22 CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

CHAPTER 21

//EUNJEE

I kept feeling sweat running from my forehead down my neck, im just barely holding her up. This operation is taking too much time and its causing a lot of distress to her body. If i dont finish up soon i might just lose her and I just cant let that happen.

"Im almost done but from this on. Mistakes are not welcome, lets not rush and just focus. Every second counts." I glanced to all the people around and they all nodded. The nurse gave me the suture needle and I began stitching what needs to be put to together this could help her a little bit longer and I made sure that everything i did was accurate and precise just to avoid anymore complications.

After a few more hours of stitching and finishing up we were finally done and I was finally able to stretch my neck and my arms. I made sure to finish her up myself because I didnt want anyone to mess up and cause even more danger. Its not about trust but Im talking about responsibility and if something goes wrong i cant let anyone be responsible of my own work.

I thanked everyone who helped me and they all bowed in response I went out of the opeating room while the others cleaned the room for sanitation later. I removed my cap gown and threw it in the  basket.

"Job well done Doctor T. This is surely one of your great work" Chief Park congratulated me as well as the other doctors present in with him. I bowed to them before going out and going to the patients family together with the patients doctor. The family were all waiting outside, we both bowed im front of them as they gathered in front of us.

"You can breathe for now. The operation was a success and you can see her after the nurses prepare her room. Shes in the recovery for now." I told them and they all cried thanking me.

"We still need to perform another procedure on her for her transplant. Because of Doc T's successful operation she can atleast have a little more time so we need to continue looking and pray for a new heart to come soon" Doc Billy informed them and they nodded as well. I told them i need to go first cause i still have some rounds to do and they all thanked me before nodding at me.

I went inside of lounge area and went to one of the beds to rest for a bit. I checked my phone and saw that its almost three in the morning. I must have forgotten to keep track after rushing inside the OR. I scrolled through my messages and saw Marks messages on me.

"Oh right I forgot" I smacked my head then runs off to Bambams room because i was supposed to discharge him and I totally forgot.

Running inside the hospital is forbidden but since our jobs requires us to run in cases of code blue or our patients complaining, no one could really stop us. So i kept running towards Bambams room and saw that a lot of my interns are actually on duty today so when they saw me running they actually ran beside me asking whats wrong. We finally reached Bambams room and when we did they all looked at me wondering whats wrong because no one paged me or any of them about this room. I was panting so i didnt have time to explain to them but instead I opened Bambams rooms and saw how his sound asleep on his bed with Yugyeom on one of the couches and another figure facing back with his hoddie on. After hearing me open the door a little bit wider he moves to his then looks at me.

"Ma..mark?" I also forgot one thing and judging by his expression he doesnt look so good.

My interns got the idea that what im having now is quite personal so they left with Boom also distracting them. Remind me to thank him later for that. I closed the door and went to face him again.

"I...i'm sorry" i didnt know what else to say so I just simply said sorry.

"What are you sorry for?" He asks

"Well... i forgot that you were coming and i also forgot to put a notice about Bambams discharge to one of my residents and for making you wait" I said

"What else? I believe you owe me as well an explanation about you moving to a new apartment?" He stands up then walks towards me. I looked at the other and they seem to be in deep sleep. Im afraid they might wake up then hears me and Mark arguing.

"Look im sorry. But can we talk about this in some place more private. The guys might wake up" i asked him and he seems to get what im trying to say so he grabs my hand before leading me out of the room and towards the back exit of the hospital to where the other parking space are. He opens his own car then led me to the passenger side of the car and opens the door for me. He moves his head instructing me to get inside his car and so I did without question. It was a good thing that no one is arounf this are during this hours because everyone is either busy doing their jobs or resting on their designated areas.

He gets inside as well then drives off to somewhere I dont know.

"Talk. Atleast in here, we're the only ones around each other so no one will see us nor hears us. So talk" he tells me

"I.." I statered "I was promoted and being promoted comes with perks. Perks like having an apartment near the hospital and also some other priviledges" I explained carefully. "The president was so impressed with my work that he gave me this kind of opportunity. " I excluded the parts where i become the president personal slave and about his threats.

"And why am I hearing this now?" He asks

"Come on Mark. Its not like we were in a kind of relationship where we tell each other everything. I simply forgot to tell about it because it never came to my mind how this will become such a bug deal between us." I burst out "and honestly speaking. This is still my private life and I still have the freedom to do whatever I want."

He abruptly stops the car, in the middle of the road and with no one around but street lights. He was mad and it was showing on how hard his grip on the steering wheel.

"Then tell me. Does your freedom include you associating yourself with that President of yours?" He looks at me waiting for my answer but i wss too scared to say anything so i didnt. "Fine. Go live your life the way you want it to be and i will not care anymore. It looks like you dont need me anyways.  Go drive yourself back to your new apartment. " He goes out of the car and leaves me on the middle of the road with no one else but street lights and some cars passing by. He walks to the nearest pavement and calls for someone, i assume one of the boys or their manager. I moved to the driver seat and was about to drive towards him but a car passed me by and stops in front of Mark. He goes to the passenger side then the car goes off. I was just stuck there looking at the car and holding the steering wheel tight.

I didnt realize how my tears got its way out of my eyes but it was there and I was sobbing.

//MARK

"What happened?" Jb asked, yes his the one I called after I madly left Eunjee in the middle of the road. I know how jerk I look now but what can I say I was really mad and I just cant stand looking at her now. "Hyung? Are you alright" Jb asked me again as he takes a quick glance at me.

"Yeah. Im fine." I answered looking through the window.

"You look way too annoyed for someone who says his alright." He says silently.

"Just dont, leave it be but thanks for picking me up. How were you around the area anyway?" I asked curiously because when I called him i thought he was at the dorms.

