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I stood Infront on the building that I once called a home and exhaled a deep breath.this is crazy ,I am crazy .I should get back into the house and deal with whatever life throws at me. but I can't ,have planned this runaway for a long time it can't flop.i don't deserve to live this way ,I deserve every good thing her daughters have .Mama had always said when you do good ,good originally comes to you .but she's dead now and I can't stay here any longer.i held my purse tightly ,it contains the money I stole rather I took from her, my step mother's room.i can't call it stealing , It's not exactly her's it belongs to my father . I clutched my suitcase ,and strolled down the streets of California.it was 2am in the morning and chilly .I really had no idea where I was going to ,but I have to move forward anyways .I sang quietly trying to keep myself company as I went further away form the house .there were only bushes around here and it's scary ,but Mama had always said ,God protect those who believe in him .that was a reassurance for me so I moved on deeper into the night. singing the song my mother had always sang for me ,when I was scared it made me feel a little bit better .it felt like she was right here with me ,I'm not exactly sure she's up for the idea of me leaving home . nevertheless it has been done ,I can't go back . I was getting really tired and hungry and I got nothing on me ,the stalls are not open .I decided to feel myself with the memories of my family before my Mama died .I was an only child and though we didn't have much ,we were happy . but when Mama died of Cancer when I was 10 ,my Father remarried and it hasn't been easy since then .

i heard shuffling around me,I became alert and stood. nothing happened ,so I continued ,the noise came again this time closer than before .I gripped my suitcase harder and started running and the noise persisted ,each time almost drawing closer to me .I could hear my heart beat and my legs wer getting tired .I ran farther until I saw a house why will a house be out here in the middle of nowhere .it looked like a frat house . but that's not what I should be thinking of now , making my way I pushed open the door and entered .

The house was was packed with bunch of teenagers .there must be a party going on .I moved into the room , passing wasted boys and girls , grinding against each other to the music,how do they feel comfortable doing this .but that's not my business for now I need to find something to eat. passing the living room I saw a door which I guess is the kitchen . entering the kitchen ,I was startled by two teenagers having s*x on the kitchen counter .this is definitely not acceptable . seeing me they decided to give me privacy.on the table were fries and ketchup with an Orange Juice . sitting down I devoured the food .I must be really stupid to come to an unknown place and eat their food ,but I will get out as soon as I'm done.

"What you doing here ?".

I looked up to see a boy of my age staring at me .I had no idea someone had intruded my privacy.

" I'm just eating ",I said trying to sound casual.

" I can see that ,you don't look familiar ,do you live around here ?".

"it's not like there are houses around here ,so no I don't live around here .is this your house ?".

"not mine , but my friend's ".

"i see, thanks for the meal ,I will take my leave now".i said and grabbed my suitcase.

"it's to early to leave a party ,come let's enjoy more ".he said and grabbed my hand .

"I am not here to party ,my parents must be looking for me ".I said and tried to free myself from his grip .

" a parent ,won't allow their daughter to be out here alone carrying suitcase.it looks like you ran away from home . you're fierce and I like that ".

"Thanks for the compliment ,but I didn't runaway ,now please let me go ".

"no" he said and dragged me out of the kitchen and made his way towards the stairs .

"where are you taking me to ?"

"it's my friends birthday ,and I haven't gotten him a gift ,so am going to give you to him ".

"No , please I cried ,if you let me go ,I promise not hand you over to the Police".

"you're just going to have a little fun ,it's not bad ".

he pushed open a door ,it was dark inside ,pushed me inside and locked it .

I stood and searched for the light switch ,and switched it on ,but the light won't come on.going back to the bed I sat down and allowed the tears to fall .

there was no way out .this room is on the third floor ,so I can't jump out through the window .

Dear God ,I silently prayed , please let me out and I promise to go back home .

the door opened and I felt a presence inside the room.this was not the same boy that brought me up here ,the presence of this boy felt different.

"are you my , birthday gift ?".

his voice wasn't clear ,he must be drunk .

"please don't do this , you're drunk ".I said as I moved over to the edge of the bed .

"I am drunk ,but it will be fun I promise you."

the room was dark ,so I couldn't see his face clearly ,but he had a domineering aura around him .

I felt hands on my legs as he drew me closer to himself.

"please,don't do this , you're drunk "I said while trying to fight for my freedom.

"you smell so good " he said as he brought his lips few inches away from mine . pressing his lips to mine he bite my lower lips.

"open up now ".

"No" I said and shut my lips tightly.

"Open up "he said and spanked me hard on my ass .

I yelped out in pain he took the opportunity and bite me harder on my lips while slowly sliding his tongue into my mouth , putting my hands on his chest I tried pushing him ,but he was much stronger .

"please I cried , but he made his way to my shirt and tore the button , exposing my flesh . dragging my bra he tore it and started kissing my neck .I felt pain all over my body ,each place his tongue touched was like I was been burned with hot coal ,my tears flowed and i sobbed in silence .I don't deserve this , moving over to my shorts he dragged them down and kissed my centre .but I wasn't fighting him any more ,his wet lips brought shiver on me ,i closed my eyes and thought of my Mom .he pushed down my lacy pant and before I could prepare myself I felt a sharp pain as he slid into me .

F**k ,are you a virgin ?".

I didn't answer ,for a moment I felt compassion in his voice ,maybe he had realised what he was doing .but I was wrong as he moved up and bruised my lips with his .

"Bastard "I muttered as he slid into me again ." am never going to forgive you ".

I laid there , helplessly as my body was subjected to such inhumanity .once again God didn't answer my prayers .

the tears started dropping again as my stepmother's words rang in my ear .

"lris you're bad luck , you're parents died because of you ,you don't deserve to live ".and may be she was right , Maybe I don't deserve this life ..