Dear diary(1)

As far as I am concerned, people around me Envy my memory because I could almost remember everything I studied, or ever experienced.

I started nagging people around me was I was 12 because, I wanted their attention although It never came. My class had 20 girls in it, of course not all of them were alike, some perhaps matured quite early.while others remain playing with life.

Later, I found i couldn't fit in both group, so I started to be a loner. I thought i could avoid all the problems, but i started to fall behind my peers. until I knew it was too late. because my friend never care to share information and notes teacher gave us. Whenever I would ask they would only reply "We only have one copy, ask teacher to give you another one".

I really liked being their friend, behind my courageous and mischievous mask was a normal 12 year girl, with inferiority. The difference was I was never born to express my own feeling. I could never say what i felt(moved, loved all emotions) everything, even to my parents.

which later started making me feel fear, and disinterest towards everything..............