1 Always The Same

After the middle school, nothing has exactly change. Not my friends nor my boyfriend. It's the same to see, to hear and to feel. But I think something changed in my mind. I was happy, I surely was happy, smiling through everyday doing what I love, games? sports? school? everything. But at one point it all changed, in my mind the images of this things changed. Because of one person, one and only person.

There isn't much to say about my boyfriend other than something horrible. You wouldn't understand right? Until I tell you so. Well about my boyfriend he proposed to me in the vacation when I was with my best friend, Lara, to tell you we studied together. Sometimes in my house, sometimes hers. We usually have some classes before we go to any of our houses to study. So it was the same. We had private classes. We were walking to my house. It rained that day. Construction was going in front of my house. So the road was quite muddy. Suddenly Lara got a call, she was like,

"Hey I've got this call I need to take wait a bit."

I just nodded. She came back after some time and said,

"The weather is good today wanna walk for sometime?"

I again just nodded. I mean what else do I have to say? We were walking around my house and most of the people knew my address I don't know how. Well in a distance I saw two familiar figures. Well yeah, Miles and Nick. I said to Lara,

"They are Miles and Nick right?"

"Yeah, woah Sam your eye sight is worth having! Or wait, do you just want to see Miles?"

I got shocked for a second, thought something in my mind and said,

"Woah there why would I be wanting to see any of those douches?"

She laughed knowing what was gonna happen and I laughed not knowing what's gonna happen. They came up to us. Miles said,

"Hey girls! What you pretty human beings doing on this muddy street?"

"Quit with your flirting Miles." I said.

"Haha I'm just joking Sam, why you so upset about it?"

I said not acknowledging the fact he said anything,

"Why you guys are here?"

Miles smirked and said,

"For something important I guess."

And then he knelt down on the ground, with a rose in his hand and said,

"I love you."

And I got freaking shocked but I didn't understand their conspiration against me or for me. I didn't love him or anything but they persuaded me to accept him. And so I did. But I didn't love him back then. Still it all went on all right.

I had two more "female" best friends Talia and Mia. They were pretty good other than Talia was a total knucklehead and Mia is a snake. Well Mia had a crush on Miles before like really before he was even my boyfriend and she said to me something so stupid like damn how stupid can you be,

"So yesterday I had a dream about my ex boyfriend, he was holding my hand and a blade in the other hand. He said to me that if I leave him he'll kill himself. And that was the time when Miles came and save me from his grip. He did cut but he was hospitalised."

I was really like,

"Ehh, okay."

Well there's this meme with the word "ehh, okay." So I wanted to mimic the meme but guess what I'm so dumb to mimic that.

I had another best friend, not from my school though. He was my one and only "genuine" male best friend. His name was Aiden and he was a really like fucking really nice guy. We had chats like:

Aiden : Yo babe. Sup?

Me : Going great. Wby??

Aiden : Well I did that for ya. As u said.

Me : Ohh Aidie, love ya..

Aiden : Love ya..

My so called boyfriend wasn't serious and I wasn't too. But one day out of nowhere, he had feelings for me. I still didn't know that my friends and him conspired together for me to accept his "not so genuine" feelings. But in a way I did. So I have to bear with it.

And about his best friend and also mine, Nick, he had a bad habit of taking screenshots. I don't know how he get access to my Facebook account but he did. And the only thing that came to my mind after that was, Miles gave him my id. How'd Miles get my id you say? I gave it to him because I had his. I'm dumb I know but well I can't do anything about that. He got into my account and took a screenshot of mine and Aiden's chat. So he got the screenshot and shouted at me like shit.

Miles : Why the heck you are betraying me?

Me : I didn't. He is my best friend. And u should understand that.

Miles : Fuck him. You are mine. You can't just go around and say 'I love u' to goddamned anyone.

Me : Fine.

Part of me was saying "Why the hell do you care about what he says?" and part of me was like "Just stay with him, he loves you now." It's hard but somehow we managed to still be the best of friends. And two months went on looking like that. But at one point after two freaking months I fell in love with Miles, like for real.

But still Nick always got access to my Facebook account and took more screenshots, not of the whole conversation but when i said him 'I love you'. And we had fights, arguments about the same fucking thing.

Miles : Again u told him??

Me : What's the big deal?? I told ya. Baby i love only you. He just did a little thing of mine and that's why I just told him. Don't get angry.

Miles : Whatever. But don't do that ever again. I know u love me. I love u too.

Me : *kiss emoji*

Miles : *kiss emoji*

And it went on. After I made my first goddamned mistake that cause breaking the trust. And I never thought it would change so fucking drastically. But i think everything is always the same.