Chapter 4- Long Distance
Loki got home safely and called Ishuya for an update. They would stay on the phone almost 24/7. Loki would tell her i"m trying to make it a bit easier for you, and of course, Ishuya knows that. They hang up when one has to go out, or leave their phones and keep the call going. He would call her when he gets off work or during his break time. Ishuya would of course feel and think that aww he's updating me all the time, I guess I can trust him again, not like it used to bu at least I'll try to. She then remembered that time she had a talk with her dad, as he believes Loki would never change. Ishuya believes otherwise, she has faith that he can still change for the better because she's seen him as someone good as her light and so she refused to give up on him. "If one day it didn't work out at least I know I tried and gave it my all. I may regret giving him another chance but wouldn't I regret it even more if I just give up on the only person who looked at me for me and not as someone you wanted me to be." the thing she would always tell herself.
2 months later she got her VISA and a few days before Christmas, her father-in-law picked her up and talked about Loki and that he was hoping he'll be better now and don't fuck up because he will disown him. Ishuya of course loves Loki deeply and would try what she can to watch over him. She would update him "We're in Hawaii now Hun, just a few hours and I'll finally get to hold you again" "I can't wait to see you my love" he replied. She slept mostly on the plane as there is actually nothing to do. They finally landed She messaged him right away but he didn't reply it was around 2 am she he might be asleep and so her mother-in-law picked them up and as they get home the moment she entered the house and saw him she ran and hugged him tightly, pulled away a bit and jokingly punched him in the stomach "as promised, you get a punch" and kissed him. She was only able to put her bags in the room before they left for snowboarding. Ishuya who never did ice skating or roller skates decided to go skiing. Loki wasn't able to go up as he had to stay and teach Ishuya. She'd try to stand up but would always slip. Loki's brother put his arm forward as if scooping Ishuya up to support her but the moment he let go she fell. Ishuya was laughing at herself for not being able to even stand. as mentioned before she is 5'7 and skinny so it's actually pretty easy for them to support her. As Loki's brother went ahead with his cousins, Ishuya kept trying to stand as she was able to she kept sliding down before falling again. Loki would laugh at her as she just sat there stating she thought snow is soft but it's actually hard as she rubs her butt. Even at this moment, Ishuya is enjoying herself as she is with Loki. She doesn't really care what they do or where they are as long as he is by her side, it's enough to make her happy.
They decided to rest for a bit, Loki suggested they go back to the car as her feet hurt already and she can change her shoes. They got in and Loki moved the car to where people won't see them. He grabbed her head and slowly pulled her in for a kiss. They twirled their tongues against each other as Loki unbuttons his pants and then hers "W..wait. What if they see us" "Shh it's fine, they won't " She sat on his lap as he put it in her and groans "argh I missed your warmth, you're squeezing me so hard honey I won't last if this goes on" Ishuya who's worried of getting seen by those who might pass by started grinding hard against him as he put his head inside her shirt, he'd place his arm behind her with his hand on her nape pulling her closer and lightly pull on her hair. She moans as she tilts her head, she moved her shirt enough to grab on his hair and pulled him closer as he's busy with her chest and after a few deep grinds she took his hands up as she grabbed him by the hair and heard him moan, turned on and she grinds against him faster and even after he shoots his load she continued to move "Here's your torture" she whispered against his ear Loki as if about to pass out "no... stop... I can't" She then licked his ear and he had another shot before Ishuya moved away and put her pants on. *Loki catching his breath* "You can continue your torture when we get home" "I can tie you?" "we'll see" she then giggled saying "oh I will kill you so bad" as she grins. "look at those evil eyes *pinches her cheek* let's go before they look for us" then went back and got food as she got hungry after lol.
After a few hours, they went home and the so-called "torture" happed every chance they get at home. It's like way back before he disappeared but at the same time as a few days passed their daily walks around the park became staying home or Loki bailing out on their plans because his friends call him. When staying at home he'd be playing and she would just be on her phone and sometimes bring him food. Till it's her birthday, they decided to go out just the two of them but again he bailed out using the weather as an excuse. At this point, Ishuya doesn't know how to feel. It's like there's a void deep within her that's growing. "I flew across the world because I wanna spend time with you. I get that, of course, you want to have time for yourself but it was never a problem before. do you even want me here? If you go to restaurants and had reservations and they let the newcomers in before you, you'll get mad right? why don't you get it?" All this in her head unable to tell him how she's feeling because he only sees it as if she's complaining and she shouldn't feel that way. It's 2 am she took his keys because he was so busy playing and drove to the store, bought pizza and wine, and since doesn't know her way around that much she just park at a parking lot, and as tears started to build up she opened the bottle of wine and started drinking from it and having a pizza all by herself. It's her birthday and this is how she celebrates it. *sigh* "so 2 birthdays now that he treated me like it doesn't matter. Why am I even here." As tears slowly slide down her face she got a message *Loki: Make sure you're home before 6, I have work by 7* and she just burst out unable to contain herself.
A few months passed she went home and Loki seemed to understand where she was coming from and apologized to her before she left. And so their relationship continued back to being long-distance and staying on the phone they seemed happy and coping up. In about 5 months of being home, Ishuya and Loki decided that she will move to the states with him and so Ishuya planned what she will do when she gets there. With everything that happened when she was there and a few fights with Loki, Ishuya can't seem to go out again. She would try to but then all the negative thoughts would just come rushing to her. One of the major fights they had was when Loki decided to go on a sleepover with his friends along with their girls. As a woman of course Ishuya is uncomfortable with that but also the fact that he didn't ask her if it's okay with her. of course she isn't trying to control him or anything but as someone in a relationship, should you be thinking of how your partner would feel if you did or didn't do certain things?
After a few months, It's her birthday again. And well guess what? Another heartbreaking shit show happened.
Loki: My guilt has been eating me away, I know you don't deserve how I treated you lately. And I know you deserve someone better.
Ishuya: Then be better. I don't want anyone else but you and you know that you are my one and only. Are you breaking up with me? *she starts tearing up*
Loki: Why would you assume that we're breaking up? I just not to work on myself and as cliche as it sounds If you really love someone you let them go.
Ishuya: "If you come, you're gonna stay with me till the next day girl" That's the message I found that you sent to some bitch on your other account btw when I tried to search for you since you blocked me. And as you called me during those break times at work I thought "oh he's making sure I don't worry" but I was wrong cause just 2 months after you proposed to me you were already cheating on me?! whether something happened or not it is still cheating! and you even met up with your ex a few days before I got there. How could you? What? you just wanted to hook up? Can't you just keep that dick of yours in your pants?! *she just burst into tears and the pain could be heard as she utter those words*
Loki: *started to cry* I'm sorry, I was stupid. I was only thinking about myself, you deserve better.
Ishuya: So what now huh? you want time apart but don't know when or if even we'll be together again? you're just gonna goof around. Or maybe what? Do you have someone else already?
Loki: No. I'm only focusing on my job and we're on the phone all the time how can I even have time to talk to other girls.
Ishuya: You did it already. *she cries as she feels a sharp piercing on her chest* It fucking hurts! I fought for you, my parents, and everyone else! I stood by you when you almost got disown and when you had nothing! how could you?!
Even after what happened Shuya can't seem to just leave him. She told him she'd forgiven him and they would just start again and forget about what happened. She loves him deeply enough to just forgive him. No matter what she's holding onto the Loki she knew and believes that that version of Loki is still there and or a better Loki. After that talk and they hang up. She would call him and he'd would say "I'll call you after work" but she never heard anything from him again.