1 So this is what God looks like

A heavy snow fell.

Dim street lights swaying in the wind and snow, mottled roads are covered with snow, as if covered with a layer of silver.

In suburban West Park, a lone figure stumbles to the edge of a bench.

He pulled out his lighter.

A faint fire lit up one side of the man's face.

He doesn't look very handsome, but he is angular and has thick eyebrows and big eyes.

Now the eyes reveal deep fatigue.

Silently, he took out the cigarette in his pocket and smoked it. The smell of tar mixed with nicotine made him completely relaxed.

The man's name is Leng Shun, 22 years old.

Originally a rural guy, he came to the big city because his childhood sweetheart studied here.

His childhood sweetheart, Chen Mengxi, was born in a rural area, but she doesn't look much like the locals.

When she was little, everyone thought she was just a little whiter and her eyes were a little bigger than the other kids.

Who knows that after growing up is out of the graceful standing, hot body, a pair of eyes as if can be enticing, the key smile mouth there are two shallow small dimples. She was very strange, and he didn't speak with a rural accent.

Such a girl of heaven, ten miles and eight villages can not find another.

Originally Leng Shun and her relationship should only stop at the neighbor.

But when he was three years old, Chen Mengxi's father accidentally fell into a river east of the village while out.

It's a strange river, with an average depth of less than two feet. Even many aunts and aunts often wash clothes by the river, and no one has fallen in.

But Chen Mengxi's father did not know how to sink into the mud at the bottom of the river, and he could not get out with his full strength, but sank deeper and deeper.

Several men who passed by did not dare to go down the river to save people, and finally Leng Shun's grandfather could not stand it, and asked people to tie themselves down and save people.

Since then the relationship between the two families has become very close, Chen Mengxi his father Let the two children grow up to get married to show his gratitude.

Whenever the adults laughed at their two little ones after drinking, Chen Mengxi always stared at the boy on the side with his big eyes, and Leng Shun ran away with a shy face, causing the adults to laugh.

Due to the close relationship between the two families, Chen Mengxi and Leng Shun naturally become good friends without talking, and they are similar in age, so two people are classmates from primary school to junior high school.

Chen Mengxi because of natural beauty, often bullied by female classmates said she is a Witch, and Leng shun stand up for girls every time.

In this way, over time, the two people also gradually produced a sincere feeling.

Until the age of 15, Leng Shunna's father, a migrant worker, was hit on the head by steel bars falling from the construction site and died on the spot. His mother dragged on for more than a year, and finally ran away with a contractor.

Leng Shun experienced a double whammy at a young age, causing his academic performance to plummet.

He was in a daze all day long, and he didn't have the heart to study.

Chen Mengxi in this period of time study performance is very outstanding, She even has the hope of getting into a good university.

However, at that time, their village was also among the poorest in the nearby eight townships, and their families were all farmers, so they could not afford the tuition fee of nearly $10,000 that year.

Looking at Chen Mengxi holding Letter of Acceptance crying in front of the pear flower with rain appearance, Leng Shun said a touching word: "You just take the exam, your tuition I will find a way!"

Therefore, he did not finish reading the third year of high school, hiding from his grandfather, came to the big city alone to struggle.

In order to make up for Chen Mengxi's first year of tuition and fees, Leng Shun worked as a brick worker, restaurant waiter, Courier, takeout man.

Sometimes it's three jobs a day. When you're hungry, you eat the cheapest Bread and water. At night, I found an empty room in an abandoned old building and slept on the floor.

In this way, Chen Mengxi finally gathered enough $10,000 before going to college.

Leng Shun still remember when Chen Mengxi cried with joy, holding his hard-earned money in his hand, standing on tiptoe to whisper to his ear that the future will marry himself, and sent Leng Shun a kiss when he left.

He touched the cheek where he had been kissed, as if the kiss were still there.

But time will change everything, four years of college is OK, Chen Mengxi contact people are not many, although there are many male students openly and vindicate to her, she has not agreed.

Because she was reluctant to this man who was willing to spend money for her.

Although Leng Shun gradually couldn't feel Chen Mengxi's love for him, but still comfort themselves because she is too busy studying, so did not put in mind.

Until the day she graduated from college, Chen Mengxi took a man's arm and appeared in front of her eyes.

What she means is that this handsome and rich man will continue to support her graduate school, and will give her a lot of cosmetics and jewelry that he can't afford, and even marry her back home in the future, and send her family to live in the big city.

And Leng Shun was calm terrible.

Not that he had seen it coming. Rather, the shock caused his brain to activate its own protective mechanisms, lest he go insane.

Until the two men gradually walked away from him that two lines of clear tears came out of the corners of his eyes.

After returning to the broken house that night, Leng Shun shouted and smashed things for a long time, and even once had the impulse to kill the man.

But in the end reason prevailed.

Because there is an old grandfather at home, if he killed someone, grandpa how to live after ah!

However, good fortune never comes twice, misfortunes never come singly!

At noon this day he learned of the sudden death of his grandfather at home.

One after another huge blow let Leng Shun has been insensitive.

He felt that the world with him or without him was no longer important, so he went to the pharmacy and bought a bottle of sleeping pills.

He thought to himself, "Just take this sleeping pill and drink some wine, and I'll be free." 

The cigarette that was still burning was put aside, and Leng Shun took out a bottle of sleeping pills from his pocket, which he poured into his mouth like beans in a bamboo tube, chewed and swallowed.

Then he picked up the bottle of shochu from the ground and poured it into my mouth...

He slowly closed my eyes.

The darkness... Nothing at all

It is said that the last thing a dying man loses is his hearing, and the first thing a comatose man wakes up to is his hearing.

"×&%￥#@..."

With a noisy sound, Leng Shun gradually came to life.

But the glare still made it difficult for him to open his eyes.

After he had settled in for half a day and finally opened his eyes completely.

He saw an old man with gray hair talking to him like Andorf had done

Leng Shun, whose brain was not yet fully awake, roared: "Hey, God!"