sparks

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meeting an old flame you never got over

I pulled the stranger into the hallway. I could hear the heavy bass of the club under my feet but I was intoxicated by this man and his rough kiss upon my lips. I was honestly out of my mind. Everything blurred and went to shit quickly, I was confused if it was the alcohol or the tears spilling out.

It's like I never mattered, how everything I felt for him ended up in the void, it's crazy how things have changed. How we have changed, and as I felt this stranger's lips upon my neck, I let out a sigh of pleasure. I wanted to drown myself in his embrace, I wanted him to make me understand that what I felt for him was nothing more than infatuation. I wanted him to pull me into his embrace and I wouldn't shy away cause' I didn't have his heart with me. I needed to understand that I was never his, and he was never mine. My heart was never his, and that my heart was mine and mine only. He didn't have me, he was never meant to be mine, we were absolute strangers.

I could feel the tears drip down my cheek as he kissed my lips softer, enough to feel the recognisable sparks I used to feel. I tried pushing the stranger away, as I remembered the sparks I once felt with him. I couldn't allow myself to. I didn't want to. I didn't need him right?

" 'Stay away from me.' Why are you here?"

"I just.. wanted to keep you safe."

The familiar enticing scent he had entered my senses and unconsciously I relaxed. I was pushed against the wall of the dimmed hallway. Closing my eyes, I leaned my head onto his chest and took a deep breath wondering, how the man I feared to give my everything to, held the back of my head holding me close. How did I run away only to be caught within his arms?

"Why are you here? Are you here to hurt me again? Is that it?"

"I just wanted to keep you safe, baby. I know safe wasn't what you needed, I wanted you away from me, I got it but i-"

"But what?"

"But the more you push me away, this heart of mine, this fire I have burns. Fuck it yearns for you. Everything around me is burning to ash, but this feeling that I have for you just wouldn't go away. What the fuck am I to do, I tried pushing it down but I still ache for you, I still want you. I am still in love with you after all these years, you've never left my mind. I was stupid, dumb, childish. I love you, all day, all fucking second. I beg you, please don't push me away anymore, I'd do everything, something, anything."

He had his forehead against mine, putting a strand of hair behind my ear. I stared straight into his eyes, and I closed my eyes. Soon I felt him against my lips, and his hand went to the side of my cheek holding me gently.