1 Prologue

"Ha? Kasal ka na?"

"Kalmahan mo nga lang,  Blaze. Pero legit yun, Cloey?"

"Yep. Things happen, you know."

They are as shock as I am. Ni miski nga ako na syang ikakasal that time nagulat na lang sa invitation na binigay sakin ni Mommy. I thought it was one of our relative who's getting married, yun pala kasal ko mismo ang nasa invitation. Ganito pala uso ngayon.

"I've been married for 2 years already. Mag tatatlong taon na halos."

"At wala kang plano ipaalam samin 'to? Kung hindi ka pa uuwi ngayon, hindi namin malalaman?"

Sa London ako kinasal, and that made them so clueless about my sudden marriage life. And we've been staying here for 3 years na.

"Sino napangasawa mo? Bakit hindi namin alam?"

"He is someone you all know. Makikita nyo sya mamaya kapag sinundo nyo ako sa airport."

"Bakit ngayon mo lang naisipan umuwi ha?"

I actually don't know the reason, why did I stay long with that man dito sa London.

"Baka naman buntis ka na din kaya ka nagsasabi ngayon. Nakakatampo ha. We've been bestfriends since college pero nagawa mong maglihim samin."

"It's not my intention to keep it, as if naman gusto ko itago sa inyo. It was a secret marriage. Hindi ko daw makukuha ang lahat nang mana ko kung hindi ako ikakasal dun sa lalaking yun. Kaya nga dito ginanap yung kasal long before Grandma died."

"Madami kang kailangang ikwento samin. Buong akala namin, kaya ka andyan is to launch your new branch there, we didn't know there's something more and something interesting huh."

"Don't be too interested, I am not as proud as any other wives out there. Married life, my ass. Sige na, I have to go. We need to get ready for our flight. Andito na yung asungot."

"Now, we're so confused and curious. See you later."

As soon as the call ended, tinuloy ko na pag aayos ng gamit ko. Saktong pasok naman nung asungot sa kwarto ko.

"Have you seen my Rolex?" Napangiwi ako sa kanya.

"Aba malay ko sayo. Bakit hindi mo hanapin sa kwarto mo. Tss." We're married for 2 years and 9 months but we sleep on separate rooms. Hindi kami magkasundo ng asungot na'to at malabong magkasundo kami. Aish.

"Be quick, we're leaving at 2pm."

Whatever. This is not what I dream of.

Bata pa lang ako, hinihiling ko na na makakilala ng lalaking katulad ni Daddy. Yeah, my Dad was my role model of finding my own kind of love someday. Lahat naman tayo may standards when it comes to our ideal guy.

A man who would love his woman endlessly. Ano kayang feeling nun diba? Sabi nila, ang swerte mo daw kapag mas mahal ka ng lalaki. So, swerte si Mommy having Dad.

A man who'll makes you happy and contented. Even in up's and down andyan to make you happy. Sarap sa feeling nun, someone is willing to make you smile and make you feel contented with him.

A man whom you want to grow old with. Having someone who stays on your side until you grow old is one of the best feeling in the world. I want that tho.

A man that makes his woman his world. Mahalin ka lang nya ng sobra, swerte mo na. What more kung ikaw lang talaga yung mundo nya. Damn so lucky.

A man who stays no matter how hard the situation is. That feeling tho. Life isn't just about happiness but also pain and sadness, but having a man to be with you when that time comes is really overwhelming. He'll stay no matter what and no matter how hard life must be.

And I can say, I see those things to the first man I loved and laid my eyes on, MY DADDY. Yeah, he made me believe that having a man like him is like living a world of fairytales.

But then, I thought I have the perfect family. A loving and dazzling Mom and a caring Dad. It was just my fantasy. It is my damn fantasies. It was just my hallucination, I guess. I don't expect a happy ending story but what I am not much expected is that, reality hits me. There is no man like him. Those standards are just an expectation I am into.

Everything was fine, yes. Not when my Dad left us and choose his other woman over us. Hindi ko akalaing magagawa ni Daddy yun. At dahil dun nagbago yung pananaw ko sa mga lalaki. He made me change myself from expecting too much to a lady who's more into reality now. He made me believe that expectation is not good at all.

But then I met him and unexpected things happen.  I fall, yeah I did, despite of what happened. I loved him as much as  I can.  I try but I give up. I hurt and left him. Maybe because I just can let go what is beyond my past. Dahil ang nasa isip ko ng mga time na yun, he would do the same. Iiwan nya rin ako gaya ng kung paano kami iniwan ni Daddy. I was wrong but I regretted it. I know, I've been an ass thinking that all man is just like my dad.

And this arrange marriage change everything. I knew it's him I'm gonna marry. He didn't recognize me. He changed a lot. I changed him a lot. And damn that freaking contract we both agreed upon. I can't accept the fact that I still love him. I still do.  Dun palang talo na ako.  We are both pressured in this marriage thing, and he hates marriage more than I do. For sure, dahil na rin sa nagawa ko before. But I am hoping, one day as soon as he knows the truth and he recognize me again, he fogives me and love me the same.

I am Cloey Amethyst Nhycolette Williams-McAdams, married to Troy Cyrus McAdams, his secret wife, the BACHELOR's WIFE.

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Yup, I made some changes. Di talaga ako satisfied sa story ko. Maybe I was just doubting myself with this. But then, I guess,I shouldn't doubt myself. I am writing not to impress but to express. I just leave it there.

Nag hiatus po si Otor kaya nag unpublished ng mga story 😅

Published: April 2018

Edited: August 2020

Re-published:  2023