If heart could talk.

##carla##

I fell asleep with food still on My bed.

I got up went down stairs to put it away.

Mom: Good morning

Carla: Hi.

Mom: Your Dad had to work early today will you come with me to my doctor's appointment?

Carla: Of course give me one minute to get ready.

I quickly ran upstairs to take a shower and get change.

I ran back downstairs where my mom was waiting for me, we were off.

##Johny##

Dad: Do you guys want to see the new practice? it's a clinic slash urgent care.

Johny: Ugh fine.

I rolled out of bed went to bathe and went with my dad to his soo called new practice, regretfully my mind was not there, I don't know how Carla sleeps? is she okay? last time we slept together I held her hand we fell asleep... I gotten so used to her sleeping next to me.

We arrive at the clinic, it looked rather small, but my dad face was excited so I decided to keep my comment to myself. Upon walking in He was apologizing to this lady, As she respond "no problem" I know that voice.

Carla's mom: No worries doctor.

Carla: Your my mom's Doctor?

Carla mom: Yeah, my Doctor wasn't accepting my insurance so I switch to him.

Dad: Yes. Oh Carla I forgot, Johny came by your house you wasn't there, now look yall in the same place.

She leaned her head over to see me behind my Dad

Carla: Coincidence huh?

My Dad hand me his keys and said

Dad: Take her too the mall son, here is my credit card. I know it's my fault ya'll didn't hang out all summer

Before I could say anything, Carla replied

Carla: We already have our arrangement already, Am just here for my mom at this time.

She smilled.

My Dad continues to show off his new place, the painting was cacky with lime green outline, the inside did look good. He showed her mom Her room Carla followed. Sigh "what do I got to do?"

I decided to stand outside until I heard

Carla mom: Don't be a stranger come see.

My dad was doing the ultra sound.

Carla: What is the sex of the child.

Dad: Your mom want it to be a surprise

Carla: Hmm mom close your ears. What is the sex of the unborn?

Carla mom: It's ok you can tell her, she's going to keep on asking.

Johny: That's true.

Remembering Nature party.

She Did not look at me, she just kept on staring at the screen. Dam Carla what can I say to show you how sorry I am? I love you, I really do!

Dad: It's a boy.

Her mom started to cry.

Carla: Were having a boy

Carla's mom: Uh huh

Its seems like forever since I seen that glow of happiness. This Doctors visit was very emotional. Carla and her mom said good bye. Her mom paid then left. She is soo beautiful, I forgot how beautiful she is in a mini skirt. Sigh the mother of my creation.

##Carla##

My mother was the main focus here not me or Johny. When I got home I ask Does she needs anything, she shook her head "no." Just a nap.

I said "okay" I slowly got out her room letting her sleep. Later on I heard a knock at my door

Carla: Am coming!

When I opened my door it was Satphire in human form? with black hair instead of white, no crown

Carla: Aw man what are you doing here?

Satphire: We moved in next door

Carla: Ouhhh soo we get to be together. Yayyy

Satphire: Alright mortal your getting too excited

Cleon: Yoo where is my boy at?

Carla: On the other side.

Cleon: Let's go!

Carla: Um am pretty sure his not home. His with his Dad at their clinic.

Satphire: Will you show us the way.

I decided to walk them over to Johny House. Johny was not home what could go wrong? As I got closer I could hear basket being shot in. Of course Johny was there shooting hoops.

Johny: Carla!

Honestly He got what he wanted, why can't he just leave me to regret it in peace, He took my virginity isn't that what he wanted? Guess that night wasn't for showing me he loved me but showing me how easy I was to minupulate. He stop playing the game. I decided to leave, why would I stay? to be a laughing stock? I give my everything to a boy who changed his mind about me. I was disposable to him. I feel like It's my fault, I didn't see it coming. I thought he was living and breathing for me? Same as I was for him. I can't be mad at him I just hate the players game.

##Johny##

Why was she leaving? don't she wants to talk about my stupidity? Am open to it.

Satphire: This what you do?

Johny: My sister is upstairs.

Satphire: I came for Carla But seems like she rather stay indoors

##Carla##

I always thought I was clever, I could see through it all, haha but not his game, I sat on my bed and hugged myself. To remind myself that someone loves me, Even if the world hates or mistreat me, I Carla Brown will always love myself. I decided to cook dinner. I did my Mom favorite; some white rice black beans some fried tilapia. I call my mother for lunch. She came downstairs.

Mom: This baby gets me soo sleepy.

Carla: Pregnancy will do that to you.

We sat and we ate. She had three servings

Mom: Dont you dare call me fat.

Carla: Of course not, whoever calls you fat their eyes must be out of focus.

