1 Chapter 1

"You will never amount to anything!"

That sentence has been said to me my entire life, repeated like a mantra by those around me. Nobody wants the girl who is different and I am the different one, always have been since the day I was born from the moment I opened my eyes. One blue one green. The first mark of me being different from my peers.I have grown up to accept that I may never find my mate. Nobody's gonna love me as far as I'm concerned.

Cool? Cool.

Anyways, this is my story. I was about to become of age to meet my said "mate" and let me tell you I am fucking terrified. Not the fact of meeting him or her but the fear of rejection is eating away at me, slowly but steadily. Doesn't help that I was basically rejected by my parents since birth. Plus side though is it made me tough and who I am as a person.

I learned how to fight, earn everything I own, and I not only had street smarts I also had book smarts. More than I can say about many of my peers who got dealt a better hand of cards early in life.

Who was top of the class that's right me but that didn't help win any popularity contests that's for sure. Everyone only talked to me for three reasons;to copy my homework, for help getting stronger, or booze.

Everything that has happened has pushed me to be better, to support myself when no one else would.

Otherwise I would lose my house. I think it's pretty impressive that I own a house at just 15 years old, it's every teens dream to be completely independent and be able to do whatever I want but to be honest it's more lonely than it sounds. The house always looks so empty without people to share it with. One of the perks of having no family to help you out is that you have to make an earning to keep myself afloat, sometimes it feels like I'm seconds away from drowning though.

Tomorrow marks the day I turn 16 as well as the day when I can meet my mate at the yearly gathering of the "unmated" wolves because let's stick a bunch of horny teenagers together and hope the meet their mate BRILLIANT IDEA! I still haven't bought a dress yet, money has been pretty tight lately and I just haven't had the time to really give it much thought. I don't think dressing up pretty will increase my chances of finding the person I was fated for anyhow.

I've been told I don't have a "pleasant" personality, the older mated women have mentioned that my mate won't enjoy my sense of humor or find it desirable. I've never really cared that much about finding my mate but I'm required to attend the yearly gathering as all unmated females of age are to be there. It's a black tie event, everything has to be perfect according to everyone. I'm not sure why but regardless I guess I have to get a dress.

Thank you Moon goddess for making the rules that force me to go thousands of years ago just thanks.

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I exit my home my senses tingle alerting me to something near by. I freeze up for a second expecting danger before I realize that it's just Mikey. He looks gorgeous without any effort, I'm slightly jealous but also proud. Anyone would be lucky to have him as their mate. He has always been a ray of sunshine, able to light up a room with a single smile. I don't think I've ever seen him gloomy for more than a few seconds, the exact opposite of me in every aspect. He slowly approaches with his hands facing up, he must have picked up on my defensive stance from being surprised.

"Hey Titania, where you going without me? Ditching me to meet a hot date?"

His sarcasm was as good as mine which is adorable.

"Yeah Mikey I'm just going to meet a hot model to take me around the world," I rolled my eyes and chuckled before I continued "No I am getting a dress for tomorrow since I have to go."

I am not happy to be forced to do anything but dearest Moon Goddess isn't giving me a choice. My thoughts start to snowball, going from one event to another dulling my other senses. Thinking back on everything that's happened over the years. I hear a voice distantly before being pressed into something warm. My eyes refocused on the chest I was pressed aganist, a hand brushing my hair in a calming manner. I tilt my head upwards blinking away tears in my eyes.

"Titania you will be okay darling, I'm right here."

Mikey's words were full of worry, purposely avoiding empty promises, he would be lying to me if he made a promise and that's one thing that Mikey has never done. He was the one and only person who has stayed by my side through everything. No matter what. I bury my face back into his chest, biting my lip harshly before focusing on my breathing. 6 seconds in, hold for 5, 8 seconds out, repeat. The entire time a gentle hand rubs my shoulders.

When I had finally calmed down he offered to be the one to drive too tired from my previous panic attack I just nod my head not even bothering to argue. The drive felt like a life time, Mikey throwing concerned glances in my direction every once in a while.

I didn't have it in me to be mad at the literal walking ball of joy. When we arrived he instantly started pulling me towards the most expensive dress shop aganist my protests.

"Mikey I can't afford any of these."

He stood there thinking he was cute knowing full well that he would win any argument with me. A devilish grin spread across his face, clearly this was his plan all along.

"This one is on me. Consider it a Happy Birthday or I may never see you again gift."

You could tell he was nervous but I have learned one thing about Mikey. You cannot change his mind on anything. Literally. I shook my head giving him a pointed look that clearly showed my displeasure but stepped into the shop anyhow. There was no way I could get him to back down on this one. I quickly scanned the shop fully intending on finding the clearance rack before I seen it: the most beautiful dress I've ever seen in my life. It was a long black ballgown style dress with gems sewn all through it giving it the apperance of it shimmering in the dull mall lights. Even from the rack I could see it was backless, dipping downwards in the front to form a graceful V-shape. The dress drew me in, just for kicks I had to try it on. In the dressing room I slipped it on, spinning in place taking in all the angles of the dress that fit me perfectly, it sparkled and shimmer as I spun the skirt flaring out around my ankles. For once I felt gorgeous. Like I wasn't an outcast for once in my life, i was just a normal girl giddy from the excitement of being able to dress up as a princess for a single day.