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Depression, anger.....
They are just building up in me right now
I mean we just moved to Chicago last 2 year and now we moving to new York
Well that's what you get when your mom is a criminal
Mom deals on drug trafficking and it's really getting serious
It's affecting me so badly physically and socially in the sense that i don't even have friends at school
And when deep down i really want to report to the police i just end up having the fucking guilt that she's my mom...., but then no one cares about how i feel too
Just....
It's fucking stressful
I sat down on the hip of clothes on my bed really thinking about my life when i heard moms voice
"Lily baby"
Yeah she's at it again
Coming to make me feel sorry that we had to leave for her godforsaken reason
"Hey baby girl....don't tell me you mad now"
She said walking into my room and going straight to my bed
I didn't say a word i was just arranging my stuff into my box
"Look lily you not loosing anything...
You don't have any close friends, they don't like you at your school, so why you so fed up about the moving out "
Now this really got me...
"Really mom...
"Wow..., well you can as well tell me to drop out and join you with ur drug business since i don't fancy school
"Can i even ask why you gave birth to me, cos i don't even have the right to my own life..." i said angrily and stood up
"Pls just abandon me
"You better off without me cos i can't continue to move from one city to another every year because of your own selfish reasons"
I stormed out the door leaving her in awe
For real i really have been holding it for the past 6 years
Buh now i'm 18 and i need to have the right to my fucking life
Plus i almost made a friend at school
Story for another day
Now we have to move
Fuck life swears....
"Lily...lily...yeah grown ass woman buh i'm not going to really sit and make you raise your voice at me"
Mom said coming down the stairs
"Oh wow
"Then i should really die in pains and secret
"You call yourself my mom...well get ready to receive more of this bullshit as we moving" i said and left the house immediately
I don't want to hear any more stuff from her
MOM(mrs Evelyn) POV
I always wondered how I'm going to feel the day lily will really tell me how she felt
I knew she was always pissed off about every time we have to move and i really find ways to get her to be happy
The police are after my gang, though our identity isn't known yet but it will be soon
I have to leave the fucking Chicago again with my daughter and her little brother
I know it's going to be a stressful day and I don't blame her for finally speaking up...
This was the fifth time we moving
Swrs my babies would have actually gone round the country....
Kcc...kcc..
"Mom i'm really not in the mood for your talks"
I said as i heard the knock on my door
"Lily it's dave
Dave's my younger brother
He's 14 years old and almost the same height with me
We are the only close people in my world, we understand each other, help each other, advcies each other and do things our mom can't do
I went ahead to open the door for him
I was already done packing my hole stuff and was just scrolling through tiktok when dave kocked
"Are you done packing" i asked him
He was looking so pale but not angry
"What's wrong with u Dave..., is it the hole moving out??
He got up from the bed scratching his head like he was debating on how to put a sentence into it's place
He became nervous and little scared
"Wat's wrong??..., are u sick dave, wat's worrying u" i asked already anxious
"It's mom...the police are here
He was stamering..."they handcuffed her already, she....
I didn't wait for him to complete the sentence as i stormed down the stairs
"Mom...
"Mom wat's going on" i asked looking at the 4 police men that were inside our house
Mom was looking so down already
"I'm sorry lily i really tried to move us out and start a really nice job with a close relationship with you and your brother...
"I didn't know there were heading here lily...i'm sorry"
Mom said crying
The two police dragged her out of the house
"No mom ....i cried and as i ran after them
"You can't do this us...mum is not a fucking drug dealer
Knowing the truth i tried to defend my mom lying to myself
The other two police raided our house searching for drugs in our luggages
Finally they found 50 packs of cocaine inside dave's bag.
