I Am Too Weak(2)

The angel made his speech and dropped the weapons. I sat down and rested for a bit. 

Now the problem of getting stronger, is not a problem anymore. 

That might sound arrogant coming from a level 2. But with enough time who knows what level I will achieve. 

It really is a blessing that I can keep my stats. I looked at Yon and thought of the special boss. 

The special boss had the appearance of a wolf, and the pressure that it exhibited was no joke. 

The pressure of the angel was still many times stronger. The feeling that the wolf gave me was intimidating for sure. But I could still move and lock eyes with it. 

The feeling that the angel gave was very different. There was fear and a bit of authority mixed in.

The emotion it gave was something like 'I dare you to do something'. Like the humans were ants and he was our owner. 

That dosen't mean that the wolf is weak, because the pressure of the angel was stronger. No it was very strong, almost too strong. 

The goblins compared to that wolf, was like a child compared to a lion. It was like the tower was pranking us. Giving some easy monsters to kill, making us put down our guard, and then releasing a boss that was so much stronger. 

Like what is the balancing team doing, are they even looking at the feedback? I joke with myself to cope. 

But even now I see no chance of killing it. At least not alone. But getting companions was also very hard for me. I don't want to experience someones death again, and making promises that I couldn't keep.

I shouldn't have made that promise. with Yon Why did i get attached so fast? She reminded of myself when I was younger. 

I have read so many novels with regressors, that I should have known what their weakness was. 

Yet I forgot, because of the low difficulty of the 1st floor. The weakness that regressors have is not that they are too weak. No it's the opposite. They have infinite potential to become the stronger. 

The problem is that it takes too long to become the stronger. Therefore the biggest weakness is the mental strength of the regressor. At some point they will have experienced anything, and life will become emotionless for them. 

You get jumpscared once and your feel like you are about to die. But imagine getting the same jumpscare again and again, It will start to get boring. 

Losing your loved ones is hard. But losing your loved ones, thousands of times is so much harder. 

Not only that the regressors also have to live with the guilt that they were the only one that survived. 

Imagine this you fall in love with someone, or you become best friends with someone. Then you regress and they say 'Who are you?' like you were some stranger. Well for them you really are a stranger.

All those memories you had of them. You as the regressor are the only one to keep them. They will never ever remember that. You could tell them that you are a regressor and about the memories you guys shared, and they could believe it. 

Because you will tell them secrets, that they never have shared with anyone to convince that person. But so what? The genuine feeling they had will never be the same. Since they never experienced those memories personally. 

Therefore having a good mentality is key to survive as a regressor. And for that to happen I must follow two things. 

First I shouldn't make companions, because of the reasons above. I already got attached to Yon, and this is only the 1st floor. What if I keep doing the same thing until the 50th floor. I would have made 50 promises, and seen 50 close people die again and again.

My mental health will lose in the long run, before I even clear this tower. I can't do stuff like 'Cultivating for 100 years without getting bored' like the protagonists. As a normal person from the 21st century, the mental strength of those protagonist is insane. 

I am just a normal person, who coincidentally got an overpowered skill. 

I know that at some point avoiding companions is impossible. But I should make interractions as minimal as possible. 

Second killing other humans, should be avoided as much as possible. This should be obvious, but I don't want to become a heartless killer. 

The regressors that kills people again and again, without feeling guilty. Can you really call those regressors, human? They might as well be a monster, that has a human form. What if after I clear this tower, I just start to kill humans left and right because I got used to it?

I know that I can't keep avoid killing other players, but this should be done as minimal as possible. 

Now that is out of the way, I stand up to strecth my body. The problem is now the special boss, that appears after killing 500 goblins. 

I go to the pile of weapons to adjust to my new strength of an amzing stat of 6. I have decided that I will not be using that free stat point for now. It might come in handy in later regressions. 

Taking out a sword I start to swing it around. The 1 extra stat is no joke. The sword feels lighter now, and after killing so many goblins I feel my sword moves are getting smoother. 

I walk to the west side of the forest and start looking for goblins. Soon two goblins with wooden clubs could be found and I try to be as silent as possible. 

Slowly approaching the goblins who had their back turned towards me. Trying to be silent in a forest full of leaves, rocks and branches is super difficult. But nontheless I somehow managed to get within swinging distance. 

Swish! 

I horizontally swing with all my strength towards one of the goblins thin neck. 

Hitting the shoulder did not happen this time, instead his head was cleanly severed from his body. 

Before the other goblin could react, I swing vertically making a big wound on his upper body. 

The fight was set in stone as I saw the goblin struggling to even lift his wooden club. 

'I should finish this fast'. 

I know that the goblin is a monster, but there is no need to torture it to death. I charge forward and swing my sword towards his left foot. Right before I hit the left foot I quickly redirect my sword towards his neck. 

Swish! 

I severed his head and his pupils slowly fades out. 

The sword redirection is a new technique that I am trying to learn. These goblins that are intelligent react quickly to my sword swings. Therefore I try to feint my moves and instead go for another body part instead. 

This is easier said than done. Because to quickly redirect my sword, I need to fight against my own momentum. And the technique dosen't work sometimes as I am too slow to do it. It worked this time because he was injured and was slowed down. 

In the end I don't know anything about swords, or any weapons for that sake. 

I have never once wieleded a sword before, so the only thing I can do is try to improvise. 

Sitting down to rest for a few minutes to clear the mind and body is essential, because killing monsters takes a big toll on the body, both mentally and physically. 

"I miss drinking beer and eating fried chicken". I say with a tired tone.

I would do anything to eat some crispy chicken again. I heard that a lot of animals taste like chicken.

I look at the goblins dead corpses. 

'Does goblin also taste like chicken?' 

I quickly remove that thought, as I don't want to eat monsters. I think if I start to eat monsters, I will actually go insane. 

The only way to get that fried chicken, is to hurry up and clear this floor so I can go home. 

I stand up and pull out my sword. 

"It's time to hunt and try to get to level 3". 

*****

[Announcement: You have leveled up!] 

The feeling of getting stronger and more energetic showed up at the same time as the announcement. In front of me were 4 dead goblins with multiple sword wounds.

The announcement showed up after killing around 25 goblins. I regressed a lot and I found an optimal way to kill goblins. 

Everytime I regressed I would run to the west side of the forest. The same 4 goblins would always be there, and the way they reacted was almost always the same. 

First I ambush one of the goblins killing him immediately. I always have time to make a severe injury on the second goblin, or even kill him somtimes before they can react. 

The remainging two goblins is a little more tiring, but after a few minutes they would also die. I do sometimes get small injuries, but they aren't severe enough to activate my skill. 

"I can move on to the next step now". 

I take out my dagger and stab myself in the eye. 

[Skill activation]

- Perfect Clear[X]

[Returning to the moment you first entered this floor]