Aftermath

The trip was a bit complicated, we had to surround some zombies and stay more than 50m away from the A and B.

But at 10:30 PM we finally reached the firing range.

Upon arrival I looked around, and after making sure there were no zombies nearby, I left the girl outside while I inspected the building.

After searching everywhere and finding nothing, I let the girl in and closed the door.

The first room upon entering is the waiting room, where there are two long sofas and a small table with magazines in the center.

After sitting down, I put the two backpacks on the table along with the bat.

And after what could be considered the most eventful night of my entire life, I was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief.

"S-sir, c-can we get something to eat?" Halley said sheepishly.

Of course, I forgot.

"Sure, are you allergic to something?" I said while looking in my backpack.

"I-I have a peanut allergy" -Halley

'Hmm, how good I never liked peanuts' -Ken

"Do you prefer corn or beans?" I said showing her the cans.

"I like beans better" -Halley.

After opening the can with the knife I gave it to the girl.

"S-sir, do you have a spoon?, b-besides this can is very cold" Halley said with a touch of reluctance.

"Not at the moment, but tomorrow at dawn I will go and get everything we need, can you wait until tomorrow?" I said in an understanding tone.

I was always picky about food, another reason I learned to cook, so I understand it.

The girl thought about it for a moment and then she nodded a bit sadly.

"Do you want a drink?, Look, I have apple juice" I said while showed her a small box of juice to try to cheer her up.

"I like apple juice!" Halley said quite excited and jumping up and down.

"Ok ok, it's not so good, it's just a juice" I said a little entertained and giving the girl the juice.

Following this, the girl settled into one of the sofas using the stuffed animal as a pillow and fell asleep before I knew it.

As for me, I doubt that I will be able to sleep for the next few days.

Every time I close my eyes I feel that I am, again, in front of that scene.

I had endured it until now, but I think I have already reached my limit.

I felt like vomiting again, along with that feeling of weakness and fear.

I'm not particularly afraid of what's after death, but dying like that is something that gives me chills just thinking about it.

My hands began to shake and sweat, my pulse quickened and I began to breathe heavily.

My mind could only remind me of that moment over and over again as if it were some kind of torture.

After a few minutes I ended up in one of the corners of the room in fetal position.

'J-just t-try not to think about it' I thought to myself.

My feelings are quite rare, but the few times they appear they are quite significant.

I tend to openly show the way I feel, even though most of the time it is indifference and exhaustion.

This makes me susceptible to any emotion, and results in quite a noticeable reaction.

But it's the best.

Showing feelings instead of hiding or containing them is one of the keys to my peace of mind.

Nothing in the universe simply disappears, it just transforms, this includes a person's feelings, experiences and memories.

Better to let it all go now than to hold it back and wait for it to explode in my face.

This is something I learned many years ago.

One of the advantages of my indifference is that my emotions never go from 0 to 100, therefore what I usually feel is only a fraction of the feeling itself.

If I were a happy and energetic person, I would probably be losing my sanity right now.

This advantage can also be a disadvantage, since my life is not very interesting.

Going from 0 to 100 can kill a person if the feeling is too strong, but that also makes their lives more interesting.

It's like going on a roller coaster, going up and down suddenly, making the feeling more significant.

In my case, it is like riding in a car and suddenly finding a hole.

The bump will be felt, but only because the fairway is normally flat.

After an hour, I was finally able to calm down a bit and tried to distract myself thinking about what to do tomorrow.

When I raised my head I could see that the girl was trembling.

'She must be cold' I thought with a bit of concern.

I walked over and carefully sat down next to the girl, then removed my jacket and covered her with it.

Upon covering her, the girl stopped trembling and continued to sleep peacefully.

'I'll have to find some blankets' and so I started listing the things I need.

And after all this, my first night in this mess ends.