"I was writing some new stuff and didnt notice the time" he says. He parks in front of our dorm building and took out his dorm keycard. I immediatly got out of the car and waited for Jb to come out aswell.

We both went up and he opens our door using his keycard. We went our seperate ways him not asking me more about what happened and me minding my own business as I left him behind.

I thought about what happened between Eunjee and I. How could I not get mad? Shes always not including me with her plans. If she just told me earlier about this changes i might have supported her but i still feel something about that boss of her. Why is he so fond of Eunjee? Does he like her? Are they in kind of close relationship? Why is he favoring Eunjee so much?

"Haish!! Why am i caring so much? She doesnt even care. I should just stop" i said to myself "Right! I should just focus on my career. Soon we'll have to break up anyways. I should just leave her be and just let this thing between us go away." I made up my mind and I dont need this kind of shit in my life right now. I have mu fans and I should just focus on them. Eunjee will just have to be a part of my crazy side from now on.

I turned to my night stand and turned it off before going to sleep and forgetting everything that has happened today.

//EUNJEE

I didnt to back to the hospital nor did i go home. Instead I went to the only place where I can just be alone.

I went inside the diner and didnt mind the few people inside the place aswell. Its a little bit too early for anyone to be here anyways. I went to my usual place and sat there for awhile. I was still wearing my scrubs and i wasnt embarass at all. My mind was still filled with Marks words and I cant think of anything else.

One of the bus ladies came to me and asked if I want to order anything and I just told her I need some coffee. This place is actually owned by one of my self-proclaimed sister Alice, I met her when i first got here and found out that shes actually from another foreigh city and me being new to the place asked her some insights about my new environment. She told me a lot and made sure that I know a lot as well. Although we dont usually hang out she made sure to check on me from time to time and this place has become my other refuge when I feel lonely or when i feel so homesick. Since then, she proclaimed herself as my older sister being that she wants to take care of me. But seeing as shes not here I guess she went home. This place is actually open 24/7 she sometimes stay for a whole day because she wants to make sure everything runs smoothly but i guess today is one of her rest days.

The bus lady which I assumed is new here came and gave a cup of coffee then leaves with a smile. I sweet aroma of coffee woke up my senses and thats when I noticed someone was infront of me.

"Didnt expect to see you here doc" If im not mistaken his Minhyuk-ssi from weeks ago. I thinks his actually friends with Mark but I forgot his idol group.

"Minhyuk-ssi right?" I asked and he nods.

"So what are you doing here at this hour and in your scrubs? I dont want to assume that your in the middle of something back at the hospital and decided that "meh i need a coffee from a very far place from here" " he tries to joke but i didnt find his humor funny. So i just looked at him with a straight face and that must have made him straight up.

"My instincts tells me that you are running aways from something and I can really feel a deep emotion surging from you now" he points at me trying to figure out what wrong.

"Didnt take you for someone who reads people. You should have told me, i would have referred you to the psych ward with that ability of yours" I took another sip of my coffee and he grins.

"So whats wrong? I dont usually find someone I know here thats why im always here but your presence here is quite an entertainment as well." He tells me.

"Just leave okay. I dont want to be rude to you but you're making it hard for me not to. So please, my mind is going crazy right now and your sense of humor is not really helping right now. So just please shut up and let me be."

"So I was right. You are not fine. Look I may not look like one of your close friends who you can count on but you can talk to me you know and you wont even have to hear anything from me. Ill just listen. Sometimes you just need to empty your mind so you could actually think clearly again you know." Minhyuk-ssi suggested and I must say, his idea was actually on point but i cant just easily trust him with something so serious and he is still Marks friend so he might just tell him and that cant be good.

"Look I appreciate that you want to help but theres really nothing you could so to fix what I messed up. So just stop and leave me alone" I countered

"Why dont you try me then?" He asks looking serious and really persistant. I think about the possible outcomes if I trust the person in front of me. I mean he does look harmless and maybe because his also Marks friend maybe he can help me or better make me understand how to understand Marks action right now.

"Fine!! But im eating first. If im going to tell you everything might as well make myself full. You better promise not to tell anyone about this or else I will make sure to castrate you the next time you visit the hospital " he laughs then nods. He called for the bus lady awhile ago and we both ordered some breakfast food since the timd is actually getting there so might as well. While we wait for the food Minhyuk-ssi tried, please do rememeber the word tried because he really did but failed, he tried making a lot of jokes but all of them are so lame that i had to laugh for the last one he made because he looked so desperate in proving that his actually their groups comedian but I was shaking my head the whole time. He was acting like a child but he was serious when he talked to me about his struggles in his current job. Maybe its not so easy to perform and look pretty, i see that now with this guy in front of me.

The food finally arrived and we both enjoyed the food but before i could totally finish all my food i decided that maybe its not so bad to trust Minhyuk-ssi. I looked at him and just like me before, he was busy devouring his food. He takes a glance on me and saw me watching him, he stops eating and curiously asks me why im looking at him.

I took awhile before answering because I was weighing everything inside my head. I was thinking of hows the best way to tell him about my secret. Well i guess its a little bit risky, like what the hell. Why would I trust a complete stranger to whom I just met twice but guess what, I do trust him for some reason. He seems to be so easy to talk to and without me knowing with just the small amount of time i had with him since i got here i feel a little bit lighter than i was before. Maybe he can help me. So without thinking I just blurted out in his face that

"I'm secretly married to Mark Tuan" His eyes grew wide so was mine, i just realized that I blurted it out really loud that everyone thats inside the diner is looking at me with curiosity and shock painted in their faces.

What did I just do?

Looks like my secret is not so secret anymore...