What is Mine

Point of View

Lucius Silvia Caeser

I had been the first one to get back to the track center. The other Coaches greeted me. I jogged into the building gasping for breath. I never jogged so much in my life. Sweat fell down my face and neck drenching my shirt.

"Hello, Lucius." Mrs. Parkingson greeted me and tossed a water bottle to me. I took off the cap and chugged it.

"Is there anything else you want me to do?" I asked her.

"No, you can go home if you check in with Ninah,"

My coach looked up from paperwork though she was extremely pale. She looked frighten by something.

"Hey, Ms. Ninah" I raised my hand as I entered the building. She looked up, her brows furrowed and she looked disturbed by something or someone. In a moment she went back to whatever she was reading. At least she looked at me, the other day she didn't even acknowledge me.

"Um,-" I sad.

"Lucius, you can go home, after you take a shower. Since you are the first one here." She said, pointing to the showers.

"I told you to just call me Silvia, It's" I stopped. Father. Lucius Nido Caesar, I was named after him. I don't remember what he looked like, or how he acted. No matter what I do he doesn't seem to leave my mind, even when I'm doing or thinking of other things he's still here.

"It's easier for everyone if you do." I could feel my body shake, my insides clenched.

"Pardon me!" I ran into the showers and turned one on. Tears burst from my eyes. It was a little close. My body kept relaxing and straining.

I grabbed my clothes and tore them off before they got anymore wet. I sat down on the floor of the cubicle and buried my face into my arms. They wouldn't stop.

Father, you abandoned everyone who loved you. Did you love us or was it a ploy to distract mom, and my name.

Why did you name me Lucius, after you? Are you even my real father? And, if your not whose my real creator and where can I find him? Then who really did- I need to stop thinking for a moment.

I stepped out of the box and went to the box with my last name

'Mr. Caecer'

They misspelled my name again. I sighed and removed my bag and my prescription. Nuedexta was on the bottle. It worked for the first two weeks but now they don't do anything. Tears streamed down my cheeks. I'm missing something, someone. I closed my eyes, how come anything I do reminds me of the man who failed my family. I felt a new line tears stream down my cheeks.

I opened my eyes, I stood in a white marble throne room. Pillars curved supporting a marble roof. I wore a silver chest plate along with a black silk cape. Where am I?

"M a s t e r."

A familiar voice ran through the air. A man wearing the same thing I was, he had snow-white hair, stepped onto the platform and bowed. He walked to me, one of his eyes was black, the other a deep blood reddish mahogany color. My limbs wouldn't respond to me.

I wrapped my arm around his waist and forced my lips upon him, he didn't fight me but pushed deeper. Screams came from the village next to us. We both stood on a balcony stained with blood. The fire roared I could feel the heat though we were a half-mile from then. The people begged and screamed for mercy. I smiled and started to laugh overlooking everything.

"A r e y o u e n j o y i n g y o u r s e l f?"

His voice rang through the air and echoed through the gym.

I opened my eyes the gym just now being filled with the others.

"Waters are in the icebox," Mrs.Parkingson said to the others. I stuffed my medication into my bag, and changed quickly, then left. I promptly rushed home, but a slow-moving van distracted me. This one was-

The man in silver armor came into my mind. Everything was in chaos but I wasn't hallucinating. It was real. I had already seen all of the cars in the Towns. This one was new but it had a different feel to it. It turned right and the felling left, I continued home, I couldn't shake that someone was watching me.

When I got home mother was on the stove cooking steaks. I went up to her and hugged her from behind.

"Steak's supposed to go on the grill, not the pan," I said sarcastically, and Mom just looked at me, and pecked my cheek.

"Your hairs wet." She said.

"Yeah, I took a shower. What? You don't want a sweaty son hugging you, do you?" I walked over to the unopened cans and vegies on the wooden table. She laughed, I love my mother but taking care of her and my siblings gets quite stressful.

