246 Beyond

All the pain and grief that were consuming them both were completely suspended. Their whole world froze. Every part of them screeched to a full-on halt as their thoughts belatedly caught up to speed. 

He had… kissed her. And he was… okay. Totally okay. 

No flashes of unwanted disgusting images that would cause him to break out in shivers. It was just her beautiful face that was in his vision, filling up his every senses. Just her and the feeling of her soft, warm lips pressing desperately against his. 

He had just lost it. He was desperate to stop her from saying those words but he could not bear to lift his hand anywhere above her shoulders. That horrifying scene from that night when he had returned to his senses and found his own hand wrapped around her neck, strangling her as though wanting to choke her to death, was still playing too vividly in his mind. 

And then that just happened. 

"F**k." Sebastian cursed. Then he choked.