Calling

I am fourteen, I am in shape, I swim to keep in shape, but I do not consider myself attractive.

School does not really seem easy or difficult to me, studying is just an obligation you must fulfill if you want to survive in the future, but that is not important at the moment.

Why?

Because some asshole just ran me over.

I can't move my body and I don't feel pain, which is bad right?

I must be dying, I feel like I should be panicking, but it wouldn't really serve a purpose, the universe doesn't care if another guy dies young. Thanks for nothing universe!

The only thing I did throughout my life was reading novels of all kinds and wasting time on video games, maybe I should have done more, I have had hundreds of lives full of adventure on paper, but in real life I have accomplished nothing.

The good thing about my death is that at least I'll stop being a burden to my family, I am just a waste of money.

I hope my parents don't mourn my death for a long, I don't think I would have achieved much if I had become an adult.

If there is something I regret, it's that I've never had a girlfriend, I am 100% sure that no girl is in love with me, experiencing being loved just for being myself would have been nice.

Do heaven and hell exist?

My conscience is fading.

Am I going to be missed? Will someone remember me?

I don't want to die, I want to do more, I haven't reached my full potential.

"I don't want to die" I managed to say before dying.