We laugh because we know the truth. I ate then went upstairs. I decided this year am not going to walk with my head Down, Am no longer a Virgin, am going to shine through all this. It's ok if am not Johny's type, that doesn't mean life ends here. I'll find someone that wants Me for me. I dosed off.

The next mornings Satphire was in my bedroom.

Carla: Sigh good morning.

Satphire: I need you to ask Johny to bring me to the mall; I need clothes for school.

Carla: Ugh why can't you ask him?

Satphire: Your his wife.

Carla: Ask something else?

Satphire: That is my request young queen.

Carla: I'll have my mom dropt us.

Satphire: I don't do good with new people.

Carla: Fine.

Satphire: I'll get you what ever you want.

Carla: This sucks.

Satphire: Are you ignoring Johny?

Carla: No, I just don't have much to say to him

Satphire: I see.

When I got done getting dress I scream to my mom "am going out" she replied "ok" when I walked outside Johny was at my front door with his black car. Cleon, Sarah, was siting in the back. Sigh I remember sitting in the front was such a honor, now it just seems like a cruel prank. I entered first, straight to the back

Johny: You can sit in the front Carla

Was He still trying to be nice to a fool. Fat lady have sung budy just take me where I need to go.

Carla: Thank you but it'll be more beneficial to Satphire.

We drove on silence even Cleon didn't say any thing. When we got there Johny ask me to hold back for something. He gave Sarah his phone so we could call once we are inside Saying he was going to park the car.

Johny: I sent you alot of msg why didn't you respond?

I turned on my phone I read the messages out loud.

Carla: "Hey" next one "am really horny right now" next "did you make it home if so do you miss me." last "carla"

I looked at him. Why would he feel like he needs to tell me his in the mood? Am not giving him head.

Carla: Am not sure which one is appropriate to answer, When that someone doesn't want you?

Johny: Those are...

Carla: Probably meant for someone else, Cool. If it's my permission you need to sleep around, you have it. On instalaxia we may be married but on earth you are as free as a bird.

##Johny##

How could she talk to me so cold, after what we've been through? She walked out the car. I did the same. I saw my sister and everyone stayed waiting for us in the front.

Carla walked infront anxious to meet them.

Carla: You guys waited thank you.

Cleon: Am waiting to see these earthly girls

Carla: Johny can show you.

Everyone turned to her in surprise. They know how crazy jealous she is.

Johny: Let's go see who wants to be In protected status.

I took cleon and parted with the group.

Cleon: Did your wife just said that?

Johmy: Yup

Cleon: Your the man!!

##Carla##

Satphire: Um you do know his going to end up in someone's bed right?

Sarah: You told him your okay with him getting a side chick?

Carla: I am aware ladies.

Seing him made my heart want to ripped apart. Hearing him longing and wanting for someone else made me feel less than a woman. We bought soo much clothes. I got me some sexy outfit, sure to have the boys look my way. But I strongly doubt I'll do anything with them.

When we finally walked to the car we heard some girls. Am looking at the car like did we find the wrong car? I seen two blonde girls, one was on Johny the other was on Cleon.

Johny's Blonde girl: Ouhh I can feel you, your pretty big.

I was so shocked on how I was so easily forgotten. Our time together met nothing to him.

Sarah: You are the Dumbest guy I've ever seen.

Everyone looked at me to see my reaction. I panic, I did not want them to see me cry; so I lied.

Carla: Oh I think I forgot something. excuse me.

I quickly walk back into the building as fast as my legs can carry me. I walk into the first bathroom I found. I took deep breaths. repeating to myself "Your ok"

I went back outside looking calmed and collected.

I was shock to see everyone grabbing Satphire from Johny's blond girl.

Cleon: Come on its our second day here.

Sarah manage to get her off.

Satphire: GET OUT OF HERE YOU PILE OF DISRESPECT.

It kinda made me smile. In the midst of the fighting I went inside the car, I took my seat.

When Johny manage to get everyone inside the, He said nothing to me just kept looking at me in the rear view mirror

Cleon: My strong and capable of killing me, queen. I did not advice him to do any of this, I am the victim.

Satphire: Sure you are.

Sarah: I swear Johny you keep getting dumber by the seconds.

Carla: It's okay you guys, we are not together, He can kiss or be with anyone he chooses.

I smiled. The rest of the drive was done in silence..

##johny##

I couldn't even get her jealous? Are we really over? My little Carla, I'll never hear her sweet moan when she gives her entire self to me? When she told me she is mine, and only mine? I dropt everyone off she decided to walk home. It was me and cleon that was left in the car?

Cleon: What I don't understand is you weren't even conversating with shawty but when you seen the girls coming towards the car you put her on your lap then started kissing her?

