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Chapter 17

With a casual smile, Katarine hugged her grandmother and asked if she could be excused. Meanwhile, Leonhardt Maier Siegert, who had just wrapped up his conversation with the lawyers, noticed the sudden change in her complexion. He asked her if everything was okay, to which she simply nodded and replied that she was still feeling a little bit tired. Concerned, her father, Leonhardt, suggested she take a break and get some rest before continuing the conversation with the lawyers at a later date and time..

With a swift gesture she wanted to go into her room and scream at the top of her lungs , but this was not the case; there were still a lot of people inside their home, and this matter is not something she needs to broadcast openly, considering she was desperately trying to find the one that would lessen her burden after all the numerous scandals and legal courtroom battles to keep her reputation intact.

The cases filed against her mostly came from the men she dated. All of their lawyers had spent countless days and hours to make sure the incidents that surrounded the lawsuits remained private and out of the public eye. Despite the challenges she faced, she remained determined to protect her secret and maintain her image as a successful and respected individual in the public eye. However, the constant legal battles took a toll on her mental and emotional well-being, causing her to act differently toward the young men surrounding her.

Her battle began when she turned 16 on the very day she began to menstruate, her true self finally emerged, and the constant fear that her secret might get out of hand was consuming her and reluctantly taking a huge toll on her social life. This was the part where she had to keep it hidden.

Her cheerful demeanor wasn't needed in this type of situation; she had to change the way she thinks, moves, and interacts with others in order to protect her secret. She felt isolated and alone, unable to fully be herself in fear of judgment or rejection from those around her. This internal struggle only grew stronger as she navigated through the complexities of real blood line.

And the only thing that kept her going were the words of her late mother, saying , True love can set her free." The were the words of her mother when she was young, a fairy tale ending that she held onto tightly as she faced the challenges of concealing her true identity. Despite the hardships, she found solace in the hope that one day she would find acceptance and be able to live authentically with the man who would truly love her openly.

Sadly hearing that she was no longer a virgin is a huge problem. Her conviction in love with the right man was fully based on the story her mother told her. That's why even with the unpredictability of her situation, she continued to go out on dates hoping to meet the right guy, even at the expense of hurting them in the process. It may sound silly but it is what she believes in..

So losing her virginity would be a huge issue , considering no man has ever been able to touch her and not get burned alive, both physically and emotionally. She knew that finding the right man would require vulnerability and trust, two things she struggled with due to her past experiences. But now hearing from her grandmother that she was no longer intact was devastating, as it meant she had lost a part of herself that she had been saving for the right person. She realized that she needed to confront this problem as soon as she could.

The fear of knowing the identity of the person is driving her nuts.

"No! He can't be the one!"

"But he's the only guy who was with me last night."

"Why can't I remember anything?"

The realization that she may have been taken advantage of while not fully conscious added another layer of distress to her already overwhelming emotions. She knew she needed to seek support and guidance to navigate this difficult situation and find out the truth about what happened that night.

"But he can never do anything; the fire will consume him like what happened at the warehouse."

"Everything about him is wrong and, at the same time, feels right."

She couldn't shake the feeling of unease and uncertainty, wondering if she could trust her own judgment. Despite the conflicting emotions, she knew she needed to confront the situation head-on and make a decision that would ultimately protect her well-being.

She tried to have casual encounters before the furthest she was able to get was second base, until everything fell apart and cost her more than just a burnt ego, but she couldn't ignore the nagging feeling that something wasn't right. Deep down, she knew she needed to listen to her intuition and walk away from the situation before it escalated further.

The number of young men who wanted to go beyond what Katarine could give at those moments sadly took more than just their pride but some parts of their flesh, as fire burst and consumed everything near her. The first guy she kissed and got intimate with got a second degree burn on his chest, going up to his shoulders.

Luckily, this particular person was quickly rushed to the hospital and received medical attention before the situation worsened. Katarine realized the dangerous consequences of ignoring her intuition and vowed to always trust her instincts so she was always in control of her actions and the second person who was able to touch her and hold her intimately was Victor Yuli Romanov. That time she was convinced she had found the right person until he held her body close. The calmness lasted only a few minutes before Victor was able to unbutton her blouse and attempt to take things further. However, Katarine's instincts kicked in once again.