"If you want to do those you can." She said.

I looked at the chair when something caught my eyes. a speck of red liquid was on the floor, I reached to touch it my hand had pink, red, and black smears all over it, the silver armor tainted to a rust color of dried blood. I turned it around blood dripped from my fingers. I stood, the land around me, everything was dead. I rushed back till my ankles hit something.

"W h y? W h y d i d y o u d o t h i s, L u?" I turned around to face my mother, she lay bleeding on the ground, all of my body clenched and convulsed, a pain ran from my side.

"I ' l l a l w a y s p r o t e c t y o u, m y M a s t e r." The man with silver armor lay over me, we both held the knife in my side. The field littered with corpses. Canons blasted behind him.

"I c a n s a v e y o u." He leaned down and kissed my neck. A burning sensation developed where he kissed me. He leaned up my blood dripped from his chin, and I closed my eyes.

Snow, it was snowing. Where are you, Snow? Where are you my loyal-servant?

W h e r e a r e y o u m y s o n? His voice, my father. Protect me I can almost see you, Snow. Help me I need you. Keep him away, please.

Please, I'm drowning without you.

I opened my eyes breathing heavily, the doorbell rang, making me flinch.

"I'll get it!" I heard mom say.

"No, no, no, let me get it. I've got it, mom. There's no need to worry, besides I'm closer." I stopped her before she got to the door. My legs were stiff.

"Fine then, I'll go cook dinner." I sighed I don't want mom to hurt herself. I opened the door to find four men wearing black suits and Prince Snow. He looked shocked as if he wasn't expecting someone to answer.

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I bowed slowly, trying to stay into reality and not the strange memories. Are they even memories though? And if they are, whose are they? They couldn't be mine, could they?

"Please, there's no need to bow." He said as though he was completely comfortable outside my house. He smiled gently as though remembering something.

"May we come in?" It was him his eyes were both black, but everything else was the same in terms of body.

"Of course." I move aside for him and his guard.

"Izuka! Azu! Get down here! We have guests!" My mother yelled from the kitchen. After that, we hear the thumping of the twins and Mom comes out of the kitchen.

"Oh my God." Mother stood her mouth gapping. She looked around the living room taking everything in. She stood opening and closing her mouth.

"Mom," I said. It seemed to snap her out of it.

"Would any of you like some steak, mashed potatoes and green beans? Um, I mean... I understand you have your royal food or dinner and all, but I can't help but ask." Prince Snow smiled as my mom set the plates down on the wooden table.

The twins finally came down from the stairs and stood next to each other in the doorway. Azusa wore an unzipped jacket with a sports bra and tiny shorts. Izuka wore a choker and pitch-black clothes. The T-shirt was too loose and hung over his shoulder and his pants were slipping.

"You two ready for tryouts today?" My mom looked at them and they nodded. Moms face was horrified in an instant.

"You're not wearing that."

"How about you go fix that first Mrs. Caeser. I just want to talk to your son."

"Of course. You two back upstair you're embarrassing me." She pushed the twins back upstairs.

I went to sit on the recliner to the right of him, I could feel his eyes on me. He sat his legs crossed, I copied his look but supported my chin. I glanced at him, he glared at the floor his cheeks had a blue tint to them. I couldn't move my eyes. I glared at him, and he looked at me. I silently sighed and finally shifted my gaze. Awkward.

"Leave us." He said and his guards left the house. He pushed off the couch and leaned on the recliner. I looked at the Prince and he shifted closer. I could feel his coolness radiate off of his skin, his breath tickling my neck. His tongue glided on my neck. He pushed his lips on mine.

"What are you thinking right now?" He said. I stayed silent he was testing me but what was I supposed to say.

"Well?"

"When I look back I never seem to see things clearly. I'm dizzy, I've spun out of control 'cause when I look back, now, to the lie I keep repeating I'm so scared that I believe it." He looked at me, I guess I answered correctly.

