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idk anything but still I answer everything that's when I wonder Why.... I wanna know this things but there's no one to clarify....Why is it so messed up ,,everything seems like dead and I'm standing here alone.....still I feel like clown when they stare at me with pity.....Yea I hate it I hate everything thats what I say but my heart still want them to know me better ....I still want them to stop this all and be like before ....Yeah it was alright but now its not right ....I don't know where to go ...when I go left there's nothing right ...when I go right there's nothing left.......I feel like leaving all and i know its never easy .....I feel like a broken soul but when I say this to anyone I heard im "young"...So everyone means youngsters can't be broken than why im broken....?...Maybe no one has the answer ...I learnt one thing that U will never understand me unless u face everything I face everyday....when I was a kid some teenagers used to say this but I used to be confused....But now I know maybe they also face some shit...Yes...I guess that's true....Maybe alot of others faced same problem like me ....But I guess I was too ignorant to notice them before...I wish I could console those who faced shit once .....But I guess I should console myself as well......I don't know what I'm writing ...Maybe pouring someone's feeling ......I also learnt that even those who hates you will give you something that is disappointment and hatred....Not like those two faced persons who shows love towards you but doesn't give a actual shit about you....So, I ask myself sometimes Am I living or just existing...But the answer i never searched for it.....Cause I don't want to be disappointed ....And once again I don't want to be broken....Anyways sorry....