1 Chapter 1

      Nada, was a name from an autistic young girl who also suffered from parkinson's syndrome that made her drool whole days. She was 17 years old, she was so extremely beautiful, her skin was really so white even whiter than the pearl, her hair was so thick and long, it's golden and curly and her eyes are so calm and pretty but unfortunately everyone despise her because of her autism and because she keep drooling whole days, it disgust them, because she was so different from everyone around her.

She doesn't talk nor socialize like most people, she is so quiet, she also keeps drooling and it made everyone saw her as nothing but a mere disgusting human being.

        It was in the middle of April, the weather was so cold an calming, every student in a school that day were so extremely happy, they laugh, they play, they talk while eating their chips, and a lot more except Nada. The young girl just standing in front of her classroom, watching her classmates having fun, it was a normal sight for her.

She was smiling despite the pains of being bullied, ignored or even abandoned. When she walk to watch them having fun so closely, people keep calling her as a freak, a lonely weirdo; to the most hurtful nickname

'Nothing but a mere disgusting bastard'

and some were running and laughing while saying

"Watch out everyone, there is a drooling autistic monster who try to approach us, she is so disgusting! Move away before she drools on your hands ewwww move away everyone, look at her disgusting drools, it seems like she is so hungry, or perhaps she is a hungry dog who crave for any flesh so don't let her catch you because she will eat you hahaha!".

        They kept laughing while still mocking her yet she was still facing it with smile and patience even when it hurt so bad that made her feel so exhausted and suffocated from her lowest abdomen until her throat.

She smiled for one last time for all of them then she walk towards the school washroom and wiped her drools away, she stare at the mirror and cried so bad, she cried until it was hard for her to breathe, she keeps drooling until it dirt her uniform, she rolled down onto the floors and hitting her head with her hands, she keeps mumbling

"I want to die, I don't deserve to life.. I'm so disgusting, everyone despise me including my dad, I want to die, please God let me die.. please.. please.."

She keeps mumbling and hitting her head until she felt so dizzy but then she stood up and staring at herself again in the mirror, forcing herself to smile, she wiped her tears with her drools and clean a little drool which dripped on her uniform with tap water.

Four minutes later, she come out from the washroom like nothing had happened, she keeps smiling while staring at the ground, walking towards her classroom. The students still laughing at her and even threw a soil to her uniforms, she teared up but then she wiped her tears away.

She felt so angry and so extremely depressed at that time but she keeps walking while shaking her head and mumbled

"no.. no.. i'm sorry.. please don't hurt me"

She keeps mumbling so quietly but then one student pulled her skirt and yanked her hair

"My.. my.. look at this bitch! She's so pretty inside.. it seems so tight, i think we must touch her, it will be a waste if we keep her virgin, it's okay dudes, we can cover her drooling mouth with a cloth so we can mess with her however we want hahaha, I bet she will stop drooling once we feed her well"

The guy then coded his friends to join in and then they yanked her hair and brought her to the most secluded place, she plead but nobody listens to her, she cried so bad but got slapped and tortured so badly.

       It was the first time she cried so loudly in front of people. The boys roughly removing her whole uniform, leaving her completely bare, and then..they did their heinous act towards her one by one for hours, the dark and secluded room was filled with her screams, cries, pleads and the guys moans, laughs and the rough slap of bodies. The guys made her completely exhausted, filthy and limp while trembled.

After the guys finished, they all laughed so hard and start cleaning the sweats all over their bodies and zipped their pants while walking away, leaving her in the dark.

Nada then just staring at the ceiling in the dark, she then slowly collected herself and wearing back her uniform.

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The study time had ended 2 hours ago when she was being sexually harassed, she walks toward the class and lift her plastic bag on her left arms.

She become so quiet that day and her eyes are filled with..

rage,

anger,

sadness,

trauma,

depression and

an urge to die soon.

       Some minutes later, she stands up from the classroom and tried to collect herself to go out of the school, as she walks to the school gate, she keep thinking and processing what had happened, what was it and why they did it to her.

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        She walks to her home, trying to forget everything that was happened to her at school, she sobs but then wiped her tears while walking alone under the fringe trees, she walks like a person who just learnt to walk, little by little.. steps by steps.. because she still felt the pains from what the guys did to her.

She look around the trees in the winter as a sweet innocent smile appeared on her pretty and adorable face

"what an ethereal sight, I never want this to be end" 

she said while keep walking through the empty road and then humming while doing a little dance as she held the pain, she just trying to make herself forget about the terrible events which had happened to her some hour ago.

She tried to be happy as usual along the empty road under the fringe and sakura trees in winter, the good smell from those flowers really made her mind felt so calmed and happier.

     She then walks towards a bridge which filled with so many fringe and sakura trees, the flowers keeps falling onto her hair and she giggled, it was as if she had a best friend who tease her she keep giggling while the flowers keep falling until in reach to her bruised body, she stare at her bruised body, she sobs and quickly wiped her tears.

She tried to be happy again by forcing her little lips to smile and caressed her bruised parts so gently while staring at the sakura and fringe trees above her, then she smiled so calmly while sniffing the good smells of it, at least in that moment she felt so calm, serene and happy even though she keep drooling and still feel the pain between her little thighs and the bruises the guys had caused her.

She keep smiling and walk to the edge of the bridge, she then sit on the edge of the bridge while closing her eyes.... thinking about life and death....