Chapter 15
Chapter 15
April
We arrived at the beach a little after noon. The weather was cool thus making it perfect to come out. Megan had paired up with Broody and King Lee for a walk leaving me alone on the chair bed.
Jordan was never alone and I needed to talk to him in private.
The whole thing was eating me up inside.
What's his deal?
My phone chimed indicating a text message from Jordan.
*i promise to do better next time and use a condom. Hope you love the gift?*
*don't worry, i wouldn't have let you go in bare if i wasn't on the pill. As for the watch, I'd like to return it.* I heaved a sigh and hit send on the screen after hovering on it for a while.
*glad to know that we're safe. You already signed a lifetime agreement with me last night tease, remember? So you've accepted me. My gifts inclusive.*
I read his reply over and over trying to understand what he meant.
I removed the watch that was worth my outstanding mortgage payment from my bag.
*i don't know what you mean by that plus, i am not one to accept gifts from someone I've had sex with *
*this is a gesture from my heart and not my cock*
I absentmindedly smiled at myself.
What do you really want from this guy April? I questioned myself over and over.
Just sex. I finally replied.
I would have believed myself if I didn't see three girls ogling and giggling around him like candy. One even touched his chest area.
This was his life. Surrounded by girls and returning their laughs. He lived a controversial existence. And now that I got his cherry busted, he can do whatever he wants regardless of what I think or feel.
The image in front of me further infuriated the fact that I actually considered taking a chance on him and i don't know why.
I must have been a fool to even think he was different from the others.
I abruptly stood up to go meet him having stomached enough of it all.
I took his right palm out and stuffed the watch in it. I could have kept the watch and sold it to pay off my mortgage but no, I cherish my dignity.
"Thanks but no thanks," I said and walked away.
I heard him call my name and I didn't respond. He began to run after me.
"What's this about?" He grabbed my arm and twirled me around to face him.
"Nothing. I just don't want gifts from you"
"Says the girl that kept the first set of gifts I sent to her office."
"That happened because we didn't have sex. If we did, I would have returned it back to you" I tucked back a strand of hair behind my ear.
"Try say that to a child, not a full-grown man"
"Yea a full-grown man that can't keep his balls in check" I murmured and looked around except his face.
"What did you say?"
"What did you hear?" I took a quick glance at his face and saw a furious countenance and that didn't bother me in the slightest because I was burning in fury too.
"April Denver are you jealous?" He followed my gaze which was on the girls from before. I didn't even know I was looking at them until he mentioned.
Jealous? Not in the slightest. I am in this for sexual satisfaction alone why would I be jealous?
I hysterically laughed.
"Quit making assumptions already. Why would I be jealous of someone I don't even like?"
I said in-between laughs and deep down I knew I was lying. I am no stranger to this feeling.
I am beginning to feel something for Jordan Crossfire and I think that happened the moment he told me i disvirgined him.
Rule number three, never ever ever ever fall in love with your shag partner.
This time he didn't break this rule in particular, I did.
Fuck shit! I was crying inside. How did this happen? I managed not to fall in love with Sean because trust me if i didn't have rules i would have fallen in love with him but i didn't. Why am i feeling something other than sex worst of all for a guy like JC? A guy that would never return my feelings. A guy that only wanted me to be his sexual acquaintance. A guy that'll probably start sleeping around with different girls now that i made him a real man. A guy i can't see a future with.
A guy that'll make my life miserable.
All these while I've been a hard girl and now I've grown soft for the worst choice of man.
How can my heart make such a decision to start liking him without my permission?
He fixed the watch on my wrist."Keep it" he finally said to lift the silence that had fallen between us.
"I can't..." My voice came out weak.
"Don't say anything, just keep it. I want you to keep it" he kissed my cheeks and left.
I was breaking down inside, every wall i had created around my heart to protect me was crumbling. I turned around to hide the tears i couldn't hold back anymore.
They were tears of pity.
I pity you April Denver.
There seemed to be only one way out. Forget all about him and avoid him for five more days.