His hand slide down my torso and unzipped my pants. I gripped his wrist. My heart thumped rapidly and fear crept through me. I felt pain in my neck it was like burning and I wanted to scream. I grit my teeth, and he pulled away from my hand and I felt him pump me through my boxers. He slid them down and out of the way. I couldn't hold my moans in and they slipped out. The Prince put his other hand over my mouth as he pumped me faster.

"Now, now don't want anyone to know we're doing this do we?" I shook my head, glowering at him.

"Good. You better be ready~." And with that, he took me whole inside of his mouth. I put my hand in his hair as he deep throated me. He took his hand away from my mouth and played with my sack. I couldn't hold myself anymore and I bucked my hips to feel more pleasure. I cursed under my breath as he quickened his speed. Tears came and I could feel myself smiling. O u r c a s t l e m i g h t b e g o n e b u t o u r m e m o r i e s a r e t h e s a m e

I came all inside his mouth. He buckled my pants back up and wiped his face clean.

"Why did you leave, You didn't have to forget. If you removed everything and these questions wouldn't mean anything. You still taste delicious." He stood and walked to the door. His guards opened the door and he frowned at me

"You don't remember anything about us do you?" He waited a moment, I sat panting, was he talking about the memory or something else. I have to say something.

"Have a good day." He stepped through the door then stopped.

"Into the void, I had to sink. Every day was the same, every nightmare, every dream. So I killed the noise. I killed the noise surrounding me. I had to pull the plug to change the ending. To feel safe in the fire, you can't run from it" I said, it was the only thing that seemed right to answer his question. Even if it didn't make sense to me. He looked at me shocked tears streamed from his eyes. I stood and started into the hallway.

"Wait." He grabbed my wrist I looked to the door then back to him. He got here so quickly. He kissed my neck and a burning sensation burst from my neck. What is he doing? All I could do was gasp for air, but it stung like the air was scratching the inside of my lungs.

I opened my eyes, when had I closed them. I pushed the burning sensation on my neck. Blood slid through my fingers and I ran to the bathroom. It's the only place with a first aid kit. I ran passed the stairway and my mother.

"Lucius?"

"Not right n-now mother." I slammed the door behind me breathing heavily. I looked in the mirror and near my chest blood was dripping out of me.

"Shit" I grabbed the box with all the care supplies and set them down near the toilet. I sat on the toilet and opened the box.

"Lucius are you okay?"My mother's voice came from behind the door.

"Y-yes I'm fine, Mom."

"There's blood in the hallway Lu. What's going on! Are you alright? I'm serious!" My mother screamed.

"I just cut myself. I'm fine." I riped the hand towel off the handle and drenched it in hydrogen peroxide, pushing it on my neck, wincing. I looked around everything except for the blood was marble white. The clock ticked away the seconds.

"Have you found my gifts yet," Prince Snow's voice rang through the bathroom. I jumped and glanced around trying to find him. No one was here.

"Oh, I'm sorry, did I scare you? I thought since you remembered the passphrases you would remember something else only we did." His voice came from nowhere

"No, you didn't scare me." I checked behind the curtains to find no one there.

"Oh, Good. I didn't want to scare my precious demon, but you're a terrible liar." His voice echoed through the bathroom.

"It's Lucius, not Lucifer. I'm not a demon."

"That's only partially true, and you know it. But do you know the meaning of your name, Your T r u e N a m e?"

I glared at nothing for his question. A cracking noise filled the bathroom. A hole was ripped into the wall, and something crawled through it. Its body was pitch black and its eyes and hair were white. He opened his mouth inside fangs the size of my hands. It climbed out of the hole and I screamed. Everything went black.

"Lucius!" My mother screamed. The door creaked as though someone was hitting it. Then a slam of marble. I opened my eyes to see my mother running over the door. She cupped my cheeks.

"Lu, are you alright?" Her eyebrows furrowed, tears rushing down her cheeks.

