A war with myself - an introvert.

We all are different. Everyone is unique in qualities, physique, talents and situations. I want to introduce myself firstly as a person with stage fear and fear of facing people.

They said to me, "You have to speak there on this topic."

I was cold, frozen, still and quiet. Didn't know what to answer. The words hit me like a thunderclap. I actually didn't know what i do. I gave no answer. They went away.

Now it was the war with myself that i started. "What's the issue? why are you so upset? what made you quiet? Why are you worried?" Not able to even breathe properly, feeling a heavy burden on chest, i kept drinking water. It was me. I was not able to give answer of even a single question of mine. My chest burdened, head was paining, i was thinking, "What is this fear about? why i am so hesitating? There is nothing, i just have to go, speak patiently and come back. Is it too hard to me? Relax! Everything is ok. I can do anything. I can go there. I am brave." "Really? are you brave? You will go there and speak too? very funny! you can't!!" "Why i can't? i can and i will." I decided. But this is something week may be. Everytime i think, i get troubled. This is a war that i am fighting with myself every moment of my life. And wasting my time in not doing anything. If i shall win this war, i will be greatful to me, to the moment, to the person who told me. It will be a great success for me, may be not for others.

"A WAR WITH OUSELVES IS MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN WAR WITH OTHERS."