This time Katarines search for her prince charming once again ended up in flames. And Vicoto nearly lost his entire arm in the process, as Katarine swiftly pushed him away and ended the encounter. And save his life. In the process Victor had to leave the country and spend countless days and large amounts of money to regain the use of her hands and numerous skin grafts to repair the damage caused by fire.

She realized that her search for true love was far from over, and she vowed to be more cautious in the future. Despite the failed attempt, she never stops trying, but as soon as she feels a bit off, especially the scent she will just instantly leave without a single word. At times, she would end up being rude and insensitive, but she knew that her safety and well-being were the top priorities.

Days turn into months, and now it has been two years since her romantic dates became known to many as a cautionary tale about everything going wrong. Many young single men are still trying to tame her but she got tired of the constant failure. Even after so many unsuccessful attempts and incidents, these young men still get pulled into her , like a moth to a flame.

Katarine now can't even last a minute on a blind date, as she gets annoyed easily with certain things that she smells, feels, and hears. The reputation of being a difficult woman to please has stuck with her, making it challenging for anyone to truly win her over. Even the Korean pop idol Baek Hyeon failed miserably .

But the only person who changed everything was a young man who came from a small, rural farming town. Before most men are pulled toward her, this time she was the one getting pulled toward Etan, and she can't explain why,, because the moment this happened, she just lost all reason and consciousness to even resist him.

Another headache came crashing down on her lap. Katarine had to make sure her grandmother had made a mistake or that she was just making a joke. Either way, this is supposed to be just another ordinary uneventful day. But now, with Ethan in the picture, everything seemed to be turning upside down. Katarine couldn't shake the feeling that her life was about to change in ways she never could have imagined.

She sat back in her favorite chair, which was facing the main window. While in deep thought she was trying so hard to recall anything. She recalled holding Ethan's hand as he was about to stumble due to the sounds and non stop blinking of the club lights. She was just repaying his effort as he did get stabbed and injured, which is the least she could do as they walked out of the club.

As soon as she held his hands, everything went blank, and she couldn't remember anything else after that moment. And waking up at her bed was nothing new and special; this was a normal scenario she usually faces the following day, The different times were still vivid in her mind, and she could recall every detail leading toward the incident, but this time nothing.

The only thing she noticed was that her body was a little sore, and she had a faint scent of sweat and some bodily fluids. She couldn't shake the feeling that something significant had happened the night before, but she couldn't piece together any memories to explain it. Until she stood up and grabbed her expensive blanket and just pulled it away from the queen size bed,

At that moment the smell was overwhelming—the combination of blood and male secretion. She quickly realized that the sheets were stained with blood and bodily fluids, causing her heart to race with panic. As she frantically searched her memory for any clues, a sinking feeling settled in her stomach as she began to piece together the events of the previous night.

The male scent was Ethan; she couldn't mistake this fact as she was intimately familiar with his unique smell. The realization hit her like a ton of bricks—she had been with Ethan, but the details of their encounter were hazy at best.

"Wait, the mansion has tons of hidden cameras and CCTV."

"I need to know what happened,"

She was about to dash toward her bedroom door when Grand Matriarch Helena Felicie Siegert entered her room holding what seemed to be a USB. Katarine Heart nearly skipped a beat.

"Dear child, don't worry, I have already secured the contents of this device and took the liberty to erase everything. I suggest you erase this too after watching it."

Katarine could not believe what she was hearing. She hesitated for a moment before taking the USB from Grand Matriarch Helena, feeling a mix of relief and anxiety about what she was about to uncover.

"By the way, sweetheart, I can't wait to meet him personally."

"huh! what?"

"Anyway, coming all the way here is truly worth it."

"Maybe I will stay a bit longer."

"But grandmother, remember you have something important happening this coming week?"

"Oh, that can wait; let those things take care of themselves," Grand Matriarch Helena replied with a mischievous smile. Katarine couldn't help but feel a sense of foreboding at her grandmother's words.

"So I will leave that small thingy under your care; again, don't forget to delete the content of that device."

"Better buckle up, my dear; the video is disappointingly short but… honesly, kids now a days are so wild."

" Krauss, were are you?"

"yes madam,"

" I wish to rest; I am exhausted and entertained enough."

