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I understand that you may despise me for the sins I did, but one thing I am certain of is that God does not despise me.

I make every effort to make everyone happy for me, yet all they care about is obtaining whatever they can and then ditching me. I'll look at my mother and cry because she's not the same as she was before my father's death; I'm trying to be decent and nice and to put things right; I'm aware that I've made a lot of mistakes in the past, but I want to remedy them all.

Remember when I told you about the guy at my school who wanted to date me? Well, guess what guys, he raped my friend and she became pregnant; I'm not sure if it was rape or she desired it, but I was relieved it wasn't me at the time.

I had a buddy named Chiso; I'm not sure how to characterize her, but she's a mischievous young lady.

She pays me a visit at work at night and suggests that we go to a club after I finish.

I've always refused her and never committed such an act in my life.

My mother abused her but soon after, Kyom advised me to distance myself from her. I'm not sure why, but I refused to listen. Soon after, my team held a drama festival and we performed; I played the witch in the acting portion.

Allow me to be clear: whenever you enter the acting industry, regardless of the position you hold, please pray. This is critical because you never know what the spirit of the film is about.

I performed my witchery duties and later that day, I had an altercation with my mother; I took a swing at her but was fortunate it missed; she shattered my phone and made my life a living nightmare. That night, I felt the house and knew when to move in with Chiso, my friend.

I stayed there for three days before my brother discovered it; when my mother discovered it, she came with a large group of people and thrashed and dragged me home; I afterwards kneeled down and apologized to her because she laid a lot of blame on me.

I tried everything I could to make her happy and be a good girl; I began creating songs and novels to ensure that they were well received.

Every time I sell food on the side of the road, but the guy kept coming.

Because of the awful dream I had, I refused to be his buddy; but, he persisted, and I eventually accepted that he might not be as bad as I imagined.

We became best friends, and I admire his smile.

I desired to go university but lacked the financial means.

I fell ill one day while my mother was away and I was home alone; when John noticed, he brought me a large amount of fruit. I was extremely grateful and thankful to him.

After four days, I recovered, and my younger brother has always advised me to leave that guy alone since he is not a good person.

My brother stated that he saw him with a girl at night and they were touching. I refused to believe him and inquired, but he stated that everything was a lie.

I believe him till one day all of his girlfriends approached me and told me to leave that guy and run away; I was told how he uses girls and brainwashes them. I cried after hearing that he truly wants to use me.

I ended our friendship and told him not to text me again. We became strangers, and even when I pass him, I never look in his direction.

I felt relieved without speaking with him again after how many days, but why do I have this nagging feeling that something bad is about to happen? I try to push it away and force myself to be myself.

I give my mother whatever money that comes my way and she always praises me; I know that God has not forgotten about my family yet.

I divide my time between day and night in pursuit of calm and joy.

Listen, whenever a favor comes your way, regardless of the circumstances, you will face a temptation that will bring you down; you must say no to the devil and do what is right; never give up and never lose hope.

This world does not know who you are; only you know what this world is fighting and undoing everything to be great in life is not a sin; however, you must be prudent in how you make it in life; everything in this world has a cost, and you must ask yourself what is my cost and what goal do I need to accomplish in order to make it.

Be your word and light, and also pray to God to see you through.