1 The First Chat

I would love to introduce myself to you dear diary,

I'm Jennifer, my friends and family calls me jenny,

I was a blissful little girl who grew up as a famous teenager in high school and was limelight of every event and occasion, i had a radiate smile and bright eyes that always lightens up any occaison with my giggles and jokes.

After my farewell, i was not the same person anymore, i cornered myself as i was scared to go to the college, ofcourse my fears was true, i was a complete different person in the high school, reserved, quiet and introvert.

I never feel my true self after my school.

Slowly i stopped being jolly and dimple girl to my friends and family.. resulting in loosing all my friends..

My family was always supportive, and knew that there must be a reason of this "new" jennifer.

I was very less open to people expect on internet where I had gained a good fan following in just few months on a social media page,

I was also offered online job after that which was a turning point in my life that I don't want to get into any relationship as I was alone and happy this way, my career was on peak and I was no where to get into any guy as I was living my life to the fullest and scared to get into any shit.

Ahh well, but destiny never follows your instructions right?

It was march 2020, I met Ben, virtually ofcourse, on Instagram, He was a heartrob, his following was not even the quarter than mine but still seems to be a appealing & intriguing person.

"Hey" thanks for following back, follow my other social media channels.

His chat pop up in my notifications.

This guy's looks unfortunately didn't impressed me as I was never that kind of person who can get flattened just by looks and that's called a dignified lady I believe.

Hey, alright. I replied.

How are you queen?

"Ben replies in seconds like a bot."

My social media nick was queen.

So mostly people know this pathetic name I mistakenly put on when i created my account.

I'm good ben, i hope you're good too.

I was cutting the whole crap as I was smelling something weird from this men, like I have some kind of connection with him, but yeah, this is 2020 and I'm just acting too much and it's just my brain having virtual hallucinations in the middle of the night.

I was a medical student who left medicine for online paid work, I was 18 back then, when I started this job.

I was earning well and I never felt the need of any men to fullfil my wishes.

Ok so ben was not ready to end this conversation.

I'm great, I saw you have a good following queen.

Agghhh ben could you please stop calling me queen, it's my nick.

Ben " oh so what I'm supposed to call you then? Queen.

That was very fast and creepy.

Umm you can call me jennifer.

It's the authentic one.

Such a lovely name Jennifer.

"Did you saw me in my profile?"

Yeah what's the point of posting pictures and getting praised forcefully by your looks you didn't even created by yourself.

"Ahh, yes ben i just saw your pictures, you look so handsome."

And this was the turning point of my life.

"Thanks sweety, can we talk on we chat?"

"If you're comfortable, we can chat on my personal number if you want."

"Yes ben ofcourse, I was waiting for a prince to suddenly come and stole all my personal information & data i gathered in years", murmured to myself.

"Umm, yes in a bit." I replied.

"Oh if you're not comfortable then we can skip it, don't want to bother you.." ben embarrassedly said.

Ahh that was emotional blackmail, I gave him my we chat username and we continued the chat.

"So what's going in life lady?" Ben gained his confidence back.

"Nothing just working online and living my life to the fullest." I replied.

Oops Jennifer, how could you say that, you're in a lockdown Jennifer, it's covid how could you just say this shit.

Ben, "Umm I'm not, We're isolated ourselves as directed by the authorities and it's killing me inside.

Oh that's very sad I believe ben.

Feel sorry for you..

Ben " No don't be, i got you I'm not, cause you're here now.

"That was a creepy reply again."I guess this guy was very bored and I'm his favourite anti-stress ball.

So Jennifer, tell me about you?

And do you stay up late night or you're doing it just for me?

Oh ben, can you stfu.

Why is he so proud of being good looking.

Like the world starts and ends with him, this guy is impressed by the man he sees in the mirror everyday..

"No ben, I'm a vampire, stays up all night and sleep whole day."I replied sarcastically.

Haha! That's fantastic, I'm also staying up late these days as my working place is shut down is because of the covid restrictions and I have nothing to do, now tell me about your likings?

My likings? I like to block people who frustrates me in the first hand.

But yeah he seems to be nice guy, so not going do that.

Umm I liked to do photography, sketching tennis and basketball.

That's nice! Lovely hobbies you must be an active person Jennifer.

Apparently not, I'm a lazy brat lying on my sofa all the time, i told you my hobbies that I don't do anymore expect watching web series.

Yeah, same here, you know I was so active and energetic but this lockdown stopped everything i used to do as a hobby, and now all i do is to scroll and watch funny videos.

Yeah ben, nice excuse to blame everything on this peaceful lockdown.

I murmed to myself as always.

"Oh ben, that's regretful..

No I don't, because I met you in this periods of time, I'm so lucky that I found a good company finally.

Excuse me mister, good company? I don't even know your surname. Murmured to myself.

Hey so tell me your favourite food jenny, also are you a foody or not?

Yeah kinda, I'm foodie but my likings are weird like me.

I like typical dishes my mom makes, and I also like to eat outside sometimes, like sushie.

