Sorry Susan

Zain's point of view…

     For fifteen minutes or so, I continued to stare in the distance. She left before I could understand what she was telling me.

  The anger in her eyes is not something I could ignore. She is indeed angry but why?.

  I turned to her body on the bed and a tear dropped from my eyes.

   "Sorry Susan, I am so sorry"

 I muttered quietly while shaking my head.

I turned and walked out of the ward after I had covered her body.

  This is the hardest part, it was like I left part of me at the ward. I blindly walked into Dr Emmanuel. I only came back to my senses when I felt a light touch on my shoulders.

"I am so sorry for your loss"

I heard him say  and I smirked despite my heavy heart. What is he sorry for? his lover is dead or that he cheated with her?

   I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down. I looked at Dr Emmanuel who still has that concerned look in his face.

"Thank you"

I replied softly and turned then started walking . My mind wandered back to the image of Zain's body on the bed.

My mind drifted to the thought of going there again soon and see her lifeless body. It was such an upsetting sight, I can't even begin to describe it. But I guess it is what it is.

"She would be soon transfer to the mogue but I would need you to sign some documents"

  His voice brought me back to the present and I halted,

 I nodded without looking up and walked back to Dr Emanuel.

He was holding some papers which I did not realize he had with him. This is how fast he wants her body to deposit?

    "I want her body to be in the ward till evening"

I said carelessly and took the papers from him.

"Where do I sign?"

I asked with my voice void of emotions.

  "Here please and leaving her at the ward, we will do that but please do make it here before we can take her body to the mogue"

He said all that nervously.

I smiled slightly as I signed the papers which were filled with medical jargon.

  "I will"

I simply said and handed the papers back to him after signing my name.

Dr Emmanuel nodded and gave me a pity look.

"Once again I am...."

I held my hands up preventing from completing his statement. I am tired of the sorry messages. No amount of sorry would bring her back.

  "It's fine"

I replied, trying to keep the coldness in my voice.

He turned on his heels and made to leave when I stopped him.

"Where is my baby?"

He hesitated then walked back to me,

"She is with Nurse Grace. You can see her right now"

He said leading the way. I kept a straight face as we walked through the hospital.

  After walking passed many corridors we finally reached our destination. The door opened and Dr Emmanuel stepped aside so I could walk in.

There Claire was lying peacefully on the cot with the nurse standing beside the cot.

   "Mr Zidat!"

  The nurse murmured and stepped aside as I neared the baby cit. Claire was sleeping soundly unaware of her mama passing away.

   I crunched to the bed then kissed her after then, I picked her up. 

  I felt the air change and I looked around, Susan was standing at the door. She was not angry again but sad.

   Her lips moved but I did not get to understand what she was saying.

 I creased my brows and she shook her head sadly then turned and vanished.

My phone began to ring and I snapped out of the trance.

  I fumbled for my pocket and at it I caught The nurse and Dr Emmanuel giving each other a meaningful glance.

  Whatever it is, I don't care. Whatever it is should not bother me but something at the back of my mind tells me it has everything to do with me.

  I finally found my phone and it was Ethan calling. I declined the call and pocketed my phone then walked out of the ward with Nurse Grace and Dr Emmanuel trailing behind me.

  I got to the car and when I made to place the baby on the seat, I realized she needs a car seat and I need to get one ASAP.

  "Here"

I turned and saw Nurse Grace handing A baby car seat to me. I gave her a glance and she retrieved her hand.