Johny: Obviously that was stupid.

Cleon: You are not afraid of how Carla might react?

Johny: That's the thing she don't react. Not anymore.

Cleon: Hm

Johny: She sees me in another woman's arm, only thought to her was she forgot something? sigh I messed up, I messed up bad.

Cleon: What did you do?

I pulled up to his house then I said ima go check on my Dad. Replaying what I told Carla that night just seems more cruel each time. I went home, seems like Sarah wasn't talking to me either, I didn't blame her. I went to my room. The next day came by too fast. Tomorrow was school already. I spent the day in my bed. She was the best thing that ever happened to me and I blowed it. There was a knock on my door it was Sarah bringing me food.

Johny: I thought you hated me?

Sarah: Just eat.

Johny: You too?

Sarah: What would like me to say young King? you are not a child or a boy anymore. You don't want her?

Johny: That's not true.

Sarah: Does she knows that?

I shook my head "no."

She walked angrily out my room "Bring it down stairs when you finish." she demanded, I look down it was Mac and cheese with some ribs. Seing that Noone Is home she probably made it. I decided to go get a haircut. My Dad did gives me and my sister both a credit card for emergency. I decided to go to the barber shops.

## Satphire ##

Noone wants to come outside. Cleon was who knows where.

Just me and my so called Parents.

##carla##

My mom was watching Tv, I decided to head to Satphire house. I got dressed to head out. I wanted to see what she was planning on wearing tomorrow. I put on the sun dress and head out. I rung the door bell I guess her mother answered?

Satphire mom: Good afternoon your highness.

Carla: No, need to bow, we are on earth now. Is Satphire here?

Satphire mom: Yes right this way.

They're house was decorated very nice, every thing looks expensive. They had zebra print am guessing that was Cleon doing. I walked to her bedroom everything looks blue. She had her own portable ac in her window.

Carla: Earth gets too hot huh?

Satphire: Precisely

Carla: What do you got plan for today?

Satphire: Nothing.

Carla: Come shoot some ball with me. As human.

Satphire: I could do that.

We left her house, I gave her a personal tour of our beautiful town.

We pass by the barber shop.

Satphire: Isn't that Johny's Car?

Carla: I believe so

Satphire: What is he doing in there?

Carla: His hair am assuming?

Satphire: Did he contact you today?

Carla: yes, he text good morning

Satphire: Hmmm. Can I cut my hair?

Carla: No, but you can go to the salon.

Satphire: Were going inside?

Carla: Yes

##Johny##

Carla is here. Of course with Satphire, why Satphire? she does not like me at all. They went to the salon side I guess they are doing their hair. This place was own by a family, The guy cut hair and the woman style females hair. They had the same receptionist.

Johny: Can you put what ever they doing on my card.

Cashier: Um let me found out what they are doing.

This man screams across the room asking the ladies what will they be doing. Because this gentleman will take care of the bill. I was soo embarrassed until Satphire said we going to do a wash and a blow out.

Cashier: You sure player that's 45 each? plus your 20.

Johny: Yup that's fine.

I decided not to pay on my earthly Dad card. I paid on my real father's card. He always put money on this card, last time we talk about it. He told me he put 10,000 on the card every month. He owns different business here so money wasn't a issue for us.

I decided to go play some ball. Few hours later Carla was coming with Satphire. I didn't care how Satphire looks but Carla looked so beautiful, She did her eye brows straighten her curly hair. That's my baby.

Satphire: Hey! thanks for paying.

Then Carla did the most hurtful thing

Carla: Here is 50 you did not have to pay.

I Ignore her and kept on practicing my three points

Johny: That wasn't a loan

I said coldly

Johny: As far as food, clothes, shelter, you going to the Salon, Thats my responsibility as your husband.

Carla: I could take care of myself

Johny: I don't care! I will do as I please, Am a king dammit.

I said as I took a sit on the ground.

Satphire picked up the ball.

Satphire: Teach me how to play.

Trying to defuse the situation

Carla: Yeah, sure.

She showed Satphire a couple of moves, how to move her legs, dribbling the ball, and defense. Cleon came back with these two brunettes. They seem to be older than us.

Cleon: Hey how is everybody doing?

Carla: Hello

Cleon: Dang Queen you look good.

She smiled and Said it was about time she bring Satphire home, She needed to show her how to work the TV.

Johny: I could dropt yall off. Am going the same way.

Satphire: Your not staying? I thought this was your scenery now?

Johny: No

Satphire encourage her to get in the car. She agreed but sat in the back.

I dropped them off at Satphire house and headed home.

I couldn't get over how pretty she look when she does all that girly crap. I took a shower then watched some TV. I felt myself dosing off.