1 IF THIS IS LOVE

If this is love…

... If this is love, then it goes away, away from me. That it hides where I can't find him anymore. That it denies to my eyes frightened by his splendour, that it holds his breath so that his sweet lies don't reach my hungry ears anymore.

If this is love, then let it be love and return you to my arms, so that I may reciprocate love with love, because it is so terrible and wonderful, that now that it's not there, it hurts, its absence.

If this is love, then let it give me the oblivion. Oblivion from you, that you are my distant and lost love, oblivion from the world because it's the only possible way to have peace in this life with the taste of blood and tears and lost love. Oblivion from myself, who has been breathing love and pain for so long that it no longer remembers what the difference is.

If this is love, then let it be compassionate love, and it gives relief to this infinite suffering that torments me and fills my heart with its gentle poison.

If you are love ...

... If YOU are love, then give me back my hatred, because I'm tired of crying for you.