Oh that's nice! I love sushie we have same choice lovely.

Nice shot ben, he's constantly trying to match me for no reason.

Your favourite color?

Umm Ben it's black, sorry for being a weirdo again but I'm proud of it.

No no, I love black color seriously. Ben excitingly replied.

Jennifer, Do we know each other before, Or have we met before?

No ben, it's just dejavu or you're on a mission to match and impress me for no reason.

We continued the chat and he kind of attracted me with his funny and weird humour.

That cringy guy is not that dumb, i started liking him and we exchange pictures and videos of ours.

You look so beautiful jennifer!

Haven't seen such beauty in a while.

I guess that's a compliment or he's trying to complement me again in a weird way.

Thanks, ben you look nice as well.

Really Jennifer? Are u serious.

I mean do you really like me too?

No ben don't be a cringy guy again, murmured.

Ahh yes, you're a nice person i believe. I replied politely.

It was nice talking to you ben, i tried to end the conversation smartly.

Hey, you didn't tell me, ben said in hurry.

Tell you what ben? I replied.

Are you single? Or in a relationship.

Nice shot ben.

Ahh I'm single, what about you?

It will be every disrespectful if i don't ask a guy if he's dating someone or not, i should keep the records too.

I'm married, father of 4 kids.

Wtf? A man was chatting me in the midnight while her wife is sleeping beside him? You're so flirty ben.

This time i didn't murmured to myself.

No I'm not married, i just wanted to see your reaction hahahaha he's started teasing me like i was obsessed by his good looking face & physique..dream on idiot!

I murmured.

Oh, no I'm not i was just wondering how could a men talk in the middle if the night to a stranger having a wife and kids. I replied.

I just joked Jennifer, I'm single.

But looking for a girl to get married.

What? Did he said a girl to get married? Or to go on a date?

I was confused by his typical intentions.

I'm going to get married soon.

I am settled and wants to start my life. Ben said further.

Your life was started when you was pushed out in the labour by your mom, ben.

I mumured again.

What about you? Any plans of getting married or dating someone these days.

I prefer being single ben, i love this way.

Oh, That's really sad, sad for me..

What?

I mean it's sad for me as i was thinking something else.

Only a serial killer could be the person who talks about getting married in the first conversation.

I didn't get it ben, what's your intentions?

I like you and your family, i want to get married to you soon if you're interested.

I'm not that guy who hangs out on dates and then break up in few months, I'm different.

But how could you just propose a girl you didn't even know properly ben.

I was very curious.

I guess in 2020 it's just me, by the way I'm looking for a girl to marry from a long time, I guess i met the right one today.

Oh who was it? I'm so happy for you both.

I just turned and twisted everything as i don't want to be a part of this creepy conversation anymore.

I just want to imagine myself out from this frame, and out from this mission called "looking for a bride".

What? Jennifer I'm taking about you, you're upsetting me now..

Oh sorry ben, i just misunderstood.

It's okay if you have any other plans, maybe I'll find a good girl somewhere else.

That was rude mister ben. I felt offended.

Ahh, haha was just surprised ben.

We can continue talking if you want to, it's better if we could know eachother more and then decide this important matter for us? I mean it's a big deal.

Ben was over the moon, "ahh I'm so happy that you agreed, it tells that you like me the way i liked you as a wife.

Am i reading a typical fantasy book?

Is this men for real? I was confused.

So we'll talk tomorrow my lady.

Sends a heart emoji with it.

Now i have to be his good girl, yes ben we'll get in touch tomorrow till then take care.

I just wanted to turn off my wifi before anything more creepy happens in my life thanks to this handsome guy.

Ahh can we sleep on call?

What? Why on earth? Why me god?

I was astonished by his last move in his first conversation.

Umm, that sounds weird ben, sleeping on call? I have never heard this.

Look Jennifer, believe me or not, we do have a connection and I just don't want to loose it, we'll sleep virtually and see how the morning feels tomorrow?

Umm okay, it was 5 in the morning and i was dying to sleep, so i just agreed to whatever he said.

My cellphone starts ringing,

Um hello ben, how are you.

Why I'm being more cringy when we were chatting the whole damn night and what's the purpose of me saying a formal how are you in the middle of night, aren't we supposed to just call and sleep.

Ahh, Jennifer your voice is as lovely as you're by looks and by heart.

That hits really hard mister ben.

Oh that's so sweet of you ben.

You sounds good too, can we sleep now? Ugh i mean can i sleep now?

Hahaha, the first one sounds better.

Nice try mister ben.

Haha yes, i guess you're not sleepy ben, but I'm really tired and exhausted, i have tons of work to do tomorrow, so I'm just going to sleep if you don't mind.

Oh yes sweety, you can just sleep, I'm beside you watching you and hearing the way you breath.

Enough of this cringe, i said good night and sleep like i didn't for ages.

Will I talk to him tomorrow?

Or he will disappear like a dream?

Am i getting obsessed with this guy, or he really succeed to hit me hard, will it be a long term? Short term or life long relationship between us?

I was thinking all this and fell asleep.