she was it did not matter what the world thought about her. The words that once defined her no longer fit so she changed them. Simple as that.

Yet, what was I doing? I was wallowing in the past. I clung on to those bitter memories. Bemoaning that I could never feel as intensely ever again. I allowed those feelings to hold me back from holding on to this girl in the same way.

I could not feel that way about her because I was not allowing my self to even try. 

[User Red-Head Obsessed Prince has used Username Randomizer. Their Username has changed from Red-Head Obsessed Prince to Overdramatic Fool.]

I could not allow the specter of the past to bind me in these subtle ways. I was no longer the person that those words defined.

I wish I could have changed for you sooner Ashley. Forgive this foolish man for not understanding these things. I guess I was a late bloomer.

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The plushi is a Cerberus from Hades, the super giant games version.