Twilight

After 3 hours straight of dance practice, our lunch has been served. We ate at the table near the pool area. I'm busy getting my foods. I don't want to get disturbed coz I feel like I'm craving for more foods right now. I felt hungry because of that practice.

I felt like my energy has been drained out of my body. I'm sweating so hard during practiced coz I'm so nervous. My hands are trembling when Cylec held it.

I'm ashamed coz his hands was so smooth and firm while mine was callous and rough. The moment he hold my hands, I felt that strange feeling of being electrocuted.

I'm just lucky that I'm still breathing until now. I hold on to my breath while we're practicing. My breathing just turned back in a normal state when Shiela announced that we're going to have a lunch break.

The food looked so delicious that's why I've put a lot on my plate. I'm hungry, okay. And it's for free. Courtesy of him, so don't waste it. I'm underweight and slim, so the hell with diet.

I seated on the vacant chair near Shiela while Cylec was in front of me. I don't have time to be conscious right now. "Food is life", that's my peg at this moment.

"Let's start our practice at 2pm."

Shiela said while we are eating.

"It's only 11am. What are we going to do for almost 2 hours?"

Sammy said. I'm not meddling on their conversation coz I'm focused on my food.

"Let's watch a movie!"

Christina said while her mouth was full.

"Right! Movie marathon!"

Shiela agreed.

Okay. I really wanted to watched a movie most of the time. Just like those teenagers whose watching in a large cinema with matching popcorn and cold drinks.

I imagined doing that with my future boyfriend. But looking at them, feeling excited about the movie marathon, I think it's a great idea. It looks like I'm watching with my siblings.

Then I looked on Cylec's direction. Okay. Correction. I'm gonna watch a movie with my siblings together with my future boyfriend which is him. Silly girl. What a spirit! Well, day dreaming is for free. So let's grab that free pass. Lol!

Cylec looked at me while chewing his food that's why I avoided his gazed before he catched me watching him. I made myself busy with my food even though I felt that he's still looking in my direction.

"What movie should we watch?"

Sammy said.

"Twilight!"

Shiela and Christina said in unison.

Twilight? I never heard about that movie before. Well, I can't even watched properly on our tv at home coz it's a black and white television. As in, the old version one. It's not even a flat screen.

We don't have a cable. Even DVD player. That tv only had one channel. Channel 7. I'm just watching news there after school coz I love to watched current events.

My life was already in a poor and older version. I just wanted to know what's happening in the world now a days. Outside my world where people and places was more innovated.

Who knows the other side of the country was already infected and suffering zombie apocalypse?Haha. Tss. If I'll be given a chance, I really wanted to explore the whole world.

But I know I can't do that now. Maybe in the future? I don't know. I'm not a fortune teller to foreseen what's gonna happen in my life for the next coming years.

All I can do is to bring out the best in me so that in my future life, I can do whatever I wanted. I can do whatever my heart desires. Without limitations. Without hesitations. Just pure bliss.

"I don't have twilight movie."

Cylec said.

"Don't you worry! I came prepared. I know all you're watching was about home designs, buildings and construction which is so boring."

Christina said while rolling her eyes.

Home designs? Buildings and construction? Is that his movie type? I don't have any idea that there's a movie about those things. Don't tell me his dream is to be a construction worker?

Tss. His knowledge was going to be useless! Well, almost half of the population here in our town are construction workers coz there's a lot of renovation and innovation here led by DPWH.

That's the most in demand job here right now. I didn't know that he had a burning passion about that kind of work. I think he's going to be the supervisor of construction workers if ever because of he's so smart.

"Is it true that you're going to Manila after we graduated in high school?"

Sammy said to Cylec.

"Yeah. That's expected."

Cylec said while looking at me. Then he shooked his head.

He's going to Manila? As in — in a city? That's too far away from here. What is he gonna do there? I heard city is a dangerous place. And thinking about him leaving our town makes me feel sad and weary.

