The Reason

Seonghwa : "I HAD MY REASONS OF DOING SO! I HAD REASONS TO LEAVE YOU! I HAD REASONS ON WHY I DID THAT YOU!!!!!"

Y/N became silent and stopped protesting after listening to his words. She picked her head up to see his face and she saw something she never wanted to see, even if she hated him with her pure heart she still loved him and never wanted to hurt him I know that sounds quite weird as to why someone will love someone even if they have hurt you in the past but that's how love is.

You pretend to be happy even if you're in pain,

You pretend to be strong even if you're hurt yourself,

You wish love was perfect as love itself

But it isn't, she saw Seonghwa's face only to see that he was on the verge of crying but was controlling himself and she knew that it wouldn't take long before he breaks down. She felt like someone stabbed her multiple times just by seeing his face and that's what we call true love, that even if you're hating them you still feel hurt when they're hurt. She was speechless, she didn't have any words to say to him, and seeing that she isn't saying anything he continued what he was saying.

Seonghwa : "I know how hard it was for you but know this it was even harder for you. That day I know how hard I tried to control myself to not go and hug you. To not go and tell you everything but I just couldn't because I didn't want your efforts to go in vain only because of me."

As he said those words, she could only feel more curious and confuse about it. While on the other hand, Seonghwa had already started sobbing and sniffing, signs that he would soon be crying but he has had enough and he needs to tell her everything cause he can't hold it anymore.

Seonghwa : "I'll tell you why I left you, it was because I needed to save someone and that someone was....you!"

Seonghwa looked down trying very hard to stop himself from breaking down in front of her, he needs to tell her everything.

While Y/N didn't know what to say, no words were coming out of her mouth. She could only manage utter...

Y/N : "Why?"

Seonghwa : "I know how hard you have worked to come and achieve your dream. I know what all you've given up for doing it. You ran away from your house, left your family just for your dream. A dream of becoming an idol, someone whom people can look up to. And I wouldn't want all your hard work to go down in vain just because of me. I-I--"

He was having a hard time to speak but he had to.

Seonghwa : "You know I participated in the survival show Mix Nine, the show produced by YG."

Y/N : "Yeah, what about that?"

Seonghwa : "YG was impressed by my visuals and asked me to change companies and come to YG but I gladly declined. I didn't know that there was someone else there who saw me and became obsessed with me. Lisa of Blackpink at that time were preparing for a comeback and saw me, she tried courting me but as I didn't like her nor wanted her to do so. For a long time, nothing happened but soon when we debuted she again started trying to pursue me to date her, court her. Even my company multiple times told me to do so but I declined. Remember when we first went out before we started dating and our pics of that day were released to the public, that time somehow she got to know I was dating someone and tried to ruin my image, but somehow we dodged it but my company still tried persuading me but this time I already had someone and that someone was you. I can never love someone else as I love you and that's a fact that'll never change. We were able to keep it under come cover, our relationship for a long time but things just couldn't as luck just wasn't on our side. That time you were preparing for your debut and any scandal or controversy will only result in your removal from the line-up. And I-I--"

He was so badly crying right now while narrating all the incidents right now and remembering all of the hard times they weren't together and alone, those times that resulted in them standing in front of each other where one is staring with love and affecting while the other has hate and disappointment but there is some love.

Seonghwa : "Lisa got to know that we were dating and that you were a trainee who was almost about to debut and a huge bonus on top of that you were a high schooler while I was an adult. If it came out it will only create a huge controversy that will only result in all your hard work, sacrifices to go in vain. I don't care about me but I do care about me. I can't see you not being able to chase and achieve your dream just because of me so when she said that if I date her publically and break-up with you she'll let it go. And I didn't think for a second just agreed cause I can't bare to see you in despair."

He picked his head up and looked directly into her eyes and said.

Seonghwa : "I thought it will be better that way, you'll be able to achieve your dream while I'll find a way to live without you but I was so wrong it only made it worse, actually worst. Jagi know it that I only loved you and will only love you, please understand me! I can take you not talking with me for my eternity but don't hate me, that's something I can't take. Please!"

He said that with watery eyes in a pleading way. Y/N caressed his cheeks in attempts of calming him down and telling him that she is there.

But what she said next what a total game-changer as no one could've expected what she said next.

Y/N : "Don't worry Oppa....

I already knew it!"