"There was a ... a creature in the wall." We looked at the wall and both the hole and the creature were gone. I looked at the door now on the marble floor. A gun was laying on top and both the twins were in the doorway with scared looks.

"Oh, my goodness Lu your shoulder." I looked at my shoulder, it was bleeding on the sink. My shoulder was leaning on it, I felt something rectangular in my hand. Pain coursed through my arm and I looked at it, a chunk of marble was in my hand.

"We need to get you to the hospital. Come on."

I put everything back on and got to the car

"Mommy? Is Rucius going to be okay? " Azu asked.

"Yes, honey Lucius will be fine." Mom said to her.

"I'm sorry Rushiusu," Izuka said.

I sat on the hospital bed looking down at the marble piece in my hand, it covered my entire palm. There was a bandage from my elbow to my shoulder and both where the 'bug ' bites had bandages on them. All of them were soaked in blood.

"Hello, Lucius." The doctor greeted me and all of my family members. My head hurt from the loss of blood and everyone was too blurry to recognize.

"Good evening doctor." My mother said.

"Mrs. Caesar do you mind if you leave for a second, there are chairs outside."

"Oh well I was hoping to stay with him but if I must of course." She got up from her chair. I could tell she was uncomfortable leaving me her. Her hand left mine.

"Izuka, Azusa, this way." The twins got up and followed her out the door. I recalled everything keeping some parts to myself, this will most likely get me on new meds that won't do anything for me. He looked like I told a joke, until I showed him the piece of marble I wouldn't let go of it. Then again I had to be sure this had happened. I gripped it so tightly I would of cut off my fingers.

He straightened almost immediately. I looked out past the window my mother stood up and bowed to someone. The blurry figure entered the room

"Twice in one day," He said. It was him. Twice in one day but, you didn't have to come.

'Maybe if I stay with you, you won't hurt yourself.' His voice ran out

"Stay away from me, and that thought won't work. I tend to hurt myself like a masochist living with a sadistic, and abusive partner." I said glaring at him, I relaxed my body.

"Your Highness." The doctor bowed to him.

"We were just about to change his bandage."

"Oh well then. Don't let me get in the way. You won't mind that will you, Rushiusu?" He smiled at me.

"Maak je geen zorgen Lucius, ik zal je geen kwaad doen. Ik ben hier om je te beschermen." His blurry form sat down onto the chair my mother sat in.

I sat up on the bed halfway, still scowling at him. He put his hand onto mine. The Doctor walked to the side of my shoulder and unhooked the bandages. He unwrapped them slowly, the prince leaned against the chair trembling a hand covering his mouth and his eyes clenched shut. The doctor looked at me and back at the prince.

"I-I'm sorry. I-I don't like blo-blood." Someone opened the door.

"Your Highness?"

"I-I'm Fine. Have a nice day both of you." His blurry form walked to the door his mouth still covered by his hand. He looked at me, one of his eyes were red. The door closed and all of them left. When the doctor was done he went to the door and brought in my family.

"Well I looked him over and he has bug bites, his shoulder is Fractured, and other possible disfigurements. In all your bill would be around 4692 dollars and 17cents. With tax, your total is 5114 dollars and 46 cents, of course this is excluding the cost of his medicine"

"What about my Insurence!"

"Your insurance paid for most of it. This is the small part you must pay." The doctor handed her an envelope. The drive home was long and uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry," I said.

"What are you sorry for Lu?" She didn't look off the road.

"Let me pay the hospital bill."

"What! No, you need to be resting. I'll handle the bill."

"But the doctor said you shouldn't have a lot of stress put on you or it could hurt the baby."

"Honey the doctor has to say that. I know how much stress I can take. I've had three children all ready, I know what I'm doing."

"But the doctor said you're on your last trimester."

"Honey I know what I'm doing."

L u c i u s. A r e y o u h a p p y w i t h y o u r e n d i n g