Chapter 18

When I saw his face my spine chilled out. My eyes were blood shot red and tears rolled out if my eyes. I pressed my hand towards the pillow and wanted to scream and shout and run out of the room.

"What the fuck are you doing here Jason?" Anna screamed.

"Why do you care? Maya is my friend and I'm visiting her." Jason smirked.

"Friend? Are you serious? After all what did to her, you still have guts to come her with a bouquet and call her as your friend."

I kept my eyes closed and all those memories flashed in my mind.

"And what did I exactly do Anna?" Jason asked.

He was behaving as if he everything was just normal and nothing ever happened. I couldn't believe that after the sophomores partys I've hugged Jason thousands of times and hanged out with him.

"You fucking raped me Jason." I shouted at him. I couldn't take it anymore. My head ached when I shouted and it all blacked out again.

I couldn't see anything it was all black and I didn't have any strength to speak anything.

Jason shouted in disguised and threw the bouquet next to my bed and walked out.

I was in the hospital for like more than sixteen days and I was not able to recover. I often had blackouts and used to be unconscious for a long time.

Finally when I came home it was more than twenty days. Anna and Noah were staying with me. Zach and Steve often used to come to meet me but Zach and me never spoke to each other. Steve and me became very good friends and it was better than known ex's. Steph and Tessa were too busy to visit and Amelia used to come regularly with Steve. In a way it was all good but the other side of things were horrible.

"So all of you are welcome to the welcome party for Maya." Steve said full of joy.

All my friends held their glasses in the air. They all were invited to my house for dinner. And to my surprise Amelia and Steve did all the cooking.

"So in this special occasion we all want that Maya will speak a few words." Camellia said.

"Ok. So guys first of all thanks a lot for being there with me. All of you have this special place in my life. Anna and Noah thanks for staying with me, Steve and Amelia thanks for cooking delicious meals, Tessa and Steph thanks for always supporting me, Camellia thanks for helping me with all the studies and stuff and finally Zach thanks for all those special moments that I've shared with you and you are still special for me and you will be, always." I smiled truly after a long time.

All of them clapped with joy. We all had the dinner and later everyone left except Noah and Anna obviously.

"Maya I think you need to go to bed." Noah instructed.

"And take your medicines." said Anna as she bought the medicines.

"Thanks Anna."

I took the medicines and went to my bed. I haven't slept on my own bed since the abortion.

I changed into my night suit and I felt a little dizzy as I was too exerted today.

I stood looking towards the bed and cried out. Jason fucking raped me over here and I couldn't sleep on this bed now. I walked out of the room. Anna and Noah were in there room and were already asleep. I walked downstairs and lied down on the sofa.

I'm lying on my bed and Jason is on top of me.

"Please jason, don't do it. For gods sake leave me."

He ignored what I said and he kept on kissing me and sucking my neck.

"You are so fucking sexy Maya."

"Jason leave me." I struggled.

And he went inside me and I screamed in pain. My body didn't had any energy to take anymore of that.

I lied there numb.

Somebody was knocking at the door actually was banging it. It was Zach.

And Jason kept on going inside me.

I shouted in fear waking up. It was a fucking nightmare and my body was wet. I went to the washroom to take a shower but I felt miserable. I hated my own body.

I took a quick shower and I rubbed my self in a way that there were a hundreds of cuts I got from the bathing sponge.

I walked out and went to the kitchen and took a knife. Living all of it again and again was giving me a lot of pain so it will be better to take all of the pain once and end it all.

"What the fuck Maya." Noah shouted snatching the knife away from me. "Have you gone nuts."

"Give it back to me Noah."

"No. I won't. You are a fucking idiot. What do think you are doing?"

"I know exactly what I'm doing."

"No, you don't. Have you ever thought that there are people who still care."

"I know there are people who actually care for me but I can't take all of it any more. I'm getting nightmares about whatever happened. I'm not at all good."

"Maya I think you need someone to talk to you. Not your friends but someone else. I think I need to find a good therapist for you."

"I don't need a therapist."

"You do. And now you need to sleep. You go and sleep next to Anna and I'll sleep in your bedroom."

Before I could say anything he gestured me to shut up and go to bed.

I didn't say much and went to Anna room and slept next to her.

It took me a lot of time to sleep but then I finally slept well. And fortunately there were no more nightmares or any dream that night.