Chapter 44. Miria's Desires(2)

And tonight, she was caught.

She felt bad, so much bad that she felt she should just run out and die. That much of an embarrassment she felt. That's the talk of her emotions. But her body… Her downs twitched, making her experience heat of unknown levels, and her undergarments were soaked in her body juice that was constantly pouring out without any stoppage.

Miria realized her nature. She is abnormal. She is a pervert. To think she feels so much exhilaration from being caught in the act, the feelings of lust and embarrassment that intertwined together bringing a forth of new emotion in her.

Tonight is the point where her lust has reached its peak. And she got to taste the sloppy, lewd kiss which was nothing but an appetizer for the better treat. She knows it. The pleasure from it was so much that she couldn't live without it anymore.

Once you get the taste of heaven, you won't be satisfied with other lesser products. Now, after she has experienced an otherworldly kiss, how can she satisfy herself later on without it? There is no turning point for her and her body.

But… That's her lust. And her love conflicts with it. She doesn't want her lustiness, that lewdness to her ideal man. All in fear that he won't accept her.

That's why she avoided him. That's why she hesitated to answer him. More so, as she is caught red-handed. But his after-threat broke through her hesitation. Her lust and love both couldn't hold in. The threat of cancelling the massage appointment, the lust perceived it as it is. If Kurt ignores to have lewd activities with her, then she won't be able to live. Her body has changed before she knows it, and she won't be able to handle it without Kurt.

And her love, like most overthinkers, started to think that Kurt was discarding her. For her, whose whole family has died, Kurt is the only one she has with her. And Miria doesn't want to lose him at any cost. But Kurt, the one for whom she lives, said he doesn't want to touch her anymore. And why? All because of this situation. All because of her fault.

The self-blame game begins again.

The regret that came to her from her fault that led to her parents' demise. It was akin to trauma to her. And now, she doesn't want her last loved one to become apart from her, all because of her abnormal lust.

This time, Miria decided to come clean in front of Kurt, telling all the truth for the future. She is determined, she can't keep him in the dark for a long time.

'Even if he hates me, I can't hide it from Kurt anymore.'

The cool and decisive Miria, the female fatale demon hunter is back.

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'What is this?'

I just threatened her to tease her. But what is this? I don't know, but I feel she is overthinking it.

Soon her confused and muddled eyes came out clear and sharp, making me aware that she was about to confess. Looking at her confident face, somehow, the tension that permeated the surroundings made me gulp a bit wondering what the heck is she about to answer.

"So, why were you avoiding me?"

"Kurt, I-I…"

"What I?"

Closing her eyes, and leaving it to fate, Miria gulped down and spoke out aloud what she wanted to.

"Kurt, I am a pervert!"

Pervert… Pervert… Pervert…

Her voice just echoed in the room, and my calm face cracked a little bit. My mind, which was considering all kinds of scenarios, didn't expect this.

'What does she mean by that?'

I just didn't understand the relation between her being perfect and avoiding me. And about being a pervert, I knew from it the moment she started to sniff around me. I looked at her with confused eyes, and she just covered her face with her hands, not wanting to show her embarrassed self.

"Wait, wait, wait! I don't understand what you mean by that?"

I mean wasn't the relationship between us awkward because of the sudden change? Or I was the only one thinking that?

[A/N: Kurt was the only one.]

Wanting to hear more details to understand, I grabbed her wrists and moved them to the position they once were, to the top of her head. She was shying away from my eyes, and I could notice some wetness in the corner of her eyes.

'It seems to be serious.'

I couldn't understand it, but from how it is, it seems to be of utmost importance to her. With a soft tone in my voice, I asked her once again.

"Miria, what do you mean by pervert? Why did you avoid me for that?"

And Miria with her shivering lips, started to tell her tale. The tale of her sexual frustrations, and her cognition of me hating her for that kind of desire. How she is a pervert for doing all that and all, she continued it and finally she reached the end.

"Because of all that, I didn't want Kurt to see my bad side. Please, don't leave me, Kurt."

Tears started to come out of her face, and she started to bawl out after her talk. She grabbed my half-opened shirt and cried on my chest, pleading in tears.

I understood her insecurities. But there was only one thought I could think of myself after listening to her complete tale.

'If this all counts as a pervert, then aren't am a pervert?'

In the simplest terms. Miria avoided me because she had the desire to have too much sexual intercourse with me. She touched herself, sniffed my dresses, and sneaked into my room to relieve her frustrations.

'…'

'…'

'…'

'Are you kidding me!!!'

My anger reached the max. I can't believe what is happening here! Are you telling me that Miria was avoiding me for what I wanted? How could this happen? 

And all those frustrations of hers, I have all the time. Touching myself, and having fantasies about her all the time. Though I don't reach up to sniff her dresses, well that's a different category. If one has the basis of this as a census, then all men are perverts!

"Miria."

"Y-Yes?"

My stern voice and hard look on my face made Miria gulp, just as I had a minute ago. She looked with a bit of scared eyes, obviously afraid of being rejected.

"Since you told me, I should tell you something as well."

"W-What it is?"

"It is that I, Kurt Von Ritzburg am more perverted than you are!" 

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