CONFLICTING WITH MY MIND..

ONE DAY MY MOM SAW ALL MY MESSAGES TO HIM. I WAS REALLY VERY SCARED I WANT MY MOM TO HIDE IT FROM MY DAD .WE ARGUED FOR A LONG TIME THEN MY MOM SAID I WILL NEVER TELL YOUR DAD ABOUT IT BUT ON ONE CONDITION YOU HAVE TO BROKE ALL YOUR TIES WITH HIM. THAT TIME I WAS REALLY VERY SCARED AND AGREED TO MY MOM AND BROKE UP WITH HIM. BUT I FORGOT EACH DAY I HAVE TO SEE HIM IN TUTION CLASSES.AS WE BOTH TOOK SAME ENGLISH CLASSES. BUT I THOUGHT IT WON`T BE SUCH A BIG DEAL BUT I WAS WRONG. I TRIED TO BE HAPPY EVERY SINGLE DAY BUT I WAS NEVER HAPPY FROM MY HEART ALL IT WAS FAKE .ALL THOUGHT THAT HE WAS FINE AND HE SHOWED LIKE HE NEVER CARED FOR OUR BREAKUP BUT EVERYONE WAS WRONG HE WAS DEEPLY HURT LIKE ME .AFTER MANY DAYS OF CONSIDERATION I WENT TO TALK TO HIM GAVE HIM A PERFECT EXPLAINATION BUT I DIDN`T RESIST AND PACHUP WITH HIM ONCE AGAIN. AT THAT TIME I REALLY DIDN`T THING ABOUT ANYTHING SOME WILL SAY I WAS SELFISH BACK THEN DIDN`T THOUGHT ABOUT MY PARENT . YES I REALLY DIDN`T THOUHGT ABOUT IT .

ACTUALLY I WAS REALLY TIRED OF PROTECTING AND LOOKING FOR EVERYONE TAKING CARE OF EVERYONE`S EMOTION BUT AT FIRST TIME I THOUGHT ABOUT MYSELF THOUGHT ABOUT DOING SOMETHING FOR ME .

AS LOVE COMES WITH MANY PROBLEMS ONE MORE PROBLEM WAS WAITING FOR US .WE BOTH WERE AVERAGE STUDENTS IN STUDIES AND AFTER BEING IN RELATIONSHIP OUR MARKES WERE DEEPLY AFFECTED AND THEN OUR TEACHER GOT TO KNOW THAT WE BOTH WERE IN RELATION SHE CALLED HIS PARENTS TO TALK AND TOLD HER ABOUT ALL OF THIS .AND ONCE AGAIN AFTER HER PARENTS GOT TO KNOW ABOUT OUR RELATION THEY ASK HIM TO BROKE UP WITH ME.HE WAS LEFT WITH NO OTHER CHOICE AND BROKE UP WITH ME . I WAS VERY SAD BACK THEN I AM SURE HE WAS ALSO VERY SAD .

WHEN YOU MAKE A HABIT TO TALK TO SOMEONE DAILY TELLING THEM WHAT HAPPEN TODAY AND ONE DAY WITHOUT TALKING WITH THEM MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR LIFE WAS A MESS SAME FEELING I WAS GETTING AT THAT TIME . I REALLY WANT HIM TO COME BACK TO ME EVERYDAY I PERSUE HIM WITH A HOPE THAT TODAY I WILL PATCHUP WITH HIM BUT THIS TIME IT WAS NOT AS SIMPLE AS IT WAS LOOKING TO BE .

FROM THE STARTING I WAS REALLY A INTROVERT SORT OF A GIRL I NEVER OPENED MY HEART TO ANYONE HE WAS THE FIRST ONE .BECAUSE HE WAS SPECIAL I ALWAYS THOUGHT WHEN I AM CRYING INFRONT OF SOMEONE OR TELLING THEM MY PROBELM EITHER THEY DON`T WANT TO LISTEN TO ME OR THEY FEEL LIKE THAT I AM DUMB . THAT`S WHY I NEVER TRIED TO OPEN MY HEART IN FRONT OF ANYONE . I USUALLY KEEP MY PROBLEM TO MYSELF BUT HE WAS THE FIRST WHO MADE ME FEEL THAT HE WANT TO KNOW MY PROBLEM,WANT TO PROTECT ME, WANT TO WIPE MY TEARS. MY LIFE BECAME A SORT OF COMPLETE WHEN HE WAS WITH ME. I WAS HAPPY FROM INSIDE NOT A FAKE SMILE . WHEN HE USED TO ASK ME ARE YOU OKAY ? I WAS WILLING TO TELL HIM EVERYTHING .I WAS NEVER OPENED TO ANYONE LIKE THAT.

BUT AFTER HE BROKE UP WITH ME I TRUELY GOT TO KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM . SO I TRIED TO PERSUDE HIM EVERYDAY AND ONE DAY .....