1 Desolate

As I am standing at the top of the highest building in town. I feel that this is finally the moment to say goodbye. Am so fed up with everything that has been happening in my life. I don't want to be in existence anymore. Am so tired and can't believe that been living so miserably in my entire twenty years of my existence. My life has been so horrible that I desire to die all the time.

Why was I born in the first place? This question always rotates in my mind most of the time. I don't understand why I exist in the first place. Nothing good has happened to me and I feel that tonight is my last night to be here on earth.

Did I just come to this world to suffer in the hands of these so-called human beings?

But why... what did I do to deserve all this treatment despite me being a wonderful person in this world.

As the wind blows kissing my back. I feel that it was encouraging me to jump off and end my miserable life. Am I so fucked up that the wind is encouraging me to take my own life?

I can't think straight at this moment and everything been through is starting to play in my mind.

As if my mind wanted me to go too. What is happening to me. Even my body doesn't want me to. My hands are trembling as I stare down the twenty storey building. I feel a strong energy pushing my mind to push my body to commit this murder.

The waves of excruciating pain kept pummeling in my brain as my body was dragged down and down, near where I could see the ground. Yes... It's now time to go. Am certain that no one would care if I die anyway. My awful relatives and frenemies would just come to my burial and eat my funeral meal.

I can only imagine how they would celebrate deep down as my body rested on the ground. Then I will go to the other world and come back as a furious ghost seeking vengeance.

As I peek down for the last time ready to jump off. I decide to pray so that my soul may rest in peace if it will. Of course, after death, I was going to live another life and was so ready for it. That life may be better than this... that's my presumptuous guess since haven't died before.

Suddenly someone hugged me from behind. This embrace is so smooth and I think that it that, it may be my imagination. Was it an angel sent from above who never wanted me to commit such atrocity. No this can't be true. I must do this now or never. I had already decided to do this no matter what happens.

As I shook my behind a little to confirm if I was just dreaming. The embrace become stronger and the person standing behind had this luring sweet perfume.

Oooh...!!! No this must be a lady doing this.

As I turned around to confirm my suspicion. What I saw amused me as my anger and bitterness subdued slowly. I felt as if become lighter and maybe, she was that angel I thought was sent from above.

"Sir... Why are you doing this", she asks and her sweet voice mesmerized me.

As she loosed her grip on me. What I saw in front of me puzzled me. Was I dreaming or what...?

Her tiny slender waist that was whistling from her bust made me gape not believing what I was seeing. Her big hips that was so breathtaking and perfect. It felt as if it was carved out by the gods of beauty. Her curvaceous body sizzled me. At that moment didn't think of my messed up life. Her beauty was so out of this world and she looked like a perfect goddess.

"Aaaah...", I muttered unable to speak. Both from her dazzling beauty and my so fucked up life. How could I start explaining to this beautiful lady what I was going through.

Yes... She saved my life since if it wasn't for her. I would be a dead man by now.

"Just relax come...", She opens her arms again wanting to embrace me. Didn't think twice and held her waist tightly as I cried like a baby left by his mother.

I feel loved even if, it's for a few seconds. It's long since felt this and I owe my all to this dazzling beauty here. She was truly sent to save me and my mind is so relaxed now.

She loosens her grip and wipes my tears with her hand. Right now didn't care about the masculinity rules of not crying in front of ladies. I didn't care as long as I had a shoulder to cry on.

"Do you mind sharing...", She raised the obvious question and I just didn't want to talk about it here. With all her bodyguards staring at us. It feels so weird and I know couldn't speak in that situation.

"It's a long story", I say as I stare at her intensively.

"I don't mind hearing it. Do you mind coming to my place we talk", she offers and my jaws drop with shock.

Did she just invite me to her place. What more could I ask for now....?

I nod as she hold my hand.

"Let's go...", She informs me as we head towards the elevator. During the ride no one talks and I start to wonder who she is. Is she a psychologist or a mental health advocate.

We head towards her car and my jaws drops out of shock. It was a shiny black rolls royce ghost. This is the car of my dreams. And this gorgeous lady owed it. I started to wonder who she was and had so many questions in my mind. The ride was silent and no one talked.

We finally halted in a gorgeous big black gate. I knew this was no ordinary house. It's polished wooden floor and it's amazing decor was so spectacular. I felt like I was inside a castle or palace.

"Prepare his room. You may all go. I want to have a private talk with him", the dazzling beauty informs her maids and bodyguards. They all nod and depart the lounge area.

"Why did you want to kill yourself", she asks softly awaiting for my response. I gape thinking of where I would start from. My story is so long and am not sure if she is ready to listen to my fucked up life.