Just thinking about it makes me feel bad. So— he's not going to study here in our towns community college? He's going to pursue his dreams in a far away place.

Right now, I feel the urge of preventing myself from liking him more. He's not going to stay here. He's gonna leave three years from now. And the possibility of me getting hurt and being left alone was killing me.

Gosh! Why I'am over reacting? He's just my crush! We're not even close and far from being friends. I'm not his girlfriend! Why I'm acting like this!? Oh, God, this is bad. Really bad.

"What about you, Cyleen? What's your plan after graduation?"

He asked, to my surprised.

"I don't know yet. I'm not even sure if I can study in college. Maybe I'm gonna stuck here for the rest of my life until I grow old?"

I said and chuckled.

That's right, though. Now that I think about it, that's going to be my life for sure. As in— so unsure. I can't predict my future. With my life right now, I don't even know if my mother can afford to let me studied in college.

I'm not smart. I can't get any scholarship because of my grades for sure. Maybe I'm gonna end up working construction works too. Haha. I'm going to be a laborer? Or do some part time works. I don't know. I don't know yet.

After our lunch, we all gathered at the living room. This is the first time that I entered Cylec's house. Although this house looks old from the outside, it's surprising that the inside was well maintained.

I seated at the single sofa and the rest of my groupmates seated comfortably at the couch. Cylec started to operate their huge flat screen TV and when the movie started, he seated at the carpeted floor, beside my legs.

His back was leaning in between my right legs and lower part of the sofa. What the heck. Does my legs looks like a back rest for him? I can feel his body heat even I'm wearing jeans. There's so many space to be seated on and yet he chose here.

I felt uncomfortable at first, but along the way, I think I liked the idea of being closer to him like this. I decided to focused myself on watching the Twilight movie. It's a romance-fantasy movie about Bella whose human and Edward, the vampire.

The story was really great. I enjoyed it. It's also a school romance. Their love story was so great that I even imagined myself as Bella Swan and Cylec was Edward. Lol!

And the kissing scene, my gosh! I really wanted to experience that magical kissed! I'm almost tempted to pull Cylec closer and kissed him all of a sudden which is so embarrassing! Sometimes love scene at the movie is a bad influence.

Or I'm just the only one whose giving a different meaning on that film? I don't know why I'm so affected. Maybe because the movie was so enticing. I breath heavily when the movie ended.

But I started breathing irregularly again when our dance practice resumed. I think I should learn how to make myself immune to Cylec's presence if I don't want to embarrassed myself in front of everyone.

Exactly 5 o'clock when our dance practiced ended. Since most of my groupmates are neighbours, I'm the one who left first.

"You're going home now?"

Cylec said when I'm about to open the gate. I almost had a heart attack when he showed up. Did he followed me here? He's talking to Rico and Eugene when I left the house, right?

"Yeah. It's already 5. I'm afraid there's no tricycle available anymore. I don't want to walked alone in the middle of the night again."

I said nervously.

"Are you sure there's still a tricycle at this hour?"

He asked.

"I think so. I've gotta go. I can't be late."

I said.

"Let's go. I'm going to buy something on that store too."

He said and pointed the store near the terminal. I just nodded. We walked together until I reached the terminal. I'm lucky coz there's one available tricycle left.

"Get in."

He said. I just nodded and get inside the tricycle. He said something on the driver. I don't know about it. The driver just nodded and smile.

"See you on Monday."

He said before the tricycle left. I smiled and nodded. I even looked back when the tricycle was meters away from where he is. To my surprise, he's already walking back to their home.

He didn't buy anything on that store? He's weird! He said he's gonna buy something. Is that an excuse for him to walked me there? Whatever! I don't want to be assuming.

But the thought of it makes my heart flutter though. I felt so tired the moment I got home. I just ate dinner and sleep in my room right away.

That night, I dreamed about the twilight movie. And guess whose the main character. It's Cylec and I, damn it!