Childhood memory

Growing period of my chidhood was full of struggle and i am to jump from poor situation to a lttle bit better position. But, this critical society could stop my way to reach at my goal. At last, i take revenge by doing good result in S.S.C/ H.S.C/ B.Sc. Any wsy, after completing education, i take a job in Pharmaceuticals Company and did job near about 15 yrs as Medical Promotion Officer, Sr.Medical Officer and Manager. But, o couldn't save any money during my job. That is why, i fall down from my dream that is painful for my life. At last i am to back at my village home with empty pocket. I can't take care of my father and ultimately he died due to lack of good treatment and now i am ill. My mother and sisters and neighbours don't like me because my contribution was so bad according to their expectation. I feel shame and thinking how to buid up my prestige and acceptance to the society. I have still confidence to do better something next. Certainly Allah will grant my wishes.