Waiting

The party's already 3 hours in, by that time everyone is having stupid fun. My girlfriend was talking my ears off. I did not care about what was going on in the cheerleading squad. I kept looking around the room. A little upset that Carla never showed up. I excuse myself, kiss my girl, and tell her I was going to check on my sister. Going to different parts of the house to see where she was. Finally, I found her by the fridge talking to some guy. The minute she saw me her eyes lit up.

Sarah: I want you to meet somebody.

She said with an invigorated tone.

Johny: Who are you?

I ask stepping up to him.

Sarah: Stop! don't do this right now.

Johny: Why are you over here away from people?

Sarah: If you let me explain.

Johny: Naw you don't get to clarify anything. You need to tell him bye, come over where my friends and I are seated.

I was so furious; dude trying to bring my sister to a non-crowded area just to be alone with her? I know exactly what he plans to do because I am trying to do "that" with Stephanie. drowning In My thoughts I didn't even notice how tears were flowing down my sister's face. From far away I could hear someone telling me to "calm down."

Carla: What is the problem?

Don't get me wrong I was happy she came... for my sister of course.

Johny: Carla, stay out of this.

Then she completely got in the middle of me and the guy I was trying to interrogate. I could feel her chest lined up with mine, getting me far from creating a situation. Being close to this girl calmed me down instantly. It was not because I like her but because she was right.

Johny: They cannot be here by themselves

I said in a calm voice.

Now that I take a good look at this kid, He had big Ole glasses, pimples on his face. To be straightforward he resembled a geek. Just that thought alone made me start laughing. One look at him I know I had nothing to worry about

Carla: I'll chaperon.

She said while freely volunteering.

I thought about this carefully. Deon is downstairs being thirsty looking for Carla. Everyone knows this part of the house is off-limits. This might be good, Plus Noone dare tries to argue with Carla. She's got a temper.

Johny: Am picking her up for her birthday song in 30 minutes. Is that Okay sister?

She shook her head "yes. I know Carla and she builds a not-so-fan club of me but am not a bad guy. I nodded too and smile then left.

##Carla##

I can't believe this boy. it's always muscles with him. He didn't have to do all that to that poor kid.

Sarah: Thank you

She said shyly

Carla: No problem. Here are your markers. Have a good evening.

Sarah: Wait you're not staying?

Carla: Um no.

Sarah: Please stay I don't want my brother coming in here again causing a scene. Whenever he like this you're the only one who could talk some sense into him. Please is my birthday.

I sigh in agreement.

Carla: Fine, I'll be on the staircase.

Then I thought about it. How was this little guy holding up?

Carla: How are you holding up? and your who by the way?

Sarah: Yes, so this is Carvin, my boyfriend.

Carla: Hmmm ok

Carvin: Well, am going to go actually.

Sarah: But babe you just got here.

Carla: Was it that idiot? did He scare you off?

He was hesitant to respond until He mumbled something pretty unusual.

Carvin: No, it's my pants I got to go change it.

Sarah's whole face turns red

Sarah: Sorry was I standing too close again?

"Ew, this boy gets off by her standing close to him?" I meant to say in my mind, but it came out. He went quiet again.

Carvin: no, actually it was your brother.

He said while pushing his glasses back out of embarrassment.

I couldn't hold back the laughter. Sarah gave me a dagger stare. I immediately stop laughing, still wearing a wide grin.

Sarah: Aws babe. Am sure we could find something here for you to wear.

Carla: We Could?

Sarah: yes! we could!

She said with a comforting tone, rubbing his shoulders.

Sarah: Go head to the bathroom and we will bring you some pants

Sarah took my hand dragging me to Johny's room.

Carla: Why am I standing in front of Johny's bedroom?

Sarah: I need you to help me find Carvin something to wear so He won't leave. We haven't kissed yet to make us official, His staying is a big deal for me

I laugh historically.

Carla: You still want a kiss after he peed his pants? the wet spot was huge

Sarah: Yes. He was the first one to ask me out despite my brother threatening every male in that school.

Carla: Something doesn't feel right about this

Sarah: His my first boyfriend, please

Carla: This isn't a good idea

I whispered back, worriedly looking around

Sarah: come on, please, I don't want him to leave.

Carla: You can kiss him tomorrow in school or something but me going into Johny's room, no.

Sarah: you think he's going to want to kiss me after what Johny just did?

I thought about it for a minute there. shoot!

Carla: fine! let's make it quick.

Me and Sarah invaded Johny's room in the hope of finding old pants that Carvin could wear. I started to look in the draws. I see the different underwear He wore, hmm he looked like a brief guy. I could feel a slight blush want to sneak up on me. I had to have a not-so motivational talk with myself

"Get it together. That man doesn't want you. He got what He wants, sadly what He wants is Stephanie. Don't go making a fool out of yourself girl. Remember emotional walls girl emotional walls!" I heard the doorknob twisting. I automatically Panick "Oh God, what do I do?" Before I could imagine a spot to stow away. Johny came in with Stephanie kissing and touching each other. It didn't take a virtuoso to see what was in their mind to do tonight. I leaped behind the dresser

Stephanie: Babe seriously, no gloves no love.

Johny: I know, I bought some today hold on, stay right there. Don't move. Dam, You look so fine like that.

He got up heading towards the dresser where I was hiding at... Dam it! He bends to open his drawer, His hazel eye, met my terrified eyes.

Johny: What are you doing in my room?

The whole got cold all of the sudden, Stephanie got up from the bed to look at who's he was talking to.

Stephanie: Why are you here? do I got to spell it out for you? that stupid little crush you got on my man has got to stop.

His head hanging low avoiding eye contact. Just letting her talk to me like am a stranger. Like we don't go way back? I see now I meant nothing to him, my existence meant absolutely nothing? All he cared for was this blond big breast doll face he had on his side. she's verbalizing what he's feeling rudimentary, Why did I expect him to mediate, it's how he feels she just got more balls to say it. Why did this conversation hurt so much?

Stephanie: You are so miserable, pathetic, a loser, you don't see who he's with? And another thing...

Her word got cut off when Sarah came out of the bathroom. She always tries to play nice with Sarah to win favors with Johny, she knows what family means to him. Sarah saw I successfully got pants that could fit Carvin. It was from when Johny was in middle school.

Sarah: First of all she came in here for Me, Not for my brother, helping me in light of the wreck you did Johny.

while pointing her fingers at Johny's chest fussing at him

Johny: What do you mean?

Sarah: Carvin peed his pants and I asked her to help me find pants that might fit him, So I could have my kiss for us to be official. I really like him, yes, I admit he's not all muscles but He's so brilliant, funny, entertaining, and very honest, I find that appealing.

I didn't even realize that tears were rolling down my face until I felt something wet and warm hitting my chest. I couldn't take my eyes away from Johny, I think this was when I realized, I really meant nothing to him whether I lived or die it made no difference to him. Seeing my emotions flaring Sarah came and hugged me.

Sarah: You're ludicrously idiotic.

It took everything I had to tell Johny that "I don't ever want to speak to him again, for him to stay away from me." I hand Sarah the pants. "I shouldn't have come," I thought. I told her I was going home. I made my way through the crowded teens, I started walking home. I made it home, I felt numbness starting from my chest. My mom and my dad watching TV in the living room.

Dad: That was quick. You did not like the party?

Mom: Yes, today is Sarah's birthday, isn't it?

I shook my head and smiled in order not to alarm my parents. But I couldn't stop crying on the inside. When I finally got to my room, I buried my soul under the pillow, I cried endlessly; why out of everybody that's who I had to care for?