chapter 4 : a conection heart to heart

"Oh Allah I want to have someone, be it a girlfriend / friend or whatever. It's up to God to arrange it. I want him to fit the criteria of my mom and dad. That's a gift for them. I've never been good. Make them happy. He's not for me. , he made my parents. Together with him made my parents happy. Hopefully I can be accepted in his environment. Hopefully we also rarely meet. I am afraid that he is strange, I'm bored too. Ah yes, I hope he is also someone who always blesses God. Allah. Coming from a good family, if possible, his father is a police officer to be a friend to chat with daddy, yes. So that I can share experiences and yes, we can get a new bolo. But hopefully his son is not a police officer. I want to fall in love completely. I love to understand my husband sad because I'm ignorant. Like ardi. I want to learn to love. I want him to do it kyk ardi (call it ardi first girlfriend. Yes, I just dated in first grade high school) and even then he doesn't protect his friends from prestige . I understand very well that boys play girls. So, I asked a boy who he was naughty with girls but not really. And later it will come back to me. There I will also get angry because he plays girls. I'm going to get angry too. I want to try to get angry. I never get angry and I can't get angry. So I wondered what it felt like to be a girl who struck like a thunderbolt who when angry blared like uneducated. I want him to be the first time I play "