"Tell Gertrude to arrange my sleeping quarters."

"Of course, Matriarch Helena. I will make sure everything is taken care of for you," Krauss replied dutifully. With a nod, he quickly left to carry out his instructions, leaving Katarine alone with her mischievous grandmother.

Soon she casually walked and went out of Katarines room. she was holding her breath as she watched her grandmother walk ever so slowly, as if she were intentionally doing it to annoy her even more.

Matriarch Helena was still energetic for her age she was still as spry as ever, despite her advanced years. Katarine couldn't help but grin at the thought of her grandmother's playful antics. As soon as she closed the bedroom door, she dashed once again and took out her laptop and opened it,

this might be the longest wait of her life. As her lap top opened, she was holding her temper as the luxury brand gadget opened. , she inserted the USB and quickly open the file, sadly she forgot to lower the volume as the video played the scene that she saw was enough to make her tremble in shock.

She saw what she dread and seeing her actions and heard how she was overwhelmed with lust and desire. The video revealed her deepest, darkest secrets that she never wanted anyone to know. Ethan took her and the moan she gave out was pure pleasure and ecstasy. She couldn't believe that her private moments had been recorded without her knowledge.

The video was six minutes long but the things Ethan and she did in bed was beyond anything she could have imagined, positions that never in her life would she have thought of trying. Ethan mouth and tongue were all over her body, she was screaming in pleasure and like a wild beast Ethan would enter her in a rapid trusting movement , and claiming her as his woman, Katarine was watching her own pornographic video,

feeling a mix of shock and arousal. She couldn't deny that watching herself in such a vulnerable state was turning her on, but she also felt violated and exposed. The realization that someone had invaded her privacy in such an intimate way made her feel different but it wasn't that bad.

She was disgusted at the same time and could not close her eyes from not looking at Ethan Hard Shaft entering her womanhood. Even while standing, Katarine was getting wet hearing and seeing Ethan pounding her, and she was rolling her eyes in rhapsody.

As she spoke the sentence , F_ck me more!

Katarine is feeling a mix of conflicting emotions. The intensity of the situation both repulsed and excited her, leaving her unsure of how to process it all. Despite feeling a sense of disgust, Katarine's body was responding in a way that she couldn't control. The conflicting emotions of repulsion and arousal were overwhelming her, causing her to question her own desires.

Until the video ended, she was trembling as she stood in front of her room desk. She was upset and now annoyed; she had sex for the first time, and she does not recall any of it. In fact her legs were dripping wet, which means she liked it, but the lack of memory was deeply unsettling. She couldn't shake the feeling of transgression, even though her body seemed to have enjoyed the experience.

Meanwhile, Ethan was done gathering his thoughts and finally decided to just move on, hope for the best, forget everything, and start again with a clean slate. He knew dwelling on the situation wouldn't change anything, so he focused on looking forward to new opportunities and experiences. Ethan took a deep breath, feeling a sense of relief wash over him as he embraced the idea of starting fresh.

When the warehouse phone rang, Ethan hesitated for a moment before answering, curious about who could be calling at this hour. As he looked at the clock hanging near the left side of the warehouse door, it was already lunch time.

As Ethan answered the phone a familiar voice greeted him. It was Sonia. Ethan was surprised considering he didn't mention he was staying at the warehouse. Sonia explained that she knew the chances that he would be the one to answer the call were big, given that fact Mr Ross only hires a single employee.

And she told Ethan that her boss had decided to hire him on a project basis, and he would get instructions from her boss directly. Ethan was grateful for the opportunity and eagerly awaited further instructions. He thanked Sonia for thinking of him and promised to give his best effort to the project. Having a second job was always a good thing. Ethan understood the importance of impressing Sonia's boss in order to secure a more permanent position. He was determined to prove himself and showcase his skills during the project. Having a second job not only provided financial stability but also valuable experience and opportunities.

"Okay, here are the details, Ethan. Our boss is busy right now, but next Monday you can drop by the office maybe before 8 a.m."

"Thank you; I will be there."

"Shoot, I forgot to tell him ."

"Anyway, today is Wednesday, and he will know that information eventually."

As Sonia hung up the phone, she realized her mistake but decided not to dwell on it. She trusted that Ethan would find out about working with President Katarine Horn Siegert soon enough.